5 We Only Want to Love You.

It's bad. Very bad...

Sex with Vein... It reached deep of my inside... This place... I've never let anyone in so deep before, and not in the sense of penetration...

Too hot...

This heat is not mine... It... The other person's warmth. It's strange. I don't like it, I feel uncomfortable...

I welcomed the morning with the person I was having sex. My body smells him, it smells of our mixed-up scents. I... don't know what to do, how to behave. I don't feel good about it.

I want to go home...

~*~

- You mean you found our soul mate, fucked him, and then you let him go and disappear?!

In our shared office, resounded the angry voice of my twin brother, Verin, who clenched his fists in anger, barely refraining from punching me or smashing something.

Verin and I were identical twins, which made us look almost the same. Only our eyes were slightly different from each other. Mine was blue-green with a predominant color of green, and my brother's had more blue than green. Most people had trouble seeing this difference, but it was important to us. Because although we looked the same, we were not the same. Our characters and thoughts were different from each other.

I sighed discreetly and looked into my brother's angry eyes, which were currently throwing thunderclaps. For many, they caused deserved fear, but I knew him and knew that anger was now not his main feeling, but a sense of loss.

The Fae magic emanating from Verin's body crackled around him, sparkling. I ran my hand through my hair and sat down across from him. I knew I was at fault, fucked up it on all the damn line.

- I had to leave, I had a meeting. Because of it, I went there at all and couldn't just disregard it. Thanks to these conversations, our people can seek their mates among other species and races more productively. I didn't expect to meet Lian our mate while there... I only left him for a while. He was still in bed and drinking his morning coffee when I left. I didn't expect that when I got back, he would be gone.

I wasn't planning on going to the club that night. It was a business trip, not entertainment. But as I passed it, I felt an impulse. Something told me that if I didn't go in there, I would lose something important.

When I saw Lian, I was shocked. It was like a shake, a thunderclap that changed my whole world. He was an unexpected gift that appeared to me when I least expected it. Finally, after so long, I found him. Our mate...

Verin snorted at my words.

- Instead of fucking him right away, you could get to know him a little better. At least try to find out something about him. You don't even know his last name! – He shouted the last sentence out of the emotions tormenting him, and the magic that emerged from him increased in intensity.

- If you were me, you would have done the same – I growled upset – He didn't want to make any close acquaintances. He didn't want to talk about himself. He was only looking for a sex partner for the night. Sure, I could have pressed, but then he would have walked away and found someone else. Was I supposed to allow it?

- Not. Nobody who wants to live has the right to touch him. No one – As he spoke, Verin's eyes shined with danger and lust for murder – The World and He must know that He belongs to us.

I nodded, agreeing with my brother's words.

As soon as I imagined that Lian was being touched by someone other than me or Verin, that someone else was fucking him, I was overcome with rage. My Fae magic was starting to emerge from my body right away. It was spinning out of control, sparkling and slamming around me, and I was overwhelmed by the desire to murder. I wanted to grab Lian and lock him in a glass case where he would be inaccessible to everyone.

- We have to find him. And that, as soon as possible.

- Yes, brother. We have to... And when we find him, we'll teach him that he belongs to us. And that no one else, no other touch except ours, wouldn't satisfy him.

We exchanged among ourselves consensual and determined looks. After a while, however, mine lost its decisiveness, and doubts began to overwhelm me.

- He's a shapeshifting fox, but he hasn't bitten me. He no expressed any desire or even instinctive signs of pairing. It was as if he didn't sense our bond... Our partnership... – My eyes were full of worry, which ones echoed in my voice – What if he rejects us? If he doesn't feel the same? If for some reason, he does not feel a bond of mate or attachment?

I couldn't help voicing my doubts and worries out loud. We have waited for ages with Verin for our partner. On someone who will complete our lives. Who will be our home...

In the case of Fae, only mates could stabilize the magic of those mighty. They kept them in check. They were the anchors that stabilized everything and gave them a respite. The mate was everything. Only with him, you could relax and not worry about the outbursts of magic. It was possible to loosen the control and breathe, love fully without worries.

