4 chapter 4, the bloody marry oh shit what-up village

dark, warm, and very, very, wet.

wet.

wet.

wet.

WET.

it was nice the first couple of weeks, because i thought i would be, like. coming when i was like already born, but then i remembered all those reborn naru-fanfics where they get INTO the baby when it ISN'T BORN.

and we experienced the being born process which i was not so fond of. especially since i was in a dark place and pretty much cramped in a tiny space.

and....

i noticed something, there was this like, vibe around me. one i didn't feel when i was still alive, that i was sure of. but what is this vibe..? is it chakra? or....-who am i kidding i'm probably just being paranoid.

i sat there for weeks, months, i lost count and to keep myself buzzy i was meditating 60% of the time, oh and now i could move the paranoia! it was like around my stomach and stuff, but i can move it to my arms and legs now :D

if only my mom could see this, oh wait. she was a dick, never mind. so was my dad.... i... i have none...

i mentally sighed as i felt a wave of sadness hit me, i knew i was alone. and it never bothered me, it was just... now that i can actually do something, and am actually motivated to do this, and have none to be telling. or being praised by... let's just hope this mom and dad, aren't such fuck ups.

i felt the water around me being drained and i heard the voices I've always heard around me shout and i felt that my 'mom' was starting laying down while groaning in pain, "i'm sorry, for the pain..." i thought as i finally felt her lay down. «OSU!» (no shit this low-key in translation means push just AUGH) and i felt the walls around me tighten and i felt myself being squeezed head first into a tiny hole.

fuck.

it hurt a lot, and i am hella glad it was over. even though i couldn't see jack-shit, i'm pretty sure my mother and father we're crying.

and oh my god did the vibe thingy just increase, it was a bit hard to breathe, and was overwhelming because i felt a lot of emotions in the air. and different types of vibes and so much more.

i returned to my crying mother and father.

fuck..

'are they that disappointed in me?' i thought as i was breathing steady and calm breaths i felt my mother give me to someone else, who wasn't my father. the person then pressed down on my vulnerable stomach, i let out a cry in pain as the person handed me back to my mother who was suddenly stopping with crying and now...

crying again, but now out of sheer happiness. i was now silently sobbing as i felt my mother lay me against her hugging me.

«a-ah bwo...» i have no idea what i was trying to say, but one thing is for sure i was smiling on the inside, knowing my parent's weren't like my last. and it made me smile.

«anata wa.... Thilil Yami.» i heard her voice hum quietly as i grabbed with my tiny and hard to move hands the kimono cloth of my mother and made some more baby sounds, in which my father coo'ed at and my mother chuckled at, but sounded very tired.

i heard the nurse-person who held me and hurt me who i'm gonna hunt down as life purpose-tell my father something, but i'm not Japanese and i was never quick enough to learn to speak weeaboo so eh i was gonna have a hard time.

probably.

screw you light bulb shemale.