6 Back Out

GOLD POV

"Are you serious about this?"

"Absolutely Ms. Gold."

" And do you think I will accept this?"

" I'm confident about that Gold. After all, you already signed the contract yesterday."

"And I can also forfeit it right here, right now, Ruzhie if you don't answer me properly."

I spoke emphatically after reading the script that he gave me. I noticed that he was severe in front of me, but it seemed like someone was really stopping him so that he couldn't say the real reason for my question.

It is exactly 6 in the morning, I was arrived at Ruzhie's company to get the other details of the movie, to somehow organized my time when it comes in taping, but instead of that he gave me something really ruined my mood. although he give the script to me properly. 

However, what is written here is not even complete, like seriously, It feels like the one I'm holding right now is like an instruction despite the script is what I need. So it seems like this writer wants to convey us that we literally assume we're in the story's situation.

That, in fact, is there such a thing? Maybe there is if you know the ending. But this kind of goes with the flow… What does this movie want to convey to the viewer? This is wasting too much time for me.

Because if I were to think of the next scenarios we would do, I would have just become the producer, director of this story. But since Russy might also have a reason, I might still understand It.

However, I waited for a minutes now to hear his explanation, but he just kept looking at the emptiness, which irritated me. I hate wasting my time.

Seriously? Is he really an employee of the best director in the world? It's just I can't help but to disappointed with what I see. Well, no one cares anyway. Maybe it's better to go after Chris and accept his next offer to me.

"I think the second choice is better Ruzhie, since you are probably aware that when it comes to this industry we need to be honest with each other. However, thank you for your offer."

I made a soft statement as I handed him the script, but he just looked at it before turning his attention back to me. I thought he wanted to answer because I would not stop him there.

"I'm really sorry to say this to you gold. The writer and derek just told us not to say the details, even though I don't know what he was referring to."

"what?"

"Yes, we also do not know the ending of the script."

"What kind of movie is this then? And wait why don't you even know? aren't you a secretary or should I say you the right hand of real Russy?"

"That's also I wonder Gold. I don't really know how Russ' brain works but I believe in her, since all her work is always successful."

So, she's a girl, huh? But why is that person so mysterious? As If everything she does seems like someone is watching? Is there?

"Then what should we do now Ruzhie? How can I be sure that the movie we are going to make will not ruin my image?"

"We will be sure about that gold. Since it was written in the contract unless .."

"Unless?"

"unless derek changes her mind."

"What?"

I frowned, don't tell me that this story has really an SPG that's why its not completed because they know that I really oppose such scenarios.

"Well you see gold the script is already done but the info is just not complete and that is intentional it is also written in the contract right?"

"I didn't read the contract Ruzhie…"

"Yeah, that's right but its really written there."

"You know what, I decided. I will not really continue."

My last statement at the same time, I was forced to give the script to him. They will assure my safety about my image, yes, but that is still not enough for me to accept It. What if we have reached the very center of the taping and I have no choice but to do what they want. Hell no! so it is better to refuse in the end.

It may not be a loss for me to reject since the incentives they offer to me are good, but if there is no certainty, why do I have to suffer? Like duh? When have I ever thought of doing that, considering the people around me are the one who's willing to tolerate me.

After all, they did not know much about the state of my life since I was a child. But if I ever share it to everyone, the main point of my life; everything is on my side.

Yup, not to brag, but I was born into a wealthy family, a type known in all business industries. Since I was a child, my parent, already fulfill me a lot of attention, unlike the other stories when rich people do not have time to bond with family. And that's one of the reasons why I said I was a lucky person.

But one more thing, why am I stuck in this industry, simply because this is really what I dreamed of when I was young. After all, this is a significant achievement for me because I have exceeded my expectations of myself.

" Ms. Gold please wait."

" What now Ruzhie?"

"Please can you give some time to explain everything."

"of what? Isn't it clear to yourself what you said?"

"Well, Its clear to me but derek ---"

"And what's with derek? seriously did she also hold your decision?"

I immediately interrupted what he was going to say and looked at him slowly, his mouth quickly closed in front of me, but his nervousness is still clear. Well, I can't blame him for that, because what I really hate is those folk who become dependent. Like, can't he decide for himself?

