17 The Lonely Child

"What am I going to do about this?"

She was walking to class and she had noticed that there were some voices talking and there were some new faces and some old faces from her schools that she notice and she doesn't know if she can trust them or not. She doesn't know anything about herself and so she had to dit down quick when she got inside of the classroom and when she sat down she was told.

"You must be the one that was hanging out with that weirdo of a teacher."

"He, not a weirdo, bitch." She was saying that in her mind and she wanted to tell her off that he was just lost in the world and he was misguided because of people like you all that want big things from him. He was just a human being.

She didn't want to answer any of their questions and so she sat at her seat all day and she had to look at the front as such as she had made it to where she had walkout at the end of class to her other class and all day she was getting looks at her and she was hoping that people would stop looking at her as she had not been looking at them but she needed to go to the bathroom.

She put water on her face and she was not wearing any makeup and the other girls was also wearing makeup but it was scary that it was just something that would never get into her mind and she had left and she had gone out of the bathroom and then she was trying to see about Sophia but there is something about this and it was just something that would make her upset and she knew why but she never tries to take that step and so she had just keep it to herself.

The whole day she was thinking about what she said to Sophia and saying that might be hard to say but she wishes that she didn't say it but it had to be said and she started to regret it slowly with nobody to talk to but there will always be stares and the harder it is to make something that isn't there is hard to create again.

Candy was feeling the pressure of such loneliness and now the plan is now over for her and she never figures out why there is something that is dividing her from meaningful people. It was going through her mind and she had been in trouble just by walking by herself. Every day is like walking in a desert and looking for a civilization that isn't there. That is how she felt and she never even told her mother and she was sick of her father.

"That bastard." She says.

She walks to the bus and she got on there and she had sat in the front of the bus and she was hoping that she would have a good ride home and get home quick and she had seen that Sophia was getting her car early and Sophia was about to test drive it and it brought such envy and pain in Candy's chest.

"That bitch."

Candy step off of the bus and then she was hoping that there is something that she can do about her regret decision and it was bothering her and so she wants to talk to her mother. And so she had made it to where she had to tell her mother.

"Mother, I want to know that you are looking at someone that is hurting mother."

"What are you talking about dear?"

"I want to tell you about what my friend did that wasn't being a friend and it was her self headache."

"I want to know that you are something that is part of this world that is filled with something that will destroy the world and there are people that will help the world. In what category do you think that you are under?"

"I am under someone that is part of the world that is in between because there are people that change their views when they are faced with life-death situation but there is always something that is part of the world that is broken to yet to find the world as safe as it is and if something happens to the world as we know it then there will bee a dangerous situation of the world of darkness."

"You are really deep in your poetry am I correct."

"Yes, you can say that but there is something that is part of the world that is yet to be and I might be part of the side that might view it differently."

"I see. So you hoping that the world is different right. You need to make sure that you can tell me everything and you make it to where it had to make you someone that is part of the world that will help people."

"I see. I try to think that way if I get to that point."

Jessica smile and then she left her room and Candy was still hard to understand what category is her father under and why is her mother with such a man that has a problem being the one that is with his pride.

Candy was feeling that it was something bad feeling inside her and she had felt the pressure of that bastard inside her and hitting her. She could never feel like she is pure enough to look at someone as a pure boy. This will never happen in the world that she is living in and she will be judge for her crimes. "Bastard."

Candy wrote down and see that there is something that is wrong with her hand and she was gripping it to the point where the blood came out of it and there it was again her head speaking to her and she had to kill something.

She walks over to the window and sees that it was Sophia and she had a vision and as she was choking the life of Sophia and smiling in her face and talking to her and telling her how much beautiful she is than her. She will feel the pain of the pain that she will feel when Candy is doing it.

She touches her lips imagine that she is doing that and she was feeling that there is something that will bring her joy for the first time in her life and that is going against the system of the whole world.