5 Chapter 4:

Darkness is consuming me;

My only comfort is my heartbeat.

I'm shivering and I'm shaking,

My tears provide the only heat.

Thinking back to fifty years ago;

On the surface and carefree.

My father dear he loved but punished me

My home is now the dirt,

I've learnt to find comfort in the soil.

I don't think I'll ever leave this place,

Why should I when I'm not loyal?

120 or so years ago-

Vivian's POV:

"Father... I beg of you, please don't do this! He was just a child!" My voice was weak as my eyes rapidly took in the large trees of the forest that looked as if they had been dipped in darkness.

Two men gripped me from underneath my arms as the rest of me dragged on the forest floor. The cold night air brushed against the skin that was exposed thanks to the rips and the tears in the fabric of the dress that stuck close to my body.

The mud collected itself on the bottom of my dress and I tried my best to think of anything, like the silence of the crickets so that I didn't pay attention to what would become of me within just moments.

"Oh Vivian, you use to be the best daughter I've ever had..." A few feet diagonal from me walked a man with the same chocolate curls of hair and blue-gray eyes that I inherited.

For the past 36 years since I've been reawakened my father has showered me in his own dark and twisted love. One that constantly wrapped itself around my neck just to remind me that the only person who would ever love or care for me is the one man that's given me anything I wanted.

If I wanted a diamond ring? He'd have one of his men go and rip off any finger he found with a diamond worthy of his daughter. There really wasn't anything he couldn't get his hands on, even if it was in a nasty way. Still, growing up with the twisted man led me to learn how to hold a relationship of both love and hate for the monster. What else could I feel for the man who both birthed as well as raised me even if he's forced me to turn into a monster almost as bad as him?

Suddenly we stopped so I couldn't help but look away from my father and toward what was in front of me when the guards forced me to my knees.

A deep grave-like hole was before me and just looking at it sent tears racing down my face. Fear wracked my body because already, I could see the inevitable happening.

It still feels as though I've just climbed out of the darkness not too long ago... yet I'll be going back in another way.

I'll be surrounded by silence and my own anger until the hunger forces me into slumber.

Father turned and bent in front of me, those intense red eyes glaring at me were instead replaced by an icy blue. Ensuring that he could stop me physically if need be. Roughly he snatched my chin into his hand that looked as if it had been dipped in blood only to crust over and dry. Valentino Daphne could care less about such a dirty thing, but I couldn't help flinching in disgust.

"Since the day you were born, I gave you nothing but the best... I made a world just for you and then... and then you ruin everything just to save that child? Maybe it's the old age or I was just too stupid to see past my affection for you but just like everyone else, you betrayed me," Valentino's voice was coated in venom. His being so close gave me the urge to spit on his face but I didn't. Instead, I let myself feel sorry. Sorry for all the evil Valentino has spread... all in the name of making me happy. The happiness he never noticed had dimmed out the second my mother had sacrificed herself for me, leaving no one to hide me from the dark love that Valentino seemed happy to share.

"I trusted you!" Valentino shouted suddenly and the power in his voice made the small group of his men fall back a bit. Unfortunately for the two who held me, they stayed in place, but it wasn't hard to notice how their hold on me shook.

The words my father spoke made my lips curl up in hatred.

"You destroyed me!" I screamed at him it seemed as if what I said made him freeze in surprise, so I continued.

"If you hadn't been so hellbent on controlling her, my mother would still be alive! I would still have someone to shield me from the fucked-up shit you call love! I was an innocent little girl and the moment my mother wasn't there to protect me, you gave me no choice but to become a monster like you or drown in a world of blood I've wanted nothing to do with! I... you... you took my Bastien from me!" The look on Valentino's face seemed as if I had slapped him.

Really, I wish I could. And so much more.

Just the mention of my little Bastien had my soul screaming out in pain and outrage. Feelings I couldn't act on it because I was too weak.

Seconds passed before Valentino's cold personality pushed back to the surface and then he stood, giving his men a nod right as he turned his back on me.

"Father..." I spoke in a shaky voice, my eyes moving back down to the hole that held the future of my immortal life. Valentino didn't turn around and instead kept himself facing the sunset.

"Father don't do this to me..." Because if I ever escaped from underground, I'm coming to kill his men first. Valentino would be saved for last, only because the bastard's life is harder to take.

The two men beside me began to lift me and, gods, fear of the dark rang so loud in my soul I could feel it in my bones.

"You should kill me, Valentino! The moment I get out of this hole I'm coming for revenge against everything you've done to turn me into the monster I am today!" I screamed my hatred at him and the last thing I saw was how he turned himself slightly to look at me from the side. On his face was a small smile, as if that was exactly what he wanted.

And then I was thrown down into the hole.

My body was weak from lack of souls and climbing out wasn't an option. The large pile of dirt that had once been where I lay was suddenly hovering above the grave, held up by the two vampires.

"Then, daughter, we finally agree on something. There's only room for one monster in this world we live in," And just like that, I was smothered in the dirt. My sobs of anxiety were muffled and in seconds my fear of the dark grew stronger than anything I'd ever seen.

And for the next 50 years, there I lay.

Living yet dead all the same.