49 The words he badly wanted to tell her

Lu Yifeng was a man of few words but at that moment, the words keep on coming and coming out of his mouth. He wanted her to believe him and for that to happen, he needed to tell her the truth. "The reason why I left a cheque to you with my name on it was that I wanted you to look after me. I thought that you were a whore and that I was your first customer. I was willing to take responsibility for you if you have come to me. I waited and waited but you never approached me. Instead of doing that, I should have come to you. I never thought that you were drugged. I was the one who gave you such a horrible experience that's why... I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Meilin... I'm sorry for giving you that nightmare."

Her eyes started to become misty. This wasn't supposed to be the truth that she wanted to hear from him. He was staring straight at her and she could see that there was no sign of falsehood in his eyes.

How could she doubt a person who was staring at her with this kind of eyes? She didn't want to believe but his eyes were telling her to believe him.

"But... but..." She bursts out in tears. What could she say now? She was planning to continue to accuse him, her argument with him was already prepared, she was willing to get it all out from him.

It did happen but what now? She got the confession she wanted from him but... it was not the answer that she was expecting from him.

He touched her cheek and wiped her tears away with his thumb. The way she controlled her tears in front of everyone and even the way she lets her emotions flow through tears if she was hurt made her even more beautiful. Because of this, he wanted to protect her.

He pulled her in his arms and hugged her close. He could finally hug her without a heavy heart since she didn't push him away. She cried on his chest like a kid. The invisible walls that she built up around her were shattered just like that.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Lu Yifeng continued to apologize as he was hugging her close.

He was sorry... Sorry for giving her that experience, sorry for hurting her, sorry for not being able to be by her side in her hard times, especially when she gave birth to their son. He was sorry for the things he did to her in his previous life.

Who could have thought that the man who broke her would also be the man to fix her?

"I-I hate you... I hate you..." She started hitting his chest, "I hate you!"

He closed his eyes, accepting her punches. "I know."

Xia Meilin cried louder when she heard his answer and it made her stopped punching his chest. She raised her head and looked at him with her wet face, "W-why? Why are you like this?"

He touched her cheeks with both hands this time. He was wiping her tears dry but to no avail, it kept on flowing down.

"Please... please don't be kind to me... Why are you even like this to me?" How would she be able to continue to hate him if he kept on looking at her with a gentle look on his face? How could she hate him if he kept on being kind to her?

He leaned down to her level and placed his lips against hers. The move he made surprised her that it also made her tears stop.

Before she could push him away, Lu Yifeng pulled back, but their faces were still a few inches apart. "Why you say? It's because... I love you."

Lu Yifeng's words keep on repeating in her mind and it wasn't just that, the kiss he gave her kept on playing again and again in her mind which made her face instantly turn red.

"You can hate me all you want but... I will keep on loving you. Your hate will not stop me from loving you." In his previous life, these were the words that he kept on telling himself whenever Xia Meilin would look at him with eyes full of hate. These were the words that he told himself to comfort him... these were the words that he badly wanted to tell her.

"I forced you to marry me because I wanted to have you and my son. I wanted him to have a complete family but the majority of it is because I have fallen for you." Lu Yifeng said honestly.

"Y-You're crazy!" She hit him again on his chest and this time he flinched.

She felt her heart dropped when she saw his pained face. She forgot that his wounds were still healing! "I-I'm sorry... I... I-"

Lu Yifeng smiled when he saw her reaction. He closed in and kissed her on her forehead this time, "It's okay. Besides, I'm only crazy for you."

The smile on his face was mesmerizing. Even if it was a bit similar to Lu Xian Yu's smiling face, it was still different and it made her heart want to burst.

She stepped on his foot before she quickly turned away and escaped him by running out of the place. She couldn't handle the speed of her beating heart. She felt like it was going to jump out soon. Her face was burning and she felt like she was going to have a fever. She cannot tolerate being in the same room as that man!

Lu Yifeng didn't follow her. He allowed her to leave as the smile on his face remained. He was happy since he knew that their relationship would improve this time. That night was a huge step for their relationship to be fixed.

Just a little bit more... He could finally make her fall for him.