Our First

Before I had realized it, Derek was leaning in, barrly inches from my face. My eyes widened and I watched as Derek's glowing eyes closed and he inhaled deeply. I shifted back slightly and watched as his body slowly shifted back and his eyes opened to reveal his normal emerald coloured eyes. "Baby, you're a wolf, which means you should be able to shift.... " His hand slowly made it's way to my jaw, gently pushing my head so I faced Jim completely and in the process sending waves of bliss through me. "Would you do me the honor of shifting, I am dying to see your wolf. So is Rowan but besides the point."

My eyebrows knitted together in both confusion and self pity. "I can't, I haven't shifted into my wolf form in years. And what do you mean Rowan??? I have to show myself to someone else?" I asked a little panicky, I couldn't be around another Wolf, Derek was an exception to my crippling fear. Derek's eyes widened and he removed his hands from me, sitting back in his chair. I shifted uncomfortably as he did so. I wondered if he was repulsed because I wasn't able to shift.

"Wow, okay so much to explain. Rowan is me you don't have to be around anyone else If you're uncomfortable." I exhaled and nodded slowly, pulling my left knee into a bent position so I could lay my chin on it. He leaned forward again and continued talking. "Rowan is my wolf, my spirit wolf. A werewolf has a human soul and a wolf soul, so I can speak with him and he can communicate with me, when I shift into my wolf he takes control and when my eyes are glowing that's Him talking through me. He's got his own personality and quirks and ideas and thoughts and opinions, ectera. Every were has a wolf spirit." I listened and found myself sniffing the shirt I was in absent-mindedly. I scrunched up my nose as I flashed back to the first time I had shifted to my wolf, I do remember not feeling like I was in control. I remember how I used to talk to myself all day until I was beaten because I "was spaced out." "Kitten? When was the last time you shifted to your wolf, or even heard from him??"

I looked at Derek and stiffened at the memory of being beaten for shifting. I swallowed before quietly speaking. "The last time I shifted was the first time, when I was forced to shift. I was beaten half to death by my father when he saw me in wolf form, never spoken to and shifted into him a-again." My voice cracked at the end of my sentence and I looked up to see Derek's eyes glowing brightly and an immense wave of anger radiating off him. I hesitantly reached out to him only to have my wrist grabbed and held tightly but not painfully. "Der-"

"I'm going to hunt him down and tear him limb from limb." His growl was so dominant and possessive yet so calm. I involuntarily shivered and bit my bottom lip, eyebrows raising slightly. Part of me wanted him to do it, to show my father the pain he'd shown me. But I couldn't bring myself to let him. "N-no, Derek, please. There's no use crying over spilt milk"

Derek growled louder and grabbed my other hand, his eyes still glowing brightly. "HE HURT YOU! NOBODY and I mean NOBODY gets away with touching my mate!" I let out a pitiful laugh and smiled ever so slightly. He was getting upset for me, and I knew that it was out of love. It was due to the mate bond but I didn't care, it made me feel wanted, cared for, and protected. I sighed softly, sliding my hands so that I was holding his. "Derek, leave it. If he comes back to pick a fight then fight, but until then, please." I paused and looked into his glowing eyes. This wasn't derek. It was Rowan. "Rowan, please?" He growled slightly and tightened our hand holding and leaning in, kissing my right hand.

"Fine. For you. But you have to do me something." I blushed slightly at the kiss and smiled when he conceded. I nodded gently and bit my lip. "What?"

He smirked devilishly and leaned closer, not even a foot from my face. "Let me help you get back to your wolf and work until we can go running together in wolf form, rowan is beyond excited to meet his wolfy mate." I bit my lip and nodded slightly, I'd love to be able to talk to my wolf and I'm more than willing to let Derek help. Hell, I'm estatic that he wanted to. "Deal!" I said with a smile and before I had relized it, Derek's lips were gently presses against mine.

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