Fears of The Unknown

Hey Journal, It's me April Lee. I'm back from soccer practice but something quite odd happened to me today. I did what I always do for soccer practice. I got dressed, went to the field and began my warmups just like I do every time. Now let me just tell you about me and soccer quickly. I'm a girl on the guys soccer team which is kind of a big deal if I do say so myself. Some might say I'm better than the guys on the team, but I won't be to boastful. Let me just cut it short, I'm good at soccer and always have been. Well after the whole team finished warmups, coach said we where doing teams today. I was prepared and excited! We split up, half and half, and began the game. My eyes scanned the open field as I watched for an opening to steal the ball. Time freezes as I take in the fresh air and the scent of the freshly cut grass. In a slow motion like picture I see as my opposing teammates run across the field in hopes of keeping what they have now clammed as there ball. Finally in the mists of there lack of strategy I see my moment and I dash for the ball. I'm sprinting as fast as I can but all of a sudden it gets hard, to hard. I can't seem to catch up to the guys. "What's going on" i think to myself as I push harder to run but I just physically can't. I saw my chance, I went for it, but I failed. I feel... defeated. My legs can't hold me and all add once my body fails me as I collapse on the field. I'm in almost a daze and somehow I find enough strength to pull myself up and slowly but surely walk to the coach. He saw what happened and allowed me to sit out the rest of practice. I began to regain myself and feel a bit stronger but one thing was still weird. Why was it so cold? I began talking to Coach and was saying how cold it was, apparently it wasn't even that cold as I was told, but I know what I felt. I left the field since the cold had reached unbearable heights and headed in the direction of the school. I walked up the hill to the building in a sloth like manner as I began to experience that feeling I felt just minutes before. My strength escaped me and it all was happening again. I finally made it into the school when I reached the Locker room and collapsed. I fell onto the ground as the tears began to excape my eyes and all at once fear engulfed my body. Today as I cried in that locker room all by myself I had a sorrowful realization. It is more than just a cold. It's April Lee signing out.