16 Confessions

"You.' couldn't find them?" Nana asks as we walk back in the kitchen.

"No, Nana...Uhm I'll leave Landon with you okay?"

"Sure, you go on ahead," she says as she picks Landon up and sets him on the table.

I walk to the backyard and sit on a bench facing the trees, for a while, I just sit and stare off in thought. I hear someone approaching and sit right beside me, I don't make the effort to looks.

"In thought?"The voice asks which I have come to realise is Darius."Yes, Im just kinda conflicted right now you."

"About what?" he asks and I take a moment to think, listening to the sound of nature. The birds chirping, the leaves blowing and the loud silence the emits from the forest.

"I like you, Darius," I say with my heart pounding rapidly. Im scared but also encouraging myself to play it cool. There is just silence and I decide to add

"I know you don't feel the same as I do Darius, I mean you did basically tell me the first day we met you don't do little girls but I just couldn't help falling for you." with that said I turn to him to peek at what kind of expression he had but he was already staring at me. I look away immediately and turn to my hands as a distraction.

"I have been aware of your physical attraction to me, but my answer still remains the same," he says and I feel a tight squeeze near my heart.

"It's not just physical attraction, it's emotional as well... Darius for the past year you have been pushing me past my limit, physically and mentally. Initially, I hated you for it, your rude comments and personality but I grew to realise because of that I wouldn't be as good as I am today. I think along the line I started to look up to you, not only as a mentor but a friend. From time to time you advised me and encouraged me the way you did. Initially, I was attracted to you only physically but gradually from the countless training sessions we had together, my feeling grew past your features." I say and breath out afterwards. Even after saying that my hands are shaking not only from the nerves but also the fear of being rejected.

"I don't do relationships kid, I am not one to fuck and stay." he simply says and I sigh.

"I understand, is Natasha your fuck buddy then since you too seemed to be very busy earlier, "I say while clenching my fist trying to calm the anger that slowly sturs up inside of me.

"Natasha is an old friend and that shouldn't be any of your business"

"Can I be your fuck buddy then!"I burst out desperately, tears streaming down my eyes. For once, just once I just want someone to like me back, to reciprocate my feelings.

I hear him sigh and say, "Elena, I will never see you how you want me to, sleeping with you just for pleasure will not ma-"

I cut him off and say"but I understand and I just want to do it for pleasure too!"I insist.

"You're too young" he simply says and I hear him get up and walk away. I quickly turn back and see him walk away and I shout, "No... I-I can be as good as Natasha!" but to no avail, as he keeps walking further into the house.

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