15 Chapter fifteen

Both fear and hesitation seeps into my pores as I stand outside the front door of my home,

Questioning myself again and again if I

should or should not enter, if mom is

home she's make me tired with her

questions and wait for me to explain

what the hell went on my mind today

And if Tessa is home by now she'll be the cause of the pain To my deepest spots in my mind with her weirdness and imaginations Thats always beyond my reality.

I don't really wanna go inside, but I have to

I can't stand outside the whole day and freeze

to death that's not my wish here, I would rather let them ask me questions I cannot answer correctly then let that happen, So I decided to grow some bolls and

enter like I'm just a wind coming with

peace to everyone then run to my room,

Just like that I opened the door carefully

and enter with my head first trying to see if mom or Tess could be somewhere near the kitchen or the living room cause our front door is just few steps away from those two places in here and after I saw no moment I decided to fully enter and close the door without any noise which I surprisingly succeeded perfectly, right after that I

chose to look around me one more time making sure I actually got the chance to

run without any problems and for the luck I had the house really looked like a lonely left behind place I'm beginning to wonder if they even are home, did mom perhaps go somewhere? She hardly goes out on Fridays

Did something happen today? I wouldn't be surprised to not find Tessa home on Fridays but mom? Now I'm starting to worry cause this never happened before, every Friday when I get home she would always be in front of the tv watching the news in the living room or baking something on the kitchen so... where is she today? I shake my head a little cutting of my thoughts short completely agreeing with one of them, to Change clothes and take a shower then call mom and ask her where she is and if everything is okey!.

With that i head upstairs to my room to get changed and take a few minutes of cold shower with my whole body logged off after

The long and confusing day of mine, I'm Sure every bone of mine will secretly thanks me after it and immediately I chose to undress myself from my day's outfit and grabbed on a towel that hang at the end of my bed on the left side and rolled it around my body as I

Didn't want to walk naked to the bathroom.

After like 10 minutes in the shower I shut the water running on me off and reached my hand to grab my towel afterwards rolling it around me once again then I took another towel and rolled it around my not so wet hair now After that stepping my left leg out of the bathtub to put on my slipper that was right

before the bathtub and as I successfully

did it without falling or anything my other foot followed And soon I was out of the bathroom.

Honestly I still wanted to feel like not wearing anything for little longer Before putting some clothes So I decided to stay this way and just call mom in the meantime, i look around for my phone but I couldn't see it did I perhaps forget it in the library? No, no that impossible

I was listening music on my way home

So I definitely brought it home I say to myself as I stare at my Bluetooth headphones that's resting in the middle of my bed I roll my eyes as I sighed softly for some weird reason feeling tired all of sudden but my dumb ass brain just forget to memorize where I put phone again this wasn't the first time so I'm not shocked at all I calmly walk around the room moving some stuff around checking underneath them all But still my phone was no where see Then with loud thud a brain cell of mine remember, my jeans pocket how the hell didn't I bother to check it? AIshhh

my stupidness I said annoyingly as I rolled

my eyes at myself while getting my phone

out of my jeans who laid on the ground's pocket then sitting myself comfortably on the bed with my right leg crossed the left one

As I scrolled through my phone contacts

Immediately clicked on mom after her

name pops up on the screen and called her.

The phone rang few times before it was answered by calm angelic voice from the other side "hey sweetheart how have you been today? Is there something wrong?" Mom says worriedly in a calm voice "no no everything is totally fine mom I was just wondering where you are? You're not at home" I say biting my nail as I tried not to smile widely at how she immediately got worried for me

"Ohh excuse for a minute who said I'm not home? Are you at home already?" Mom said shockingly as she spoke loudly, shocking me even more she's at home? But there's no sound made here

"Wait- WHAT? you're really at home?"

"Yeah! I am" unbelievable moms really

home And she's not in the kitchen or

the living while the Friday daylight is

still going? I shut my wide open mouth

shut but my eyes still stayed widened

"Now tell me what you're doing at

home this early? It's like 1 hour left

before you usually came home was

Lé scenté not open today?" Mom says

Softly as the Curiousness was audible

in her voice, lé scenté is my favorite cafe

of all time I go there everyday after my school ends to read my books there

It's both peaceful and beautiful at that place

I don't know why I'd didn't choose to

go there to was it perhaps because I wanted to hide and lock myself up in my room from my in case my professor called mom and told I missed my last class for the day! Yeep that's exactly the reasons I chose not to go today

The longer I'm gone the longer they get time

to prepare themselves to eat my brain up.

"Oh I had some stuff to do at home mom!" I lied shutting my mouth up like it's never been open before afterwards But I know she understood myself was a lie as her next question follows a soft chuckle the escape

Her lips "I see, came down to me

for a minute I need to talk to you

about something I'm in the study room downstairs" she says cutting the line off almost as soon as her last word left

her mouth not even waiting for me to answer her back, but this....oh gosh this can't mean

anything good no this is basically

danger alert I'm not ready for questions

I can't even answer but I cannot dismiss her

words either so I got of my bed with

no more thought and walked to my

closet staring at my clothes

For a good minute before I chose to go with

My oversized white shirt and baby

pink shorts, taking the two chosen

ones out afterwards closing my

wardrobe shut, putting my clothes on

with the next second that came, leaving the towel that's rolled up my head with my hair be until later on and started to

Walk my way out of my room then downstairs.