help

"Now how do you want me to help?"

"Help? what help? I don't n-"

Lyn seemed to have forgotten about the favor that she asked for, for she thought that I thought that she needed help physically, till she recalled that she'd asked for a favor. She froze, her mouth open wide like that of the letter 'O'.

"Please help me..I need to change my seat" After thinking for a long while, Lyn finally revealed her favor.

Devon was stupefied when he heard Lyn's favor. Why does she wanna change seat? Am I not even a friend to her? Eh based on my diary, she did cried when she thought I was cursed..so why?

!!

Did she find out that the me before I lost my memories wants to be more than friends with her?

Eh even if so, she should know that I'd lost my memories for the way I talk to her will be different and that I don't have such feelings for her.

..But if it's not because of this, then why?

They say you'll never know till you ask. Many misunderstandings and assumptions arises due to the lack of communication and trust. Devon knew that if he don't ask now, he'll never know and die of curiosity.

"Change your seat? why?" Devon questioned

"I.." She bit her lip, at a loss for words as if she's guilty of something..

Lyn seemed to be hiding something, Devon thought. Why can't she just tell me the reason?

Is it..due to me and that she was sensitive to my feelings and thought that it'd be better that I don't know?

Right. She probably hates me huh. Even if crying when she thought that I was cursed may not prove that she treats me as someone important. She could just feel bad that she caused the curse. Rightt.. No wonder..

Still, he didn't want to assume although what he thought was highly likely for that's the only reason (that Devon could think of) that could explain all the events that happened.

"Okay. I'll ask you another question. If you answer is 'yes' to this question, I'll help you."

"Really? thanks!" Her eyes lit up as bright as the sun when she heard Devon say that he'll help her. Her troubled face was immediately replaced with relief and happiness, as if a huge burden was off her shoulders.

Ouch! Why did I even fall for someone like her? She- she don't even like me and probably hates me. Just what did I see in her to do so many stupid things for her in the past?

Luckily, the current me have no feelings for her or I'd be hurt so badly! Each word that she said would probably drive a needle to my heart. Oh Lyn, even if you're happy that you don't have to sit with me, can't you at least hide it from me? I know you must've disliked me so much, or even hate me to the core to be so insistent on changing seats. But can't you at least hide the dislike you have for me? At least I won't know that I was so stupid in love... Ignorance is bliss, the truth hurts!

Although the truth seemed to be out already, Devon would only believe it if Lyn said so herself. He was after all, someone that only believes if there is a logical explanation and/or evidence.

"Do you dislike- No, do you hate sitting with me that's why you wanna change your seats?" Devon emphasised on the word 'hate' more slowly and loudly than the rest of the words.

Haiz even though the current me won't suffer heartbreaks or whatsoever no matter what her response is, its still unpleasant to know that there are people that dislike me.

"NO!" Lyn retorted instinctively

What?! Lyn's reply was the last thing Devon thought she'd say.

"Then why?" Devon couldn't figure out just what other reasons would make Lyn bent on changing seats.

Instead of answering him, Lyn just stared at him with many emotions flashing past her eyes. Helplessness, sadness, guilt..as if she'd cry anytime.

Seeing that, Devon was at a loss. He didn't know how to comfort people when they are sad as such, he was uncomfortable being helpless at such things. Devon couldn't bear being heartless and not help her thus, he gave up on asking her for the reason and instead just agree to her favor. Yet, he don't know why he'd feel like this.

Usually, Devon is nonchalant and cold, uncaring towards anyone but himself and Ken (if he's considered someone). Although it seemed that he likes Lyn, the current him had no feelings for her. Yet, his heart still felt some feelings of sadness? Helplessness? Pity? He don't know. It has been

a long time since he felt such feelings for someone.

"Thank you!" Tears were on the verge of falling down.

Oh no...not again! Ahh what should I do? She wanna cry when I refused to do her a favor, yet when I agreed to help, she wanna cry too! Ahh dear lord, you gotta help me!