Chapter 64: Unspoken Fears

Author's Note:

I know you guys have been wondering why I haven't been updating for a long time well I have encountered some technical problems with my app. Out of nowhere I suddenly got signed out from my account and I couldn't get in. I have tried signing in but to no avail, I was really frustrated as I could not sign in. I was really worried if I ever going to sign in again to my account, with so much frustration I just let it be for weeks then I got a tip to reformat my phone, I was kind of skeptic in doing it at first cause I will be re installing all my apps again so I didn't do it right away then yesterday I tried doing my friends suggestion and today reinstall it today luckily I was able to sign in like finally yes!!! Got my account back!!! That's all Happy reading 😊 these are the two chapters that has not been uploaded the last time due to what happened. I still haven't write any other chapters so I think the next update will be on Monday or Wednesday next week as I just got back in to my account now. Sorry for this really. Thank you for those who still waits and reads this. Thank you for your support.

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"That man who is that man that dare lay their hands on my men and on my business!" The man shouted with anger. The young man was taking it lightly the first time it happened but when a series of killings happened targeting the business that he has that's when things became serious. He could no longer hide it to his father and so this brought them to this position where his father who's taking his time laying low is now in full rage all because of his businesses getting rid off one by one.

"Book me a plain ticket I'll fly back to deal with this personally." The man aged by time said.

"No father let me handle this first. You can't go back just yet, all eyes are on you because of the previous issue your name has been involved to." Raven tried to persuade his father to not go and let him handle things over there.

"Make sure to find out who the man behind this!!! You understand my boy? No one messes with our family, no one."

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"You were disappointed with me weren't you?" Lee asked Dexter who's laying beside him.

"Yeah I was hoping you will follow after me. My husband who's always worried about me didn't follow me his husband who doesn't have any guards with him and put his work first before me and his son to even find some time to go home. Yeah I was really disappointed but I don't want to pressure you cause I know there's just so much that you're handling right now. I just simply want to remind you what are you slowly becoming Lee." Lee looked at Dexter who's eyes are still close.

"What do you mean?"

"That, remember the time when you told me that you're parent were always out and that only left just you and your brother. You told me that you were lonely back then, that no one thought you the importance of relationship to both you and your brother." Lee stayed silent for a moment, Dexter is on point.

"Lee you're starting to become just like how they were to you and Teakyun. I want to spend time with you but at the same time I want to knock some sense to that brain of yours. Learn how to balance work and life honey if you keep this up then I just might take Lexter away and raise him myself for a while till you are ready to be a father." Lee flinch at the thought, if Dexter and Lexter will stay away from him then what's the point of his working this hard. Everything will be for nothing if he'll just lose Dexter and his son.

Lee snuggles Dexter tightly. "You promise not to divorce me." Dexter laughed.

"I did promise not to divorce you but I didn't promise not to take a break." Then Dexter's face became serious again. "But if you cheat on me even once I will never going to forgive you. I will break all my promises to you cause the moment you cheat on me.you already broke your promise to me-Got it?"

"You know I will never going to cheat on you."

"I know I'm just reminding you cause it seems you have forgotten that you swore to always put family first and that you won't follow your parents footsteps in bringing you and Teakyun up. I have no plan in raising Lexter to be as stubborn and problematic as you two brothers."

"I will go home every night from now on except for business trips."

"That's fair enough." Dexter got up and pick his clothes on the floor.

"Hey where are you going?" Lee panicked when he sees Dexter dressing up.

"I need to get home, Lexter might be missing me." Dexter was testing Lee. He wanted to see if the man's resolve is still the same as before. "You can just stay here." Lee stayed silent for a moment and then got up to pick his own clothes.

"I'll go home with you. I know you're piss of me and a piss Dexter is a scary Dexy." Lee hugged Dexter to his waist. "I'm sorry, I know you're angry cause I took for granted the fact that you understands me and my work....." Dexter didn't say anything but he didn't pushed Lee either. "Before I never understand why my parents are so obsess in getting successful and richer but the moment I saw Lexter that's when it hits me..... Aaahhh I want this child to have a bright future, a future where I can give him everything, a future where he won't worry about himself even after I'm gone or if something bad where to happen to me. It scares me to think that if something happens to me I will no longer will be able to give you two the best kind of life. Dexter as a father and as your husband that's the last thing I would want you two to experience."

