3 chapter three

After Jake was done showing me around we went to the studio to work on the song that I wrote. He asked if he could see the songs that were going to be played today. As is the first song together and to see if it was the right song to sing on the first day of work. And I don't know why it won't be right. I mean a lot of people sing songs that are good and weird sometimes so I want to know if my songs are perfect on the first day.

I didn't want it to be perfect. I want it to be who I am and who I want to be and to tell people my story, my feelings inside of me, to let them know they are not alone. And why do I do all of this? Should I tell Jake why I do all of this or should I not. Because maybe he is right. But do I really want someone to tell me how to sing my own songs and how to record them?. Should I say something to him out loud or should I keep this all to myself in my thoughts.

Because I wonder where people know who I am when I do this now or where they still think I am not there. And that I can't hear them talking about me and lie in about stuff about me. Where people finely see me for who I am. Or where they still make fun of me. For who I am and who I want to become.

And where they understand why I want to do this and that I am human to like they are and that I have feelings to. Where they finely understand me when they hear these songs I wonder if they will.