1 Chapter 1

Is it right to love my fellow woman? Is it right to fight to the end? Will she accept me for who I am? Many questions troubled my mind. How do I find this answer.

-------- "Heeeeeeeeey Aleeeex"Shane scream

"What's the matter with you? It's so early Shane your so noisy. You disturb the sleeper. You broke my dream you are useless" i said

"I'm sorry you love me so that's ok."she said like a spoild brat

"What's your problem?" i ask her

"You're really mean to me. But this is why you don't get angry, do you?"Shane said

"How can I be angry I do not know. What is it?"i said

"Promise me you won't get angry" with puppy eyes yucks

"I am Alexandra Manalo. I promise I will not be angry with whatever Shane Madrigal does or says." i said

"im already in a relation ship "she said

"What? Did I hear you right? You were the proud one of Jc Villaruel. The owner of the company that i work for?" i said with shocked head

"Yes" proudly said

"When?" i ask

"Yesterday"she said with bigger smile

"Wait, did you miss that?" i said

"what do you think to me easy to get?" she asked like she didnt know

"Definitely" i said proudly

"You're so mean to me, it looks like you are not arghh" irritating scream

"I'm the only one who's knows what happening to your life but now i dont even know so ,go away and dont waste my time to your blah blah story." i said

"Yes, you really applaud later at the previous meeting " Shane said

"Please lock the door" i shouted

" Im already in a relation ship with Jc"

" Im already in a relation ship with Jc"

" Im already in a relation ship with Jc"

Wtf I should be happy for her, maybe this, I also want a man who will love her, but what if he cheat on her, what if JC is just playing with Shane grrrr !!!!

"AaaaaaaaAaahh annoying"

There are people we like, but they can't be ours. How long will I keep this feeling for her? I'm asking myself but is Shane still there? em still a woman? There are many possible destinations for this. First she might not accept me, second she might ruin our friendship and she walked away. There are things I want to take care of, but destiny just makes a way to say that I will stop, that it is not right, that it is time to move, it is time for me to turn to others I feel. But can I? It's hard for her to like. She is heaven and I am down to earth. I will never be able to touch and reach her. I can't teach my heart not to love her. It is hard for the heart to choose the one you love but you will suffer from pain because if your heart chooses not to be yours. I took a ballpen and red paper

"I will choose you every day, even if the pain can no longer be prevented.

---------

"Wtf Alex we been an hour waiting for you? she said with bigger eyes like a owl lol

Alex this is my boyfriend JC and JC this is my bestfriend Alex" she said l

"Hi Alex, this friend of yours told me that we work in one Company?" JC said

"Ah yes I am in the Engineering Dep" i said

"Nice, theres have Engineer will make our house in the near future"JC take a joke

"Ah yes I already ordered babe, I'm just going to restroom " she said

"Okay babe" JC said

"Hey Alex, don't flirt with my boyfriend, or else i will kill you byeee" Shane whispered at me ,over my dead body, I will never flirt with your fvcking boyfriend.

"Hey I have a request for you for Shane can I?" i said

"Of course I won't hurt Shane I really love her" JC said

"Wtf love already? I'm just asking how do you say you love her right away? I know you and Shane only met last week ah?"i said

The idiot didn't answer damn this waiter . I finished eating and they were flirting in front of me thats rude asfck. Didnt they know the word shame damn. I also know that Shane is never like very flirtatious like other girls, she is not that kind of girl.

"fvck " I hope they notice that they're moment is just super annoying. One more time.

"Fvck" lastly i said

"Hey Alex, are you okay? Your breath is still deep?" wow she look like she have a care lol

Wow, well, you noticed that I was really jealous, but wait, damn , I dont have right to be jealous.i said in my thoughts

"ah yes I'm fine. I gotta go first? I still have a lot to do so i'll go ahead bye Shanetot bye JC" i said

"All right, be careful Alexdra" She really knows how to annoy me

"Be careful Alex" wow feeling concern huh

-------------- Why do I like her? Fvck,there are a lot of others, besides, I can be a woman, but I'm still a woman. I didn't realize how much I thought my aunt was calling.

"Hi aunt how is that?" i ask my aunt

"How are you? How are you feeling?" she ask with concern tone

"It's ok, aunt, I'm so strong" i said

"Will you come back here for your chemo?" my aunt ask

"Huh why, for what? Eh I'm fine already ?" i said with shocked

"It was probably last month that you checked. Dr. Sales brought the result here and said your cancer is back"

Suddenly my world collapsed and I couldn't get well. I am already strong . Are the bruises I get in the past so that I can weaken easily. But i thought it's not going back ,my cancer.

"Alex are you still there?" aunt said

"Ah yes Auntie" i said

"Are you okay? Tell me if you will come back here for your chemo huh?" aunt said

"All right, aunt, I'll tell you right away" i said

"Alex is my order, especially now that your illness is back, huh? Those that should and shouldn't be difficult, I don't want to lose you because of that cancer"she said on the phone i know she's crying

"Auntie, don't cry anymore promise I will get better I can do this. Don't worry about me auntie." i said with cheering up voice

"Please be careful okay? All right and I'm going somewhere else."she said

Auntie kept dropping the call. I still can not believe it. How come? How is Shane? Who will take care of her? Who will defend when there is a fight with her? What if JC made her cry who would just buy ice cream for her? What about our promises? Lots of questions in my brain but I couldn't do anything. I want to rest as if my body is very tired. I do not want to experience the pain caused by the disease again. But can I fight it again? I used to be able to do this again.

I took another ballpen and red paper and wrote down her habit before continuing to put it in a jar that was about to fill up. I hope Shane can read this when the day comes.

"Until the end of my love for you is destined. I will fight for you again my love"