8 Shall I consider it?
Proposals are supposed to be good it should give feelings of cloud but what's all this sudden pressure on me. I would be lying if I say that this is my first proposal, I have always been receiving them but rejecting them is not even a big deal when it's a stranger who's just trying his luck or maybe some secret lover but hey I don't know you so it's not that hard for me to reject them and what can I know about relationship when I have just turned 18 and entered a university.
Its been only a few months since I have been enrolled in the university and I have received many proposals but none mattered much but this pressure on me has a reason he was the first person I met in college he is really nice to me and has been a really good friend and supporter. He hanged out with me until I made my friends in the class and then gave me space so I can hang out with them and not to mention he became friends with most of my batchmates and never complained to me about anything.
He is looking me straight in my eyes as if looking at my soul asking me to let him love me
ohhhhhhhh I feel weird whats happening to me what am I thinking should I consider his proposal?
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What should I do he's still looking at me, is he not planning to see anything else. Have courage malorie and say something
say anything
oh god its the longest someone has ever taken to speak
it's okay it doesn't have to be smart
just some words will do
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oh you cannot make this weirder and probably worse just say something
"CAN YOU NOT STARE ME, I CAN'T THINK"
oh dear lord you take so long to say something and that's what you said
it should have been better if you wouldn't have said anything
Pablo came closer to me although we were sitting together in a seminar hall and our seats were already close and it was a little cold, but when I saw him coming more closer I felt my temperature dropped and I just froze right there. He came closer to my neck and I felt his lips touch my ear and he whispered "do you not like when I see you but I feel those eyes of yours speak to me, I just feel something in my heart when I look in your eyes"
That bastard!!!!!!!!!!!!
I got goosebumps all over with his soft low whisper and his husky voice so close to my neck that I can actually feel his breath. I just can't move away from him and feel helpless sitting with him.
He moves away from me maybe he saw me stiffening, but that crazy guy stops doing one thing and asks for another.
He gestured his hand toward me asking me for my hand, I can't refuse him cause I already plan to reject him so I'll grant him this wish. He took my handheld it firmly and all of kissed it and looked at me straight saying" You are a princess even if you refuse me I'll wait for you, I'll watch you from afar held you from the shadows but I'll never leave this presence of yours"
I felt instantly and something dropped in my heart, I don't like doing this to him but I don't have any feelings toward him, I can't help it even if I try to give this a chance I won't be doing justice to him and myself. I'll just be forcing myself to love him just because he loves me.
"Pablo I can't do this I'm sorry to break your heart but I don't have any such feelings towards you I just thought of you as my friend"
Just as I have said these words I felt his grip getting strong and he held my hand tightly and I saw his lost expression and he's eyes got red and I could see them getting moist and then he closed his eyes and sighed and let go of my hand in the same second.
It was so harsh to see him so helpless I felt like the worst person, I hugged him and rubbed his back "I'm sorry Pablo I can't see you like this but I'm not the one for you" and just at that moment, I felt a tear on my hand.
