2 ~ ᑕᕼᗩᑭTᗴᖇ 1 ~ Life as we know it ~ (Part 2)

Mondays' were always busy at home with Mom having photo shoots around the garden and the pool. So I could not leave during the morning. I was going to go to school, so no one could be suspicious about my actions and to kill some time. This morning the house was a bit more quiet than usual, Mom took Pearl and Thomas to school for once because she had a meeting at the school that she had to attend to and she decided that Nick could tag along. Obviously the only reason she went was to prove to Nick that she was responsible, after I said she was very irresponsible last night.

I'm surprised that she actually decided to go, just for Nick. She must really like him that she wants to impress him so much.

I took a walk as usual, but I was not used to this silence. It brought some peace to my mind, but it did definitely not feel the same without Pearl talking about all her new teddy bears and Thomas blabbing about cartoons. I'm going to miss it.

I thought about all the nice times we use to have with Mom and Dad, Mom was happy then and she was most certainly not like this to me before and especially not back then, but then I could not help but wonder if Mom and Nick will develop into something and maybe it will be the same again. Deep down I knew that things could not go back to the way they were, but I still had hope. Maybe Nick could be the one to change Mom back to the way she was, funny and caring, because love changes people. I did not know the answer, but I hope that he is able to.

School today was boring, as always, but I was definitely not going to miss school, but I was going to miss my literature class and of course I was going to miss Jennifer. I always call her Jenn because she always complained about not having a nickname and me having one, that literally everyone uses, now it just became one of our inside jokes.

Jenn has been my best friend since I was three years old. I tell her all my secrets, I go to her with all my problems and I keep her updated on my life all the time, but I can't with this, she needs to stay at school and focus on her work. She is the smartest in her grade and she can't afford to lose a few weeks of school if she wants to get a scholarship in college, plus I would not want to drag her into a situation like this.

Jenn and I used to see each other a lot on the weekends because our parents knew each other. When she moved to another school it was difficult for us to handle it because we were inseparable, but we made a plan to see each other every chance that we got. I was also going to miss Charlotte and Sierra, they were my other two close friends who were always there for me, during the good and the bad, and we had so many memories together, like going to the mall, watching the sunsets on the beach, going to fun parties and even just being here at home together. We knew each other our whole lives and I am happy that I'm able to have such amazing friends.

When I got home I started to pack my essentials, such as my clothes toiletries and maybe even a few lovely books. Mom was done with her photo shoot so she was not at home anymore, it was much easier to grab things around the house. "Am I really doing this?" I asked myself. This was the thought that bounced around my head all the time and the one thing that made me nervous was the thought "Where would I stay?" I had no answer to that question. I was terrified, but I knew it had to be done, because I'm tired of staying here. I need to take a break from all of it.

I enjoyed my last moments at home, with the comfy feeling. I watched a bit of 'The Vampire Diaries' on Netflix and I can't believe that Matt is still alive, I mean after all, he is a human, but I was interrupted by Mom dropping Pearl and Thomas off. She walked in and gave them a hug and a kiss. I could see Nick standing in the doorway, ready to leave again. She did not even take a minute to say hello or how was your day? She just walked out, leaving me, standing in the kitchen. Little did she know it would be the last time she saw me in a long time.

I wanted to leave in the early evening so I only had a few hours left, so I played tag with Pearl and Thomas. "Tag you're it" I said, as I tagged Thomas. We had our last few moments together full of laughs, but little did they know this could be the last time that I see them. Hopefully not.

I left letters on each of their beds, even Mom's. I poured my heart out into those letters telling them how I really feel and that I'll miss them and they must not come and look for me, because I did not want to be found. I made it very clear that I was going to take as much time as I need and I'll come back when I feel that I'm ready, but Mom's letter was a bit different. I was telling her how I felt about how she treats me and that I need a bit of time alone to think and that I think it's fair for me to do this.

I grabbed my phone and a whole bunch of money from the table, Mom would not even notice that the money is gone. My plan is that I would tell Pearl and Thomas that I was going for a walk but it would be my chance to sneak out. I was not surprised that Mom was not at home yet, but as soon as Mom stopped at home, I took my chance and walked over to the door. This was it, I opened the door, and had one last glance around the room and said "Goodbye" really softly.

I decide to quickly stop by Jenn's house before I left. I walked over to her house, and there she was, sitting outside on her porch swing. She was sitting with her back towards me, I quickly put my bags behind the garden so that she would not see them and I ran over to her. She could not hear me approaching her because she was listening to music. Probably Taylor Swift, because she was our favourite artist.

"Hey" I said, as I grabbed her shoulders from behind. She jumped up in her seat, her facial expression explained everything, and she looked like she had just seen a ghost.

"Hey, you scared me half to death" she said with a half giggle and a half cry. "Ha-ha, sorry about that" I said, laughing. "What's up?" she asked. "Nothing I just stopped by, to see what you were doing because I was kind of bored" I lied. Well I did not want to tell her why I was really here, it would distract her and she would not allow it. "Okay, want to join me?" she asked, as she patted the swing, gesturing for me to sit next to her. "Sure" I said as I sat down.

We talked and laughed about everything, until it was time for me to go. "I think I need to leave now, the sun is starting to set" I said. "You're not staying the night?" she asked. "Nope I can't, I still have some homework" which was true. "Okay well at least watch the sunset with me" she asked, and that is exactly what I did because I felt bad for not telling Jenn. "Goodbye Jenn" I said as I squeezed her tight. "Bye, see you tomorrow" she said waving. "Of course" I lied again. I hated lying to her, but I could do nothing about it.

I had everything I needed and so it began, I had no plan of what I was going to do whatsoever. I mean I am seventeen, so I could figure it out. I also had no clue of where to go and I had no place to stay, maybe I should have thought this through, did i act in a moment of anger? But then I reminded myself of the terrible fights that we had at home and how Mom loves shouting at me and The way she points out my mistakes. No, I have to do this. I had the money to go anywhere, so I would be fine, I just had to figure out where to go...