18 Chapter 17

I hoist myself from the pillows after 30 minutes of crying like a weak person that I am. I'm tired of crying after something happens to me. I want to do more than to let him tell me what to do after what he did.

It's my fault that Axel got hurt from trying to take up from me. This is why I didn't want him to find out.

Even if he witnessed it, I could have denied it so that he wouldn't have to worry about me.

I'm at the point where I don't care anymore, and I'm willing to run away to get away from Everest.

The more I stay the more I'm going to lose myself. Everything that has happened to me it's just too much for me to handle. I'm not cut out for this lifestyle and I have been given Everest so much trouble since day one.

He needs someone that would obey him and listen to every command that he orders. I'm not the person for him.

I hope he understands where he might not kill me. Shivers went down my spine for even believing that would happen.