20 22nd Nightmare
22nd Nightmare
NAENAH AKAIBARA'S POINT OF VIEW
I brought Andres to my house since my house nearer than his.
"I'll just take a shower and change then you can take a shower after me."
"Okay," he said and sit on my sofa comfortably, "Is it okay to sit?"
"Yeah, sure."
He's already dry so I agreed. I proceed in taking a shower. I decided to wear comfortable clothes like shirt and pajamas. I heard a loud music that disturbed me.
Don't look around 'cause love is blind
And darling right now, I can't see you
I'm feeling proud so without a doubt
I can feel you
"Andres?" I opened the door and find Andres while drying my hair using my towel.
'Cause we are who we are
When no one's watching
And right from the start
You know I got you
The music is coming from my living room so I went there.
Yeah, you know I got you...
(Yeah, you know I got you)
I won't mind,
Even though I know you
You'll never be mine
I am shocked with what I found out in my living room.
I won't mind
Even though I know
You'll never be mine
(Never be mine)
(Never be mine)
Andres is dancing in passion with the music playing.
We messed around until we found
The one thing we said we could never ever
Live without, I'm not allowed to talk about it
But I gotta tell you
'Cause we are who we are
When no one's watching
And right from the start
You know I got you
My jaw dropped at the sight in front of me.
Yeah, you know I got you...
(Yeah, you know I got you)
I won't mind
Even though I know you
You'll never be mine
I won't mind
Even though I know
You'll never be mine
(Never be mine)
(Never be mine)
When the music ended, Andres stopped dancing. I just look at him suspiciously.
"The fuck, Andres! Are you a macho dancer or what?"
"I'M NOT!" He denied, "It's just a pastime and I'm good at it. I'm bored while waiting for you so I just dance. I'm not a macho dancer, okay?!"
He grabbed my towel from my hand with annoyance.
"It's my towel!" I protested.
"I don't care! I'll take a shower!" He said irritably.
"You can use the tshirt and basketball shorts that I left in there!"
I admit that Andres is really good at dancing. Just like what Manager P before, he's really talented. Speaking of Manager P, she said that she'll be gone for awhile because she need to fix some problem.
"You live alone?" Andres asked.
We are currently eating for lunch. He asked if he could stay for awhile to wait for the rain to stop so I decided to asked him cooked for lunch because I wouldn't let him stay in my house for free even if just for an hour.
"Yeah."
"Where's your family?" He asked.
It took minutes before I could finally answer his question, "You mean my adoptive parents? They're gone because of an accident. If you're referring to my biological parents, I can't remember them."
"I'm sorry if I asked you about it. I thought..." he can't continue his sentence.
"Don't be. I should be sorry because I can't remember them," I said, "Akaibara is not my real surname. It's from my adoptive parents."
"Don't you want to find your real family?" He asked.
"How could I find them? I don't even have a single information about them. I don't even know where did they got me, but I know that I am already thirteen years old when they got me."
"Do you want me to help you find them?" He asked.
"No, it's okay. It will be just a waste of time."
He became silent for awhile like he's gaining some confidence for the next thing he's going to say.
"Naenah!" He shouted.
"What?!"
"I'M FUCKING FALLING FOR YOU!"
What he said, shattered my whole life.
No, Andres. You can't fall in love with me.
"Naenah, why do you invite us to have a sleepover in your house?" Tia asked.
"I just want us to bond."
"You have a problem. I can feel it," Yvanna said.
"Girl instinct. Tell us, what is it?" Liana said.
"Andres."
"What's the problem with him?" Yvanna asked.
"He told me that he's falling for me."
"Falling for you?!" Tia said sarcastically, "You two can't be together, right?!"
"I don't trust his guts. He's a womanizer, right? Don't fall for his charms, he might use your vulnerability against you," Yvanna added.
"But if Naenah loves him, maybe we should just let her decide. Maybe Andres is not that ruthless afterall when it comes to love," Liana disagreed.
"This is not a fairytale, Liana. Anyone can be ruthless. Our lives cannot be on fairytales because we're the antagonists. We can't expect a happy ending on our own lives because every second of our life is on risk," Yvanna said.
"I'm not saying that our life should be like fairytales, Vannie. Is it forbidden to let Naenah love somebody? She's in the right age. She's older than me. She's not getting younger anymore!" Liana said.
Why do people keep saying that I am older than them?
"Well, it's better if he's just somebody, but he's not. Andres is the owner of Security Company. Kierulf Security Company to be exact. The authorities are thirst for the informations about us. They are eager to put and rot us in jail. Let's say that Andres accepted her for who she is, but the society where Andres is. Do you think they will accept her? Her life would be in danger. Not just also her life, but also our lives," Tia said, "I know that Naenah will decide for the common good, a beneficial decision for everyone. She'll not decide for something reckless."
"This night is for us! Let's stop talking about Andres. Let's enjoy this night," Yvanna interrupted, "Help prepare the food, Tia."
Tia and Yvanna start preparing the food. I just sit on the sofa and observe them. I sensed that Liana sit beside me.
"Naenah, I know that I've been a bitch to you, but I'm going to support you decision," Liana hold my hand, "Don't let this chance pass then regret. Try to be happy. Let your heart and brain decide, not just your brain. Sometimes it's better if you'll let your heart speak just know your limits."
"Thank you, Liana," I hugged her.
Trying to be happy is not a mistake. It's a choice to make. I want to be happy this time. I want to know how love works. I want to feel the warmth and set aside the coldness.
