7 I had no will 6

This situation was the worst I had endured my 21 years on Earth. If I could only open the ground and sink in a hole or even flush myself away.

Gabe had had a cool composure earlier but when he saw the bleeding nose he lost his cool. I could see that he was now worried. He started swearing in a whisper. He left the toilet and came back in a few moments. He was holding an ice pack which he gentle placed on my forehead. Atleast I could feel the bleeding slowing down but another round of @&% was coming through so I had to release. This situation lasted for about 30mins. I was tired and weak after all was out. I just had to sleep, my body was tired. I could tell he was also tired so asked him to leave me shower. I crawled into the tub and opened the cold water on the shower.

Fortunately there was water on that night ( Normally the water comes for 2 hrs a day) I took in the coldness and it had a soothing feeling as it fell on my body. It strengthed my weakened muscles and cleared my mind. At least I was not yet in a state to be too embarrased.

After showering (We all use a common toilet which doubles as a bathroom) I bumped into Xas on the door. He just smiled as he entered the bathroom. I could not understand his smile so I just rushed to my room. Since I was the only girl I was not sharing a room and this thought after my ordeal comforted me. Unfortunately to my room you pass through the sitting area and Gabe was crashing on the sofa as I passed. I couldn't help feel a bit bad by what I had made him go through.

He had resorted to sleeping over just to ensure I was okay which felt great.