1 Regret

I never ever really thought about where my life would go.

At first, I had my parents to do that. always pampering me and giving in to all my wishes and desires NOT. My Frost family belonged to an aristocratic background and reputation is everything to us. They molded me into the young lady they thought I had to be, my clothes, food, studies, and even friends were all specifically chosen by them. They chose my murderer too...funny right

Daniel Bulock...

The greatest man alive in their books, with a smile that can hypnotize a lion into eating vegetables, I doubt they saw it coming.

I have a brother too, Zack Frost. Everyone called him 'cold Hades' the young master of the Frost family, but I called him pea pac, because he was always the same towards me both inside and out. He was more of a parental figure to me than our parents who always weren't there but controlled everything from the sides.

I wonder how he's gonna feel when he finds me here. that's if he finds me though...

You see, before my parents died they found me a fiance. The most eligible bachelor in the city, Daniel Bulock. and were set to marry on my twentieth birthday. Like always they didn't ask for my opinion. I was immediately dropped out of college and put into tons of etiquette for the appropriate behavior of a young madam. I learned how to cook for him, how to dress to his liking, how to address him with respect, basically how to wait on his needs.

Initially, I was mad, furious even, but I learned to keep it in. I accepted it.

The eve of my twentieth birthday came. There was no bachelorette party or celebration of any sort, but I didn't know that day was my death date.

Today...

When or if I ever imagined how my death would be... I never saw myself being murdered by one of the people who were meant to protect me.

Daniel had come to my hotel room. He had a crazed look in his eyes as he took alarming footsteps towards my bed where I was sitting. he dragged me out of the room as I kept on insisting on what was his problem. He led me through the obscured stairs and headed straight for the underground parking. Once we were in his car as he drove us towards the outskirts of the city.

I was frightened and confused at the same time. Before long he stopped the car and dragged me out, to what seemed like an abandoned shed.

I remember how he roughly threw me down like I was some disease he couldn't wait to cure. He started going on about how I ruined things for him, how his pregnant girlfriend killed herself all because I was too selfish to refuse the engagement to my parents. As shocked as I was, the adrenaline pumping in me didn't allow me to stay.

When he took out a pistol from his pocket I immediately pushed him down and ran out into the vast forest behind. But before I entered the forest, a gunshot had been fired. Shock overtook my nerves as I had halted in my steps before sprinting as my life depended on it.

I had run until my vision started to blurry and my steps faltered every minute. And before I knew it my knees buckled and I fell forward unable to break my fall. My senses doubled as my trembled and my heart feeling numbed.

...that was a few hours ago...

My back is numb from the pain of the bullet lodging through it. I cant feel my legs as my whole body has turned cold, my breaths coming in huge gasps with an aching chest. I turn over just so I can watch the sunrise for the last time. My vision getting blurrier than ever with the huge blood loss.

I think about what Daniel said and I can't find any logic to refute him. maybe I have been selfish in my life, having the best of everything but never really wanting it. Perhaps maybe if I had ever for once stood up for myself this day wouldn't have come. Zack would be home waiting for me to come back from college just to stay the weekend, Emily would still be my friend and Daniel's girlfriend wouldn't have committed suicide leading him to become crazy.

A howl breaks me out of my reverie and from a distance the silhouette of a man and a huge dog enter my line of vision as a breathless sigh leaves my lips and I feel my consciousness slowly slipping away.