14 Saying Goodbye

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I was sitting on the bed, in my room, with an illusion of a beach in front of me. I stepped down from the bed, into the sand, felt the sand under my legs. I waited a minute, and see the wave coming towards me. I then felt the wave crash into my legs and smiled. I finally felt the wave. I. Felt. The. Wave.

Hard Light Constructs baby. I made illusions real. Not even Loki, or Mother can do this, and I know. I've asked them.

It's been a year and a half since the day I connected to the Light Dimension, and I've only gotten better at Illusions since then. The first thing I did with the Light Dimension, was try and hide my connection to the Light Dimension, which on hindsight was pretty obvious, and easy.

I spent weeks trying to disconnect myself from the realm, while still being actually able to be connect to it again. That was actually pretty stupid of me. The right way, by the way, is to use my Illusion magic, using only a little bit of my own Light Energy, to make it look like I'm using my own Light Energy, and not the one from the Light Dimension.

It was pretty easy, once I thought of it. Being the God if Light, I could change the wavelength of the Light I use, and mimic the Light Dimension Energy, to look like My Light Energy. I also used the same concept to hide my magic's connection to the Light Dimension.

The next thing was making Hard Light Illusions. Solid Illusions. I was easily able to harden illusions which were stable. Meaning I could illusion an apple on the ground, which was not edible btw, or the Sand on the beach.

But when they have to move? Like a leaf falling off the tree branch, or a wave of water on the beach? Nope. Why am I trying hard to do this?

Well, glad you didn't ask. Hard Light Constructs equals throw-able illusions. I won't have to tire myself out by conjuring knives, and making it so anyone can find them, when I can simply throw illusions at my enemies instead.

It's still a work in progress though. I just managed to make water move once. I'll have to focus on keeping the illusion active for a long time, then move on to daggers.

Anyways, after I had practiced to turn my Light Mode on and off, again and again, I did something that I wanted to experience again. Astral Projection.

It was a trip, I tell you, when Julius sent me on the trip through the Realms. Nothing happened, obviously, for the first few days, but I did manage to do it.

I can't exactly explain how I did it. It was like, one second I was in my body, I focused on the Light Dimension Energy, and simply willed by Astral Form to leave my body temporarily.

And yes, temporarily. It was stupid of me to try this without someone to actually bring my soul back, but I was lucky, I guess. I could have been trapped as a soul until some Sorcerer put me back in place.

And guess what? The Treasure Vault does not have protection against a soul passing through. What's the soul going to do anyway? It can't touch the real world. But it can see, and feel everything. I can feel the magic in different things.

I had plans in the Treasure Vault. Big plans. But not yet.

And Heimdall can't see me in this form either, which is a big plus. How do I know? I stood right in front of him in my Astral form, of course. If Heimdall the all seer can't see the Astral Form, Odin and Mother couldn't either. I did confirm it though.

I've only ever used it to increase my knowledge or prank people. Odin has lots of books about runes, that he's written, in his personal Library. So does Mother, but I knew she had them, as she had showed them to me, Thor, and Loki.

Surprisingly, Thor took to learning Runes too, just so he could use them in a stitch. He still mostly prefers his hammer, or his fists.

Now, back to my room. Smiling at the fact I succeeded in the first step, I table the topic of Light Daggers, and move on to the next one.

The Dimensions. I can somehow see the cracks that lead to different Dimensions, like I could see the Mirror Dimension's. And I had a theory that I should be able to access them.

There are only a few Dimensions that I know a Sorcerer can enter freely, without any risk, but I'm still not taking a risk with any of those. Not without anyone to oversee me, at least.

But mirror Dimension? I'm definitely going there. It's a perfect tool for espionage. You can see out of the Mirror Dimension, hear outside it, and even exit whenever you want! It's perfect!

I can use it to spy, to exit a threatening situation, or simply relax away from the real Dimension.

A knock on the door brings me out of my musings, and I groan to myself. Just when I was about to try and summon the Mirror Dimension.

I open the door, a bit annoyed at the distraction, and see Lorelai, looking a bit nervous. I immediately feel bad about feeling annoyed, invite her in and ask, "What's wrong Lorelai?"

Lorelai sits down on the couch, bites her lip, takes a deep breath, and says, "I'm leaving."

Pause.

"What?" I ask, because I don't think I heard what I think I heard.

"I'm leaving. Asgard, that is. I'm leaving Asgard." Lorelai says, resolutely this time, looking me square in the eyes.

I gulp a bit of saliva, and ask, "I have a lot of questions, but first, why?"

Lorelai snorts and says, "I almost had the Crown Prince raped, Baldur. And I almost had him rape his friend. I didn't understand it then, but now? I wondered why I wasn't punished more severely, but then immediately found the answer."

She looks at me with tears in her eyes, so I sit next to her and hug her. She stammers out, "I only got off this easily because you're my friend. I could have been executed, Baldur, and it wouldn't have been wrong."

She sniffles a bit, so I rub her back. I nod, understanding the sentiment. I too, had come to the same conclusion, but didn't think it'll bother her this much.

I ask her, "But why go? You will not be punished more. Our punishment is over, Lorelai."

Lorelai shakes her head and answers, "Our punishment might be over, but this does not mean it's all over for me."

"What do you mean? Did someone threaten you? I'll break all their legs, kill them if I have to. No one threatens my friends." I mumble out, getting up to get my weapons, when she stopped me.

She shakes her head and says, "No one threatened me. But they don't trust me much, either. One wrong move by me, and they'll either imprison me, or execute me. And I don't want to risk anything." she's crying by this point.

