13 Remorse

In the original course of their life before Luca's 'return' to time, she didn't meet Georgina prior to the incident of the latter confronting her. That was also the time Luca found out that Xander and Georgina weren't in the process of divorcing when she started dating the man.

However, Luca was already deep in love with Xander and chose to believe his petty excuse of 'Georgina lying' to make him miserable. Between Xander and Georgina, Luca would naturally believe her man. She knew him more and loved him madly.

Love made Luca lose all sense of reason and held on to the tiny chance he was telling the truth. After all, aside from keeping their relationship a secret from the public eye, there was nothing that would force Luca to doubt Xander's credibility. And thus, she continued her illicit relationship with him since the two were officially divorcing, anyway.

"Nova… I feel shit," Luca dawdled, lying on the bed like a dead tuna. "I want to curse."

The lunch went smoothly and maintained a friendly atmosphere and rapport with Georgina. Since their first timeline was a mess, she didn't have the chance to get to know Xander's wife. But just after a brief encounter with Georgina, Luca could only say good things about the woman.

Although Georgina was a meek and reserved lady, she had a heart of gold and a smile enough to melt an iceberg. Her demeanor was soothing and the air surrounding her evoked kindness. She was like an angel sent straight from the heaven above to cleanse the corrupted world.

"Ugh…" Luca buried her face in the pillow to muffle her grunts. "I hate him."

Seeing this, Nova clicked her tongue and shook her head. She was sitting on the armchair near the floor-to-length window where one could see the horizon. Ever since the lunch ended, Luca's jolly and amicable air instantly dissipated, replaced by the gloominess that had conquered the suite they were in.

"I guess this is what you call the remorse of the third party?" She let out a long-suffering sigh, jumping from the armchair to the corner of the bed to join her human servant.

Luca peeked over the pillow when she felt the slight bounce of the mattress. "Nova, I want to kill myself."

"Don't kill yourself. Kill your ex-fiance instead," Nova advised, inducing a deep exhale from Luca.

"How can I do that to such a good person?" the latter wept, unable to move a muscle as the weight of guilt and shame kept pressing on her body. "I never liked her before, but maybe… that was because — ugh! I should've dragged a random hunk to help me relieve my stress."

"You mean relieve your lust?"

Luca sighed, not having enough energy to even rebut Nova's response. She exchanged eye contact with her cat, clenching her teeth and closing her eyes to rest them.

"Do you know she lost everything when she divorced him?" she asked lazily, recalling what happened in their messy love triangle. "George came from a humble family. Although they weren't as rich as the Kane family, her family was a line of upright political men."

Luca slowly reopened her eyes, knowing Georgina more than she should have. "That poor girl fell in love with a scum."

"Aren't you also a poor girl who fell in love with a scum?"

"Today is their five years wedding anniversary," Luca continued, ignoring Nova's comments. "He probably set this date, but didn't come."

"Are you sad because you sympathize with the legal wife? Or because you didn't see him?" Nova narrowed her eyes, getting more suspicious of Luca's real intention of coming to this place. "You're not thinking of giving your vcard to him again, are you?"

Luca snapped her eyes ever so lazily at Nova. "Nova, why aren't you asking me the reason why I want to lose my vcard?"

"Because you're a pervert in nature?" Nova answered truthfully. "Don't you know the saying, once a person ate meat, there's little chance you'll return to being a vegetarian? I believe in human nature, and your perverseness is something you can't fix."

"You're being a little harsh now." Luca rolled languidly until her back was lying flat on the bed, eyes on the ceiling. "But you're right. I wasted my youth aiming for my goal, and now dating is hard. Actually, it is impossible since I don't believe in love anymore."

"You don't believe in love, but you believe in lust?"

"But at least it'll make me full…" she whispered back, making Nova look at her in dismay. But alas, Nova was no saint and she couldn't argue with her. "Once I lose my vcard, I'll sleep with every good-looking men as much as possible and explore the art of Kamasutra."

"From aiming to be the best among the best artist, you ended up wanting to be a whore?" mumbled Nova, but Luca didn't budge. "Wow… you thirsty, girl."

"I am already successful and I am thirsty. If I'm not, I won't be drooling over hunks with my cat."

"Heh…"

"They're such an eye candy."

"I know, right?" Nova giggled mischievously, not denying it was fun to look at beautiful men and their displayed abs that were screaming to be caressed. "Have you ever wondered who would be your first this time?"

Luca remained silent as she stared at the ceiling. "I have no idea, but it would be nice if it's a memorable one."

"Ahh…" Nova rocked her head, finally getting the grasp of why her human servant was being extra picky.

"As for that unrecyclable trash, he can only look, but he can never touch me ever again," Luca added, lighting up Nova's eyes with anticipation.

"Are you sure?" asked the cat, receiving a slight nod as an answer. "But sleeping with him once isn't so bad."

This time, Luca cast Nova a look and stared at her dead in the eye. "For what? To hurt his wife? He's not the only person who has a dick in this world and I'd rather drown than covet another woman's man."

"I'm just saying since you had slept with him many times already, you'll be more comfortable giving him your vcard."

"Seriously? Which side are you on, Nova?" Luca asked, and Nova simply shrugged. "I'm not in a hurry to lose my virginity nor I am desperate enough to sleep with him after befriending his wife."

She rolled her eyes, knowing Nova was simply trying to help since the goal was for Luca to become a slut. And to do that, she had to lose her chastity first. But the way Luca was being too picky, all hopes were slowly in decline and it wouldn't be surprising if she end up becoming a nun.

"In any case, my plan will proceed," she mumbled, getting a curious question from Nova for the first time.

"What plan?"

Luca's lips curled up as she looked at the high ceiling. "To murder a man without sullying my hands."