1 Stronghold

"What is life? Why did this happened? Where am i?" Inner voice talking in his head. "Jowell, Jowell, Jowell! You're sleeping at my class again. You should listen at my teachings in order for you to learn! You know that you're the most inactive or should i rather say the most idiot in this class. So stop sleeping and pay attention, okay?" "Okay, ma'am" answered Jowell. The whole class started to whisper at each others and laughed at Jowell. Jowell couldn't do anything but to let them be and listen to what his grandma always telling him. "Don't let anybody ruin your day." After their class his teacher gave them a pair activity and said that they can pair with whoever they wanted. After that the whole class started to find their pair and have theirs immediately except for Jowell 'cause everybody on their class avoids him for no reason. He realized that the world is so unfair he don't deserve what is happening to him now atleast that's what he has in mind, but reality is reality and nothing can change wether he likes it or not. After the whole class finished pairing, one student shouts and says. "Who in here doesn't have a pair yet?!" Jowell replied and says "me! I don't have any pair who in here doesn't have a pair too? Can i join you?" Whole class didn't listened to him instead they mind their own bussinesses and talk to each other. Jowell goes out in their classroom and go in his usual place at the back of their school. He talks to himself, thinking, crying, and started to worry what will happen to him if he didn't finished his activity. "What will happen in my failure grades what will grandma woud've feel if she saw her grandson's failing grades and what will happen to me? I'm pretty sure that i'll became a laughstock again. This is pointless i should get back in our room." While walking back into their room Jowell bumps into some thugs and the thugs gets mad and pushed him he started to apologize to them and says he will do anything just to avoid hurting him. "You'll do anything? Are you sure?" "Yes, sir i'm sure, just please don't hurt me." The thugs suddenly laugh at him for being too scared, they noticed jowell's eyes is full of tears that can't go down they saw an eyes of a boy who's so hurt inside that couldn't even find a person to talk with it. The thugs suddenly talks to Jowell and ask him how and what he feels. Jowell started to talk and said these words. "It's nothing i don't feel alive it's just too plain the world seems colorless the grasses aren't green anymore the people seems happy but deep down they're all sad this life doesn't have any meaning it's just a cycle of birth and death there's no point in living. All of us are living in lies we're just living in someone else's belief there's no point in asking me how i feel but to be honest you can't help me." The thugs suddenly went silent they're so hooked at what Jowell has said but the boss didn't flustered instead he stoped Jowell and said. "Listen to me whoever you are but the world you are seeing is different than what other people sees y'know life isn't a cycle of birth and death maybe that is true, logically?, Somehow?, But life isn't like that i am like you before i became a thug i know and we know that people thinks of us as a bad person that's why all of them avoids us without even knowing our story, it's just pure stupidity to think like that, there are people who is fighting just to live! There are people who is working hard just to feed their family. There's a hidden joy in everyone's action no one can live like that you're not alone i know that you don't have a friend, i know that you are sad but your reason on why you are sad is too shallow. Sorry for the long speech i just wanted to help you, by the way what's your name? My name's Skylar and these punks names are Johanne the one who is tall, Mark the silent one and Allan the short one." Said Skylar. "My name's Jowell, nice to meet y'all." Jowell started to get back in their classroom and the thugs does their usual chores. While walking Jowell suddenly broke down and cry as hard as he can no one was their no one was here no one can help him but he realized the thugs ain't bad at all of course they hurt them physically but they still has humanity within them. He told to himself that crying isn't an option he needs to change, life ain't a cycle of birth and death but clearly he still believes in that. "I need to get smart, stronger and independent i need to change but most importantly i need to be kind." When Jowell gets back into their room he saw his bag full of dirty marks of pens and all of their class made a prank of him they pour water into his face and triped him. "Why are you doing this?! What's the purpose of this? I didn't even do anything wrong to you did i really deserve this?!" The whole class didn't even get touched to what he said they just continued their usual way of living. He sat down into his chair and cry until he gets tired. After the school he hastly went out of their campus and go in the bridge where people usually go when committing suicide. "I don't want to live anymore it's too painful i'm so hurt i cannot live anymore i am better dying than living." He is about to jump but his legs can't move his whole body is shaking and his mind is going blank all of the painful memories that he experienced began showing. But there's a little fragment of hope that's left in his hopeless life he couldn't believe what has he done he regrets not fighting back he regrets mourning on something that will never come back he regrets everything. Regret is the only thing that left him alive. In order for him to rest in piece he needs to change. "I won't die unless my regrets are all finished." End

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