"Why are you talking as if you will die? Are you going to leave to go to the after life?" Dexter asked sarcastically.

"Of course not but it won't be bad to prepare just in case it happens. Life is full of unpredictability I just want to be able to provide you two a good life even after I'm gone." Dexter hit him hard to his head.

"Idiot! If I knew you are so ready and eager to die I wouldn't have married you in the first place! Let go this instance!' Dexter's blood boils because of what he heard.

"I'm sorry please don't be angry." Lee begged he didn't let go.

"What's gotten to that head of yours. No wonder you have been acting really strange." Dexter cupper Lee's face. "There's nothing wrong in wanting to give us a good life but in what expense Lee? Your time with us? Lexter will live not knowing his father if you continue to act like this."

"I'm sorry please don't be angry." Lee can't utter other words than sorry. He knows he's in he wrong here but the thought of not being able to secure to future of the two most important and precious person in the world for him scared him shit but seeing how angry Dexter is, is even scarier. He knows that Dexter is a man of his words that he will never leave him but the message that Dexter insinuates made it clear to him that if he continues to do that time will come and Dexter will leave him. He it was the second time he saw Dexter this angry really angry.

Dexter saw and felt how Lee tremble in fear that he can't help but hugged the later, he kissed the top of his head. "Be a good boy. I'll go ahead."

"Don't go. Please stay. I'll finish everything tomorrow then after that I won't stay late, I'll come home but please stay with me till I finish everything." Lee begged.

"You want me to stay with you till you finish your work tomorrow?" Lee nodded like a little child. " What about Lexter?" Dexter asked.

"We can just have Mom send little Lee here. You and him can stay in my office. Please." Dexter pretend to think.

"Ok but request Teakyun a week leave. Assigned a person to handle your affair and only leave important and confidential task for yourself just work at home. I don't mind you working at home if it can't be helped I just want you to be at home when it's time to go home. This place is not your home to spend your nights to. Are we clear about this?" Lee nodded like a little child.

"Ok, if ever you will break your promise I'll make sure to tell this to our family's late late grandmother grandma Minchi, she's really famous for haunting those who hurt a family." Dexter can't believe that Lee bought the idea of his great grandma ghost thing so easily though grandma Minchi doesn't particularly exist in reality but the story do exist in their family. It's like a thing that adult use to scare a family member when a child is usually being naughty.

"You're joking right?" Lee was laughing awkwardly hoping for it to be just a joke.

"Nope I'm not." In a sense Dexter was really not joking, grandma Minchi is an imaginary ghost created by their family thus grandma Minchi is like a none existence ghost but only exist within their family's stories.

Dexter took out his phone and dialed his brother. (Hey Dexter? What makes you call me this late?)

"About Grandma Minchi."

(Hey don't ever speak about her! Till now it still gives me the creeps bbbrrrrr.... If you will going to talk about her then I'll hung up bye.) Then the line died.

"Don't curse me please!!! Don't tell Grandma Minchi please!!!!"Dexter was trying hard to hold back his laugh

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Chester woke up with the faint noise in the shower room. He got up and run to see if it was Terrence. Terrence has been staying late often these days and it's making him miss his husband. He take a peek and there he saw Terrence taking a shower. His well toned body soak in steamy water is so sexy. "Get a hold of yourself Chester!" Chester whispered. "Now is not the time to be harassing your husband with your eyes." Chester is so busy slapping his cheek as he shake his head that he didn't even noticed that Terrence is already standing in front of him.

"What are you doing Kitten?" Chester blushed to be caught peeking by his own husband.

"I heard noises from the shower room and see if it was you." Chester shyly said.

"Did I interrupt your sleep?" Terrence felt guilty but Chester shakes his head no.

