1 The first time

I feel as if I'm getting pulled into a world where I only feel darkness and I know every teenager feels this way or claims to but there is only a little bit of use that actually do.... I feel like I can't breath and that something inside of me is trying to kill me and i gave this thing half of my mind. This thing in my mind only comes out when I cry and that when it talks. When this thing talks i cry more cause i know what it's saying is true it's says to me "your worthless.", "nobody cares.", "your parents don't care so why do you.", why do I care I wonder the same. I feel as if I'm not in my family, I'm like an allusion that's only seen when they want something! In a family with six kids you would think there would be only one favorite but in mine there's five. I'm the only one that's singled out, though I am given a lot of good things I feel as if my love is being bought and not earned. I have no desire to stay here I wish to be a demon that can have some purpose in life. Though being a demon sounds very bad to most people for me it sounds like fun I can be evil and empty and not get judge but there is no place where I belong because I don't belong anywhere. I'm pretty sure no body belongs anywhere, where all pieces in a puzzle but nun of use fit but we try to.

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