158 Scared

He wasn't selfish. And until their family was in trouble, he never forgot me. He never let me feel that I'm alone despite the distance.

And now that he's here again, hugging me and almost kneeling in supplication, I feel like I'm running away from common sense. All I want to do is to face him, hug him back and tell him how much I love him.

For the first time, I wanted to be selfish. For the first time, I wanted to forget what was waiting for us outside. I want to be drowned in this fantasy and lay down all the cards I have to get him back.

"Rage, I..." I spoke boldly after a few minutes of silence. But my voice faded midway. I bit my trembling lower lip and blinked emphatically.

Gradually, his embrace with me widened until he finally let me go. My lips parted and was still immobile. I can feel him retreating but I'm sure he's not too far away from 'kin.

But I didn't have the courage to face him.

I'm scared.