"You have been going out lately, I almost never see you anymore. We live in the same house but I can't even see my own husband." This might not be the right time but Chester doesn't know when he will be able to see Terrence again.

Terrence sighed, he felt guilty neglecting his own family for the sake of his revenge. He has been steadily making clean moves. His moving according to his plan and schedule but he didn't realize that the thought of taking the justice by his own hand would consume him this much.

When Terrence didn't say anything Chester continued. "The kids wanted to go to the beach this weekend since it will be the start of their summer break." It might seem like he's using his own sons as a reason for Terrence to spend some quality time with them but if it will make Terrence have time with them then so be it. It's not like he's lying cause the kids really did ask him that but the thing is they don't mind Terrence tagging along except for Dos who's very fond of Terrence.

Terrence still yet to answer, he's battling whether to postpone his plans of vendetta cause he might not get another opportunity he missed this one specially since the next big fish on his list already surrendered himself to the authorities. As far as his Intel's feeds the police will transfer him to a special protection facilities on the weekend and that's the only time he can get the man which will play a big part in luring in his prey but what about his family?

Chester turned his back when Terrence still didn't answer. He went back to bed and hide himself under the blanket. There are a lot of things running to his mind. Terrence never hesitate when it's him who's asking. He never thinks twice about his favors and most of all he always always have time for them. The situation they are in is making Chester think that maybe Terrence is already losing his interest to him, that he no longer loves him and that pains Chester so much. Slowly tears make their way, Chester didn't even noticed that he's already crying.

"Kitten, I'll go. Come out of the blanket and let me see you." Chester who's hiding didn't obey Terrence. He refused to come out.

"Maybe you don't love us anymore." Terrence was taken aback with what Chester just said. He knows that there's no way in this lifetime he will stop loving his family specially Chester.

"Kitten you know that's not true. I love you and the kids, the reason why I'm doing all this is for you." Terrence is telling the truth, he got so obsess with it that he wanted it to be done. He no longer want those people in Chester's nightmare to impose threat to them not now nor in the future.

Chester came out and the sight of him crying feels like someone rip Terrence out of his chest. He hugged the Omega. "I'm sorry kitten" Terrence said but Chester suddenly backflip and twist his hands from behind before pinning him on their bed. "Shitten whest yer you juing?" (Kitten what are you doing?)

"I hate that you are too busy and I hate that you hesitate in answering when I ask for your time for us!!!! If you do this to us again I'll make sure to break your arm or maybe I should just break your leg so you can stay here!" Chester doesn't really want to do that but Axel gave him some tips on how to tame an Alpha. He thought that he won't be needing it but he thinks he can try doing it maybe that can leave an impression to Terrence, though he's not really a fan of violence.

Terrence smiled even though his wife is pressing him against their soft bed. He was not expecting it but seeing Chester doing this sort of thing makes him applaud himself for making the right decision of having him trained but such force is still not enough to defeat someone like him. Terrence use his body force to try and lift himself up when he successfully have his body lifted a little he used his left leg to unbalance Chester's body and flip him over. He trapped Chester beneath him and hold both of his wrists.

"I don't remember my wife to be this wild and violent." Terrence can see the sad look on Chester's face that doesn't want to admit he got defeated.

"Axel told me that I should make you acknowledge my strength but I don't think I have improved." Chester snip trying to hold back his tears.

Terrence place a kiss on top of his head. " You don't have to break my arm or leg just to make me stay here. Tell me and I'll stay."

"I just did earlier but you hesitated." Chester argued feeling upset about that.

"I'm sorry, that won't happen again and if that happens I want you to kick my ass like you did tonight. Knock some sense to this old man ok?" Terrence captured Chester's lips the light nibbling on his lips deepen that only made Chester's body burn with desire. He can't help it he's just an Omega who has been craving for his Alpha.

"Kitten you smell so good." Terrence is suddenly feeling hot too. Usually when the two of them are making love everything is in control but the heat he's been feeling is sipping to his vein awakening all his sleeping desire and lust - his inner Alpha.

