2 The letter of Yuèguāng

To my dearest brother Shìbīng,

If you have received this letter then it means that I have already passed way. It would seem that they have succeeded in killing me. But before that I made damn sure to clean up the mess that father left behind. So that when you take over nothing will happen to you immediately lol.

There where so many things I wanted to tell you and so many things I wish you could see but alas it was not meant to be. In the years that passed I married and even had a son hehe. Sadly though the father of my child got killed by the people of the duke of Remington. Who by the way will be punished for his deeds.

When my husband passed away I felt despair and was insecure. Because if the Remington's succeeded into killing me as well then my child would become an orphan. Just like me, sighs. Father was already dying and you despised or hated me because of a misunderstanding. So I had no one else who could possibly love and take care of my child as their own. That is why though imperious of me I order you by my title as the Duchess of Almería to take care of my son. His name is Weisheng it means greatness is born. And though it pains me to leave him I have no regret in my actions thus far that has led to this conclusion. By the way you can't escape you might as well see this as my will lol.

Back to the serious stuff, I wanted to apologize to you. The you who has suffered greatly while being in the outside world. I could have helped you but then my plans would have failed into bringing you back to the estate one day. Still failed till the day of today bummer. Though in the end with my death I did succeeded in making you the duke yay. Though sometimes I wondered if I truly meant something to you. That if in the end I was nothing more than a puppet for you all to play and discarded with as you pleased. Even so I still loved you with whole my heart as you are my light and my support. Back then I didn't know how I could help you or even support you. All I could do was listen to your problems quietly. One day I heard you arguing with father about how you wanted to quite being the heir of the duke. You just wanted to be with your girlfriend and spend more time with her. But father didn't permit it and even locked you up in your room for a while. That day I really wracked my beautiful brain to come up with an idea that would please both you and father. And pleased you both where. I just paid a small price, my freedom and me becoming your temporary replacement. Father didn't agree to it at first but after I told him that I would do what ever he said, even if it meant my own destruction only then did he finally agree. The rest you know what happened that day you got to be with your wifey yay. Nice gall by the way I can't believe you had it in you lol.

A few months had already passed after your marriage and father came in my office with a marriage proposal. He said that this marriage would help bring even more prosperity to our people. I who made that deal with father could not reject it. Not that I wasn't shocked or surprised just stupefied. But I thank God that he was a man with a kind soul and a beautiful heart. We married in secret as the riots where becoming more violently so no one knew about our marriage. Except my husband's family, the church, the king, father and now you too albeit a little late sorry lol. When I became pregnant it was as if God heard my prayer of giving my husband a child quickly. Only a mere two months had passed since our marriage and I was already pregnant with our son. My husband worked really hard you know. But not long after our luck had run out. Just as God can give us something he can also take away something precious from us. When I lost my husband I was devastated and lonely. He made me feel secure, happy and loved me for me. He gave me warmth I never felt before but most of all he needed and wanted me. Even though I knew he was gone I buried myself into work trying to forget about him and anything related to him. Our child was all that he had left me. I asked and prayed every day why God took him away for me. We needed him and missed him dearly but as months and days passed without finding an answer. I picked myself back up though and gave all my love, devotion and attention to our son. Life still goes on you know. Things didn't get any better though. The resistance got even more violent as the days passed and I started to worry that one day I might lose my life while helping father getting his revenge. I worried for my child that one day he will be alone. My husband is no more and father might even pass away before I could end it all. I have to put an end to his vengeance so I started writing this letter. That if one day if I pass away you would receive it. Hoping you would look passed our past and take care of my child. I know I will never know and I pray that the day I die will be far into the future.

If there is one thing I regret…it is leaving my son alone on this cruel but beautiful world.

Dear brother I just want to let you know one more thing. I never regretted anything that happened between us and I am even glad I could help you gain your freedom. Life your life the way it was meant to be and follow your heart as it will never be wrong it is a guide to show you the way. But you will never escape being the duke I made sure of that lol.

With much love,

Yuèguāng

P.S.

Yes, I do forgive you xxx