Self-destructive behavior

Nefretiri

Ivan let me go, staring at me with an expression that wasn't fake. 

When people talk about self-destructive behavior, we should be the photo people see. This was worse than torture. The perfect mix of pain and pleasure that sent my soul into fits of revolt. The bond didn't know what to do, so it intensified my emotions, making my tears break through even harder. It's not like the mate bond has thoughts. It's an instinctive reaction within us, and we were doing something that sounded like rejection.

It felt that way, too.

Every time Ivan touched me, the sparks grew to the point that I felt like I was on fire. My body reacted to the bond's attempts to rectify a non-existent problem. I loved Ivan and had no intention of leaving him. However, faking all this was another matter that you can't explain to a mystical effect. So, I was almost to the point of being in heat while my heart broke at my words. Like I said, torture.