"Aaaahhhh Suck my breast more aaahhh...." Chester is getting impatient that he start removing his own pajama along with his underwear. Since Terrence is only on his robe. Chester just mind removing his own clothing.

"Damn Kitten, fuck.... That smell. It can't be, it supposed to come for another week." Terrence finally noticed, Chester is in his heat. He spread Chester's legs and there he is dripping wet an indication of an Omega who is under the influence of their heat. The scent immidiately filled their room and it's making Terrence losses his mind. Before if you're going to ask him, he wouldn't mind but things are a bit different this time around. He doesn't want Chester pregnant when he's planning to have an all out war against their enemy. Terrence bit his arm to gain control over his mind and body. He kissed Chester's forehead before getting up. "Kitten I'll be back. Don't go out of this room ok?" Chester who's lost because of his heat nodded.

Terrence quickly change to the first clothes he can grab on and run out of their room. He took his motor bike and went to the nearest convenient store he first saw and without wasting time he blurted out loud what he came there for - Condoms. Everyone in the store looked at him funny but the saddest part is that they don't have his size so he went to a couple number of store just to find that rare size of condom. He can't believe that at his age not to mention him being a contented married man will still need to buy one to use on his wife. His own wife whom he never use a condom before. He swallowed all the embarrassment and told himself that it will be just temporary. Control is hard when Chester is in his heat, he would hardly pull out if that happens so using condoms is safer. When he came back he saw Chester playing with himself using his hands while snipping to his robe. This made Terrence burn with desire at the same time felt jealous over his bath robe that his wife is lusting over.

The next morning their sons looked at Chester who is being carried by Terrence towards the dinning table. "Is Mom alright?" Uno asked.

"Can't he walk?" Dos follow his brother's question with another question.

Terrence felt proud that his two sons noticed. "Well you see last night your Mom has been clinging and begging.....ack ouch Kitten?!!" Chester hit Terrence to his stomach.

"I'm in heat so I won't be able to take you to school today." Chester explained. The two boys immidiately got it, this happens every month and when it does their father take time off to his work and spend time with their Mom. Uno and Dos learned about heat on their own when they first saw it happen to their Mom so they find books about it and learned anything they could. They found out that the sexual attraction between bonds are strong specially when it's time for an Omega's heat. They basically need their partners pheromones to help calm their down which also explains why their father always sticks to their Mother Everytime of that month. An Omega's heat can last up to three days to a week depending with one person. In their mother's case which is base from their observation his heat can last up to 3-4 days only.

"Can we still go to the beach?" Thirdy ask innocently, ever since he can remember whenever Chester's in heat he's always weak and sick which is because Terrence his Alpha is no where near him to soothe the pain he feels from his hear.

"Of course honey." Chester answered.

"We can still travel as long as Daddy is by your mother's side." Terrence assured the kids. Chester felt satisfied. This is what he always wanted a peaceful life far from the nightmares of his past.

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"Love should we tell Lander?" Lance words caught Aiden's attention. The two of them have been taking things slow. They don't want to hurry things and so far it's been working well for them. It hasn't been that long when Lance start calling him back to his old endearment of him. At first Aiden felt awkward but it has always been their names for each other so they got used to it rather quickly.

"Don't you think it's still too early? I mean what if he couldn't handle it? What if he comes to hate me?" Aiden couldn't hide his fear when it comes to his son. He might be the fearless son of the Miller's but he becomes coward when it comes to his son.

"Of course not, how can he hate someone as kind and loving as you?" Lance tried to encourage Aiden.

"But still, I'm not the mother he has come to know." Lance hold Aiden's hand.

"But you have been more mother than the mother he has come to know after all you are his real mother. Beside I don't take you for someone who will let other people to take the role of his own son's mother." Aiden rest his head against Lance chest as he enjoy the cold breeze of the night.

"And while we are at this topic, I think we should get married again." Aiden was caught off guard with Lance question which resulted him to push the Alpha a little too hard.