"I-I'm just doing my job Ms. Gold."

"And so do I."

"But---"

"If you just say that line again, you'd better just keep your mouth shut Ruzhie, because it's not obvious to me that I am irritate, right? You always say that as if she was here but where is she? Instead of she's the one who explain it in front of me, in front of us, not you and the producers, she's missing. Doesn't she know that she should be the role model in this company because most of the people know her as the best directress in entertainment industry, but what happened? "

In my statement, even the rest of our colleagues are merely looking at us. I seem to have noticed that he was hit by what I said because there is nothing wrong with that in fact; I also can't blame myself for being like this in front of them because why not? there is no person who is not upset with this kind of situation.

After a few seconds, he slowly sighed in front of me and apologized. Maybe he accepted my decision. So all I could do was nod at him and decided to leave.

Tinggggg----

But even before I could get away completely, I immediately stopped again. At the same time, I was observing around when we heard a sound that seemed to come from the speaker.

"Ah, hello, hello, mic test, test."

"Derek"

"Derek"

"Finally derek is here."

The gradual noise came to the people surround us after we heard the robot-like voice. I was also surprised when I noticed the people's become ease here, as if the heavy tension around us is disappeared.

"Oh, hello guys."

"Good morning, Derek."

They greeted the person behind that voice at the same time. I just stood upright in my position while secretly watching to see if anything would change in today's events.

But it didn't take a while to get my attention when I notice that they were just busy talking as if I was not here, so instead of wasting more time, I just thought of leaving.

"So Gold is already here."

But like before, it never happened when someone gets my attention. I didn't mind of giving that person a smile. Because my remaining patience is gone.

"Yes, at 6 am to be exact."

"Great, It seems I won't have a hard time waiting every taping because you arrive early or on time."

Do I need to be thankful or take that as a compliment, even if it sounds sarcastic to me? But instead of addressing her, I remain quiet.

"Well anyway, where are you going? we haven't started yet."

"I already read the script."

"And?"

"I decided to forfeit."

"Oh."

The only thing she respond to what I said after the moment of silence come, maybe she was still thinking about what she had done wrong why I backed out. But perhaps the reason is also apparent to her, right?

"So you got afraid then, is that so? As I thought you love getting challenge but I was wrong."

"Excuse me?"

I uttered quickly when I hear her clearly, Isn't she's rude.

"Well, I'm sorry to hear that Gold, because according to your interview last time, you said you always love getting challenge unless its not related to your job. But looks like its only a word."

"I also have an excuse why I did this, for your information. So I hope you know the whole reason first before you dictate me."

I defended, yet at the same time I tried to calm down. It seems that our colleagues also noticed that, so they immediately quiet down too.

"Well, I don't have a spare time to know your reason Gold. Because after all it didn't change the fact that you're going to back out."

"Really? Don't have enough time? What if, the reason I backed out is because of the script of your story that it didn't even have a good plan."

"There's nothing wrong in my story."

"Oh really? Nothing? Oh maybe you're just saying that because you did it? Just go with the flow? There is no ending, the scenario is missing, the dialogue. What kind of script is that?"

"Mysterious, fantastic and unique."

She encountered that caused me to frown more and waited for her next answer. But it seems like there is no next, which literally annoys me.

What a weirdo, she didn't even answer sensibly. Was she overly creative? That's why she became like that?

"Have you read the title Gold?"

"…"

"I think you are, and what do you think it means?"

"I got your point but that doesn't mean you relate it to everyone."

"And why not? Are you desperate? of being aware on everything about your actions?"

"If that's what you want to call, yes. desperate, then so be it! I already have my final answer."

I say emphatically, even though she's not here in front of me. I still tried to let her know that I don't like what she's saying. Like how did you become desperate when you only want to be careful? Yes, I'm a risk-taker, but I still know how to refuse. If she thinks she can get me because of discrimination, she's wrong.

"Fine, if that's what you really want alright you may go. We will find another actress who isn't a coward like you."

"You."

But can I still retract what I said, right. coward? Me? scared? Where? in her work? I'm just careful here, but that doesn't mean I'm a coward! And if she didn't know, I really don't want someone to provoke me because I hate being a loser.