I didn't know any of this. I didn't know she felt this way. Heck, I didn't even think, she might feel this way. I had an image of a care free Lorelai, who doesn't, pardon my french, give a f*ck, about anything or anyone, other than her sister. Yes, I did not even count myself, even if we've been FWBs for so long.

But now? She's the most vulnerable I've seen her be.

I kiss her forehead, tears in my eyes, and ask, "Where will you go?"

Lorelai stands up, wipes her tears, and starts pacing. She says, "I don't know. I'll start with the other realms, and then move on from there. Leaving Asgard, as you know, is not forbidden for citizens. So there's no issue there. I'll just have to be sure not to break any of Asgard's laws when away. I just.. can't stay here, afraid of putting one foot out of line."

I nod in understanding, wiping my own tears.

"Are you mad at me, Baldur?" Lorelai asks, hesitating a bit.

I give her a tearful smile and say, "Mad? Yes. At you? No. I'm mad at the situation. If we hadn't had the dumb idea to potion Thor and Sif, we wouldn't be having this conversation. I'm mad at both of us, for having the brilliant idea in the first place."

Lorelai comes close and hugs me. I continue, "Most of all, I'm mad at myself, for not trying to stop the prank. I thought, it's just a prank? What's the worst that could happen? And I almost found out."

"Well, I'm thankful we never found out, what the worst could have been." Lorelai says, and snorts in self disgust.

She looks up at me, pulls my head down and lays a gentle kiss on my lips. She says, "You know, if I was the type of girl to settle down, I'd happily marry you."

"Is that a proposal? Kinda weird time for a proposal, isn't it?" I ask, kissing her back.

Lorelai snorts and says, "You wish. Goodbye s*x?"

I simply pick her up, in a bridal carry, making her shout in shock, and walk towards the bedroom, I say, "Goodbye s*x." nodding to her. She smiles and snuggles close to my chest.

An hour later, Lorelai is putting her clothes on, while I'm simply watching her, with a smile. It would have been creepy if we weren't in the same room, and she wasn't smirking.

She says, "Well, until we meet again, Prince Baldur."

I nod and say, "You better get me some souvenirs for when we next meet."

"Goodbye, Baldur."

"Goodbye, Lorelai. Be careful out there." I stand and hug her. She hugs me, and quickly steps back.

Lorelai nods at me, and leaves the room. I lose my smile immediately, not happy at all. Oh, we know we'll meet again. No idea when, but we'll meet. Maybe she'll be married by then, or she'll be ready to settle down. I snort, yeah, like that's going to happen.

I can't even blame this on Odin like I usually do. It was all our fault. It was a surprise that Sif didn't try and kill me. Huh. Why didn't she? The Sif I know would have gutted me on the spot.

~~~

"... and then, she left." I explain to mother, who had sought me out, once she heard Lorelai had left Asgard. I was laying with my head on her lap, while she was running her fingers through my hair.

"Hm.." Mother pats my head and says, "She came to ask my forgiveness, you know."

I sit up and turn to her in shock. Lorelai apologized? I whisper out, "Really?"

Mother nods, smiles softly and says, "Yes. She understands that she was wrong in that... situation. And that you were only punished because you didn't stop her. Don't..." She says, as I'm about to defend her. "Lorelai knew that she was in the wrong. And she was. She's 200 years older than you. She should have known that a potion that she called Lust Potion, even if it only lowered inhibitions, would have been tantamount to rape. And it's a crime."

Mother pauses and continues, "Saying that, no matter how late, she understood her fault. And I forgave her for that."

I nod in understanding, which I've been doing a lot of, gulp, and ask, "Does it ever get better? This.. pain."

Mother smiles sadly and answers, "You might not love her like your father loves me, but you love her. She's your first friend, and as far as we know, your only friend. It'll heal, but it'll take time."

I nod and say, "Can you leave me alone for now? Please? I'd like to be alone for a while."

Mother nods and leaves me be.

Damn. I was attracted to her, I knew that. But I didn't think I'd miss her this much. And it's only been an hour since she left! Well, I can't look at the mirror dimension in this mood now, can I? I'll look at it tomorrow, I hope.

~~~

A/N: BALDUR DID NOT LOVE LORELAI LIKE YOU THINK HE LOVED HER.

Lorelai was his only friend. Amora was simply... there. But Lorelai was his true friend. Friends With Benefits, but friends nonetheless.

Some might think, MC goes to his mother for every little problem. For starters, she's his mom, and he can go to her whenever he damn well thinks. And secondly, Frigga came to him, when she heard Lorelai left. Yes, she suspected Lorelai was going to leave, but she didn't know for sure.

She came to make sure Baldur was okay after his only friend left the Realm.

Now, questions.

1. Do you guys want him to figure out the mirror Dimension himself? Or wait till he meets the Sorcerer Supreme? And yes, they'll meet. Just that, Mirror Dimension is a really OP move for escaping, and I don't think even Odin will be able to stop him from leaving.

2. Can Heimdall see Astral Forms? I've searched for it, but couldn't find an answer.

For those who will question, why didn't Sif at least punch Baldur? Well, it's not that much of a secret, and I'm not going to bring it up in the main story.

Frigga apologized to Sif, on Baldur's, and Loki's behalf first, before Baldur and Loki themselves did. And after the punishment was over, Lorelai herself went and asked for forgiveness. That's it.

Now, Lorelai won't be a villain. I don't even think she'll be back in the story, unless it's as a small cameo. She'll try and stay away from Asgard, so don't expect her to return.

For the fans of Lorelau/Baldur, I'm sorry. I messed up the story in the beginning, and hence I had to do this. I could have made things better, but I couldn't think of anything. Sorry.

Well, until next time.