Heart Stop Feeling

After send off Landon to work, I could not help but think about him in my clothes. It looked good on him. Though it was a little big, and stop at his mid thighs. If he were to were briefs and that hoodie only, it would look like he was wearing nothing under. Dang send him that teasing text really made me wish I said more interesting things to him. Though it's not the right time yet, so I'll keep those thoughts for my fantasies.

I finish cleaning the kitchen and the dining table. Okay, everything is clean I look at the time and see it's only 9am. I should do some writing, should I write another book? Or a new role for Landon? If I write I new book then I'll have to deal with Ashley. Maybe I'll just write a new project for Landon. I grab my laptop, tablet and notebooks for ideas and outlines, then I settle down in the living room. I like to type the manuscripts on my laptop, but my notes and outline, I like to have it both on my tablet and paper for backup. Don't worry when my manuscript is complete I like to keep it in a USB and my laptop. I also sent a copy to my dad just in case. I know this sound really over board but I want to be safe then sorry.

Once I got everything settle down in the living room. Before I started to work I put an alarm on my phone, so I could make something to eat for Landon before he gets home. I started to outline some ideas in the tablet, then I started to think if I make a new movie. Landon won't be home he will have to leave somewhere to film. So I won't be able to see him. And if I write a book I can just send it straight to the chief editor and if they make me got to Ashley, I can just make Mike come back from his maternity leave. That's fine I'll just write a novel.

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Landon POV

At the moment I am in a dance class, to be more clear I am in a ballet class. This reality show theme today is about guessing a fan life story. So I am going to act as the person until the members of the show find me. After reading the script about today episode, I felt a little bit less annoyed about cross dressing and pity to do it. However, this person I am playing their life is so pitiful. Since, the time he came to the world, he was treated as a female. His family is full of 4 man with his mother being the only female in the family. So when he was born with his family wealth and government status, his whole life and on his birth certificate, he was known to be female. His mother made him act, dress, and do all kinds of feminine things. He was not allow to play with other boys nor go out to play any sports. He would follow his mother to tea parties, or go shopping with her. She also put him in all kinds of art classes from music to crafts. In order to hide his male body as he grows older, he has to wear a body shape suit. It makes it look like he as curves and female looks. She made him major in Art and Ballet. He is currently in his last year in university, called State Art All Women University. (Made up name) Which is the place we are filming at the moment.

So right now I am acting as present June, the name of the person I am playing. The show today is going to play his life back words. Like a run down memory lane but I June is an empty shell, all my memories are lose. So the members and I have to go find them. As the regular cast members of the show looks for me, I have to be dancing like a swan.

I was struggling, this body shape suit is making be feel super hot and sweaty. Also it's heavy to move around with. How did June be able to dance so beautifully with this suit on. Yes a little before the filming started when I was on standby I watch June's ballet dance on YVTUBE. He moves so light and gracefully, I really thought it was a real female, with his moves and how he carry himself, plus his beautiful costume he was dress in.

I learn how to spin on one leg like everyone else, but I lost my balance and fell forward. Lucky someone caught me, I look up to thank the person and I gasps. This person is so pretty how are the even a real person.

She as soft brown hair, green eyes, and a heart shaped face. She like a fairy.

"Are you okay?" The girl ask.

"Oh yes I am okay." I look at my feet as a blush is rush over my face.

"I know it's hard for your first time. Plus your uncomfortable in your clothes. I can help you if you want?"

"Omgosh please help me! It will help." I perk up at her, so happy that some one is finally going to help me.

"My name Leah Rayes. It's nice to meet you and I am happy to help you. Your my favorite actor." My eyes widen who did she know who I am no one was suppose to know.

"Hi it's nice to meet you..." I wanted to say more but then I was pull to the corner.

"Here lets take your shoes off and tap your toes. So you can get a better footing, and stability." I listen to here orders and once we were done she started to teach me some easy moves enough for the show.

By the time I master the moves, the cast members found me. They interviewed me and ask who I was, took off my disguise and showed myself.

The members of the show joke around say wow I thought you were a famous female celebrity or a real ballerina. After I change into regular clothes, we continue to find clues on the mysteries person.

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We final are in our last mission, it was to go to A city national park. We had to find someone the looks like grace but soft like a feather.

So my team Yu ko a famous TV host, Rosemary a girl group idol, and I are looking around the park pond. I look around and I see someone across the pond wearing a mask dancing so gracefully with skin looking soft as a feather. I shout to them that I found the person, as I run around the pond with my camera guy. I ran all the way to June.

"June! June!" June stop and turn my way. He smiles and starts to take off the mask. I look at him confuse, then surprise, and last I was excited.

"June! Why did you lie to me!" I playfully pretend to be mad at him. By stopping in front of him and then turn my back towards him with a pout.

"I did really lie to you because my name is Leah but's it's my middle name. So Landon I'll introduce myself again to you." June sick out his/her hand, "Hello, I am June Leah Rayes. You are my favorite actor Landon Lee."

I look down, I then look up at June and smile. "Hi, it's nice to meet you."

We talk to each other until the two team got to our location. Once they arrive June and I exchange numbers and continue to film.

"3.. 2.. 1.. Cue!" The director called out.

We started to film the final part of the show. Where June tell us why he decide to come out and share his story.

"I wanted to share my story on the shows because it is my favorite show and I been looking for ways to talk to my mother about my feelings. For years, I been trying to tell her about my feelings but she would either ignore me or say I am crazy I am her daughter not her son. Then I would tired to talk to my dad about it and he said to go with it because my mother was going through with something. Then a month ago I had enough of them ignoring myself, after I found out that my mother arranged marriage me to her friends son. So I came to "Spirit run" writing room to have them play my story. And here I am now, showing the world my insecurities and frustrations. I just want my parents to see me as me and let me live my own life." I had tears as I listen to June's feelings. It's so sad that his parents ignore him. And if the show doesn't get them to understand, then the media will after this show plays tomorrow.

"Cut" the director called out. We all hug June and wish him luck home.

I walk to my managers car, I sigh once I got in. I could help but feel so sad for June. I hope things get better for him.

I look to my left side and I see a box with my name on it.

"Hey Allie what's in the box?" I lift the box to my lap.

"I don't know it was left next to the car. I didn't get to look at it because I had to come pick you up." She glances at me through the view Mirror.

"Okay while I am going to open it, it could be from a fan." I first to open the box using my keys to open it. Once I open it and saw what was in there I scream all the curse words I know. Because I scream Allie did a fast break luckily no one was behind us.

"What the heck! Landon!" She turns to me, I showed her the box. Unable to form words because I am still trying to process what is in the box.

"Okay I am going to drive to the company. Instead of taking you home, so we can talk about this little present." I just nod and set the box on the other seat. I turn to look outside the window trying to ignore it.