348 It’s easier once you accept that you’re not special

Kids...in real life, spirit and passion are not enough for success.

"It's so hard..."

I almost cry. I really almost cried. We didn't stop trying except to have lunch, which Angwi brought to the cliff. We even skipped teatime and snack time! But to the end, I still drifted away after a while, even though I tried hard to concentrate and always think of the ground beneath my sole, about Jade, about Zia, about Natha...

Ugh. Actually, I always started to drift off when I thought about Natha, because I always thinking of going over to the Lord Castle. Should I stop thinking about him, then? But...my mind always drifted to him automatically.

Haa...was this because I missed him?

Damnit! Now it just made me even sadder!

[Don't be sad, Master! Master can do it!] my cheek was poked and nuzzled by a fluffy head, and I pulled Jade for a hug as I lay on the couch, lamenting my incompetence.