THE LOVE I NEVER KNEW

There's no feeling that is close the one you get when you have both your parents, standing side by side with you on your graduation day. Unfortunately for Belinda it's only a wish that she would perhaps change if she had the powers to. Life has not been easy for her especially the unknown cause that led to her parents deaths. Who knows maybe if things were different, they would be right there with her with tears of joy rolling down their cheeks. The story is far from that.

Belinda's P.O.V

Belinda Parkers! I stood up holding my head up so high, wore my widest smile, gathered all my pride and walked forward as the crowd kept clapping and yelling my name.

"Belinda Parkers, congratulations to your degree in culinary Arts, it's been a hustle for you, who would have ever known...!" I sighed to this as Mr. Robinson went on, "We wish you all the best in your next journey, I have no doubt that it won't be long before you get a good full-time job because you, you've got it all."

"Thank you sir", and with that I stepped down and went back to join my mates.

Lots of memories filled me up, and my only wish at that time was, "if only my mum and dad were still here with me, they would be so proud of me, of who their daughter has become..."

No, no, no why does it have to be like this!

Belinda!, I shook of my thoughts off soon as I heard my best friend's voice.

"Congrats Dear, we made it!” Kelly shouted.

"Yeah! Congrats too!" we hugged so tight we could barely breath, the excitement was as though we had won a rotary or something!

"So what next after here?" Jordan interrupted our moments of joy. He was one of my course mate. Well, not exactly that but we shared a few course units.

"Aah-- mm, well, I..we..-Kelly!" I answered as if I was not sure of what next, truth is I wasn't sure, an after party at my aunt's house, she and I have never been on the same page, literally we are not the best of friends.

"There's a party at my place, Bel will be joining me, but you guys are invited that's if you want to come along." Kelly intervened and I thanked God for that, apart from Kelly no one knew my story, I always wore the perfect side of me before facing the world.

"Okay, sounds great." Jordan agreed with a little smirk on his face.

"Alright see you guys, and congrats once again." he said as he left.

Bwahahahaha!, the laughters echoed through the living room as everyone laughed at once!

"Congratulations my daughters!" Kelly's Mum tells us.

Mrs. Paula Wattson is such a lovely woman, ever since the death of my parents, she has always seen me as her daughter.. something which my aunt wouldn't do.

"Thanks mum." we replied as we gave her a group hug.

The music played on and on, Jordan didn't turn up, I guess he decided to enjoy the moment with his family.

After a few hours later, the guests started leaving one by one. I told Kelly that I won't be going anywhere until the cleaning is done, she nodded her head in agreement.

"So what are your plans?" Kelly asked as she put the last chair in their store.

"Well tomorrow I’ll send in my applications via emails and will move around and look for vacancies, who knows I might just get lucky." I dusted my hands off as we went back inside.

"I also plan to do the same, I believe we will get lucky." says Kelly. Alright then, see you tomorrow?

Yeah!, See you then, a cub should be here in a few minutes. I called for it 3hrs back!

"You know you can as well stay for the night, right?".. Kelly reminded me.

Yeah, and I very much appreciate your concerns but let that be some other time.

Oh it's here.,

"See you next time bestie.", I pecked Kelly as we parted, moved to the car and we set off.

Damn I'm so tired! I don't think I'm in for a shower. I said to myself as I climbed the stairs to my room. Thank God I don't share my bed with anyone, I say this letting out a breath I didn't know I was holding Inside. After changing into something more comfortable. I lay down on my comfy bed as I thought to myself. How would things be right now if me and my two faced supposed boyfriend or better yet fiance were still together..

***Flashbacks***

Belinda: Davison, listen, I don't understand why you keep acting like this even when you know very well that I'm right!

Davison: Oh please! Would stop that spatting,. So right is your girlfriend thinking that you're seeing other girls aside from her, I don't think I can handle your insecurities.. every day you're getting worse and worse.!

Belinda: You call that insecure?!, we've been together for the past 2years and this is what you could come up with?! I thought you're smarter than this!

Just tell me, who's she?

Davison: Who, Who?,,

Belinda: You see that stuttering, that definitely proves me right, who is Felicia?, The girl you were all over in the library corner, like you couldn't get enough of her?! Licking her face like you wanted to swallow her alive! See, I saw it all..I just don't understand it, you could have just told me that things weren't working out for God's sake!

Davison: You should look yourself in the mirror before you complain, Look at you, I don't recognize you at all, what happened to you, where is that sweet girl I met 2years back..Linda I loved you,..God knows I tri...

Belinda: Don't even go there!, the countless calls, the voices mails, the texts that you kept ignoring every time I tried reaching out to you, or do you think I didn't notice that?! You're talking about Sweet and by this I guess you mean my beauty..what a cheap mentality you've got there! Who knows for how long you've been doing all your shit! But you know what, this is how you've always been, you never acknowledge your damn mistakes, you're always looking for who to blame and I won't be so dumb to forego it this time around, it's super over between us..if you want you can call all your senseless slats and have a party, Idiot!

"Linda I didn't mean to say all that, listen, Sweetie Please!" Dave begged.

"Don't you ever call me that!", I said that on top of my voice, sounded more like a warning to him.

"At least let me drive you home.” Dave offered. It's late and really dark outside.

"Ooh, look at that!", I said to him as some funny laughs escaped my mouth.

So now you realize it's dark, how about those cold nights you stood me up for hours on dates that you set yourself?!" "Most of them you never showed up giving me excuses, I had to walk home by myself, tell me who does that?!"Let me be!, I slammed his room door so hard and ran out of his house as fast as I could, the air was suffocating me, I was furious, tears threatened to roll down from my eyes, but held them back. That Jerk didn't deserve a single drop of my precious tear."

"Oh damn,!, It's already 2:00am, I have no reason for thinking about that idiot, I'm glad he's no longer in my life, I don't regret my decision, though I believe that he, he was, will and forever be the last idiot to treat me like that, all I need now is to focus on my dreams. That's what they say," The best therapy for a broken heart is to work had and achieve your dreams, years later meet up with that person looking all glamorous and classy, more like Kim Kardashian's Revenge Body therapy. I will rise, one day everyone will regret treating me the way they do. But honestly I don't understand men, when you're tough, you're not romantic, when you're so sweet and kind, that's a free ticket for them to do all sorts of things they wish to do!" Hmm..I need some sound sleep, I turn to my right as I let sleep take over me.

“Wakeup!” Some unknown voice whispered in my ear.