It was all hugely important, but it wasn't the only reason we wanted our mate – Our Lian. We just wanted someone in our lives. Someone who we could love... Someone who would be our sun, home... Our world and our joy. Is it too much? Are our desires that bad?

Lian...

Please, be ours. Give us a chance. Allow us to make you happy, to pamper you and love you... We will be good mates, I promise...

I felt the soft touch of Verin's hand on my shoulder, which distracted me from my thoughts. While I was immersing myself in them, my brother got up and walked over to me. Now he was standing next to me and gently squeezing my arm in comfort. His eyes were soft and warm.

- Don't worry, brother. Even if he doesn't feel it, we will make him love us, that he will not see the world without us, just like we can't see it without him...

~*~

Even though it's been a few days since I was fucked with Vein and ran away from him at the first opportunity, I still couldn't forget him. Nothing like this had ever happened to me before.

I've always abandoned people after getting what I wanted from them and never had a problem with it. Just like it has never been a problem for me to forget about my disposable partners right after sex. But now, unexpectedly, I had some trouble with that.

When I woke up in the morning with Vein in bed, I felt panic. I didn't know how to behave or what to do. While I was confused, he unexpectedly greeted me with a kiss on the top of my head and brought me coffee to bed. His actions made me feel ashamed and a little embarrassed, which hardly ever happened to me. It's been a long time since I was ashamed or embarrassed by something... Then, while I was still silently confused, the man looked at the watch and began to quickly get ready to leave, saying that he would be back in a while and that I should wait for him. Which of course, I didn't do. Partly because my feelings scared me, and more specifically the anger I started to feel about his behavior. Including his quick exit from the hotel room.

I was the one who always went out and left the sex partner still on the bed, not the other way around...

Strangely pissed off and flustered, I finished my coffee and got up. I took a quick, but extremely thorough shower, washing the scent of Vein off my body. For me, This act was also a symbolic rejection of this man, a confirmation that I would soon forget about him completely. In addition, I was counting on the fact that when I got rid of our mixed smells, my fox would calm down. It will cease to be so incomprehensible to me, pleased with the way we smelled. Of this, how the scent of Vein settled on my skin and mixed with mine scent.

After finishing my shower and even washing my long hair, I got dressed and headed for the door. I paused in them, for a moment, as if something invisible holding me back. Some quiet voice whispered in my mind that I should leave at least some message, a note with a phone number...

I clenched my hand on the doorframe and frowned. I didn't like that voice in my mind or the fact that I stopped before leaving and disappearing. It was strange and too dissimilar to me and my usual behavior.

I took a deep breath shaking off it all. I chased away my thoughts from those strange feelings and hesitations and that silly silent voice. Shaking my head, I left the room, resolving to forget about the man and my strange reaction to him.

I spent the rest of the day falling asleep and watching South Park, and in the evening I started a battle with myself. One part of me wanted to go to the club to see if Vein was looking for me. Would he show up there, especially and only for me? On the other hand, the second part of me cursed the first, and... It was afraid. Because what if only I can't get him out of my head, out of my thoughts, and he has long forgotten about me?

It pissed me off that I was worried about it and thought about it at all. I have now started experiencing what the other side is feeling. All those people that I was leaving without giving them any deeper thoughts.

Uh... I don't like it at all...

To get Vein out of my mind with those stupid thoughts, I decided to do something more laborious. Recently, I have been thinking about checking the security features of a certain profitable company. Every time I was about to do it, I held back because of its owner. Not because I knew him, but because he was considered one of the most dangerous vampires.

Most people pale just mentioning his name. He is considered dangerous and ruthless to his enemies. Everyone says not to mess with him, but when someone wants to know more about him, suddenly no one speaks. Nobody can say anything. In my opinion, this vampire is a bit like an urban legend. This is something scary and everyone knows about it, but at the same time, no one knows any details about it.

I licked my lips, and my eyes lit up. I sat down comfortably in front of the computer with a large mug of coffee, and my fingers began a passionate romance with the keyboard. Anyone who doesn't risk isn't having a good time, and I loved having good fun. And with that sweet thought, I started checking and breaking security.