The Long Process

After seeing a secret love, already happy with his life, I figured, I won't do anything about it anymore.

There's no need to revive whatever feelings I have for him, but my fingers failed me.

My compulsiveness got the better of me, and I sent him a message, I told him,

Dear Joe,

You probably don't remember me, I was 21, and you were 23. I first saw you in a basketball match.

You're number 12 Jersey, Your team won that game. My team, was at the losing end.

For the longest time, I have held a secret crush on you ever since.

I don't expect you to do anything about it, I just want to finally tell you how I feel.

Simply put it, I'm doing this for me.

Thank you because You were an inspiration to me, and You were my Ideal Guy.

Feel free to unfriend me, if you might get uncomfortable.

Thanks again, and Happy Belated Birthday, Also you have the same birthday as my cousin.

Sincerely,

Francine,

I quickly shut my Phone off. 📱

Then after an hour of tossing and turning in my bed, I realised what a mistake I did, and tried to clear up the mess. I tried to unsend the message, but it was too late. The Remove For All option which removes the message from my Inbox and his, doesn't appear anymore, it only removes it from my Inbox.

Oh no, It's not here. What will I do now? If he sees it in he morning he might think I'm crazy or something.

I will unfriend him maybe, Yes!🙌😅 that's what I'll do.

But he will notice I unfriended him😨, nope that's not it. Unfollow?😓

Yes but it will still be there for him to see the message.

Scratches head, in frustration.😱😤😓😩

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This is a normal reaction, when you make the Love Connection the first time around💌

Symptoms of a Woman, who has successfully made the leap of faith, and bravely gone where every Man has gone before:

1. Shutting down your phone off abruptly.

2. Trying the remove/ unsend a message she has just sent

3. Excessive sweating of the armpits

4. Insomnia, or lack of sleep due to the waiting game

5. Regretting sending a message, or making the love connection

6. Doing damage control, Unfriending, blocking or unfollowing of the secret love's account

7. Writing it in your diary as Your Digital wall of shame

8. Possibly deleting the social media account to avoid reading his reply if anything pops up within the day

9. Worst case scenario, this girl will dump her phone in the toilet bowl.🚽

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I might not have done it in the first place, how stupid of me, Hmmmpp😥😰😡

I tried to unfollow him, and maybe turn off all notifications of any messages from him, and I will settle down, maybe I will unfriend him two days from now. Yes! Yes! that's it, that's what I'll do.

The long process of damage control starts now.....😨😱😤