15 Chapter 14

"Dear father ,

I do not know where you are today . And I don't know if you can see me . But you said you would always be with me . I believe you and I always will . There are so many things I want to tell you . I think even a book will not be enough to contain all of it . But I must tell you this . I am not fine . I am sad . I am powerless . And I am scared . What did I ever do to deserve this ? I lost you , I lost my Tommy and now , I am in a house full of demons . Yes , that is what they are . Demons .

All I ever wanted was to be loved . But that has proved to be impossible over the years . Even my own mother does not love me . She used me . She sold me to these demons . And now , she will watch happily as they tear me apart . I wonder sometimes father . Did you even want me ? If not , then you shouldn'thave had me . I do now wish I wasn't born . Yes , that is how weak minded I have become . I am not your brave Canny anymore . You are the only one I can speak my heart out to . But the tragedy is , you can'teven hear me . Maybe this is why I've written so many letters to you . I am afraid of letting my fears out . I don't know what to do anymore .

I don't know how to face Tommy . He has changed . He probably hates me now . Even if I pretend I don't care , deep down I know I do . All I want todo now is sleep and never wake up . Just like you did .

Your Carina ."