165 At One Desolate Corner

I would be lying if I said I hadn't gotten lost for a moment there. I didn't know what had gotten into me. However, when I had gone my way out to praise Jin Longwen to the sky in order to sway Oniisan's opinion, the memory of that day had suddenly rushed into my head.

"How?" Oniisan had asked.

"How did you know that?"

How...?

It was but a glimpse but too vivid to be ignored. In the end, it flowed to me without restrain. Countless time I had tried to bury it deep beneath my consciousness. But I guessed, it had been a futile effort in my part. I couldn't seem to forget that day. First time being drugged and first time being held by a man.

The temperature we had shared, our scalding breath intermingling, and how his strong arms had cradled my entire being. His gentle touch caressing my skin, exploring every corner of my body. How his tall built and stalwart body had overshadowed me as he had crawled up to gaze at me from above.