Lance lost his balance and fall back to the floor. "W-what are you talking about?" Aiden asked. "We have been just dating for months. What's with the marriage thing?"

Lance can see the fear in Aiden's eyes and it's clear that the answer to his question is a clear no. He can understand why, it occurs to him that Aiden is still traumatized with the idea of marriage. "Why are you so afraid of marrying me again? When technically you are still married to me clearly." Lance tried to push himself back up.

"Liam is the one who's married to you and not Aiden. We may be the same person with different identity but Aiden is not your wife Lance." Lance can feel the seriousness to Aiden's voice.

"Why don't you want to be married to me again?" Lance eyes was filled with sadness. He doesn't want to ask the question but with that little time when they start over again it seems that Aiden doesn't have any plans in taking their relationship further than being in a relationship.

"It's not that I don't want to but don't you think it's too soon? What if we don't work out in the end? What if I got pregnant again and we realized that our relationship is not meant to be?" Aiden tried to rationalize things with Lance but Lance can't accept all reasoning that Aiden is giving him.

"You are bond to me, even if we got separated you can't take any other Alpha aside from me so why Aiden?! Why won't you marry me? Tell me the reason why you don't want to tell Lander that you are his real mother is it really because you are afraid getting rejected or is it because you are thinking that if this doesn't work at least Lander won't be caught in the middle of us, is that it?"

Aiden was silent for a while. These thoughts plague him for months, more than getting hurt he's more afraid of hurting his only son's feelings when the time comes that him and Lance will have to go separate ways. It's has been always enough for Aiden to love and watch his son from afar ever since he learned that he's alive. He just want to make sure that the child his in better care that's all. "Won't it be enough for us to stay like this without marriage."

"So that's it. I thought you were seriously thinking about it and the only reason you are not bringing this out is because it's still too early to talk about it. I was really hoping that you will marry me again cause whenever I bring the topic up you are not going against." Lance was totally disappointed but he was more disappointed with himself cause he knows that it was all his fault why his wife is so afraid of commitment.

"It will be convenient this way. We don't have to make a fuss, people don't really need to know about this aside from our close friends and family."

"Is that why you don't want the media to know that you are dating me? What about your family? I even told your father that I'll marry you again."

"My family knows, I already talked to them." Aiden doesn't want to look at Lance.

Lance walk towards Aiden and held both of his hands and kneel in front of him. "Aiden whatever I did I'm sorry but please don't do this to me."

"Lance I'm not breaking up with you we are still together so what's wrong? Please don't make marriage a big deal. We are better off this way. We can love each other is just that we won't be tied to one another. So when the time you'll realize I'm not the one you can still have a chance to be with that person without any worry's. Aiden your wife is dead he won't be a problem."

Lance nodded. "Is that really what you want?" Aiden smiled bitterly and nodded. "Ok I'll respect your decision but you also have to respect mine cause I'm going to change it. I'm going to make you marry me no matter what and don't ever try stopping me." Lance got up and left Aiden.

Minutes later Aiden's father came. "Looks like I'm going to have myself a very stubborn son in law."

"Father." Chairman Miller take a breath of fresh air.

"I don't mind giving your hands to him as long as he loves and cherish you like what he has been doing but it's still your decision, there's only much I can say to you in the end you will still be the one to decide."

"Am I in the wrong here?" Chairman Miller looked at his son.

"No one is in the wrong here. Your decision is the product of Lance incompetence, he was not a good husband which had cause you all those misfortunes that's why you are so afraid of commitment but tell me son if Lance were to marry someone will you really let it? Can you bare the thought of him being in someone else's side and Lander calling other person his mother?"

Aiden clenched his fist. "Lance can't love any other person other than me. He swore!!!!" Aiden can't help but shout.

"Then that's your answer. If you are so sure that he won't replace you then there's no way he will look to other person."

"Five years that he thought you were dead but not once he replaced you in his heart." Aiden's father added. "Well it's still up to you but whatever your decision is father will just be right here to support you."

"Thank you Dad."