9 Silver Memory 9

Alexander followed me outside and continued to walk alongside me. I looked around more calmly until we got to the garden. I hadn't had the chance to appreciate the beauty of it the first time, but now as I walked into it, I couldn't hold back the contentment I felt as I looked upon it. Although it was winter, and the flowers were not in bloom, the beauty of the garden was in the snow-covered grounds. It was a sight to behold. Gazing at the garden, it was undeniably hard to say that this world was really was ugly.

Alexander also seemed to take note of the beauty that existed in this garden, but when I was about to call on him, small running footsteps could be heard coming this way.

By the thundering of my heart and the warmth that swept my body, I knew it was the children.

I turned around to greet them but as I did, Erin and Liam had already gone up to Alexander in curiosity. I watched them closely look at him while Alexander stood frozen in the snow, gazing down at them with a smile on his face. He crouched and he introduced himself and the kids did the same. There was a warmth in his eyes and smile that he held as he looked at the children. Without realizing, I had smiled at them. Something I hadn't done in a long time. Alexander seemed to have noticed it though, but made no snarky comment about how my cold demeanor had melted away.

"They are yours, aren't they?"

My eyes blinked and it took me a moment to process what he had just said. He had found out as well. Was I making it that obvious? Should I indeed distance myself from Erin and Liam? But before I could say anything, Alexander shook his head and said, " I know they are by the way your eyes soften and your face glows. It's something that a mother expresses towards her children, and, well, you did it just now. It is not really noticeable. You hide your emotions pretty well sp people would have to search deeper than I did to come to that conclusion. No worries, I won't tell," he stated.

A sigh left my lips and I nodded with appreciation but not before saying, "I hope that is true."

Alexander nodded in understanding at my warning.

"Their life is the number one priority for you. Even over mine. If a day comes when you have to choose, Erin and Liam must be your choice. I may have not been here for their first 8 years, but I'll be damned if I let them be hurt."

"Roger that ma'am."

Shaking my head, I snickered and told the kids to go back home. It was getting colder and although their werewolf blood will keep them warm unlike humans, they were still pups who needed extra care.

As they walked back, Erin and Liam turned around and mouthed, "Bye momma."

A strange feeling formed in my heart. Heartache. I knew these children were mine. I knew they didn't deserve a mother who had abandoned them. I knew that by being with them, they were in far greater danger. But I can't. I can't walk away from them anymore. Our bond had connected again and it was growing stronger by each passing second. My children. They were mine and I couldn't hug them whenever I wanted to. I had lots of regrets but I knew that although I did regret not being there for those moments, I wouldn't have changed my decision back then. They had grown safer in a pack without me. They had grown safer and healthier and stronger here. That was something I wouldn't have risked.

With that last thought, I nodded at Alexander and indicated for him to follow me deeper into the garden.

"Listen, Alex, I have indeed killed in cold blood. I am what they say. I truly am a monster. But nothing will compare to what will become of me if the children are harmed. They are everything to me. No one else can replace such value. My children will always come first no matter the cost," while I talked, I knew my eyes were changing, "If anything is to happen to them, I will have the blood of those who did it. I will not know sleep and I will hunt every single one and tear them apart," my eyes had changed now into a murderous silver glint.

I paused to watch the small frozen pond, "Alexander, my bloodlust has no bounds. It cannot be quenched easily. If I feel like it, massacres will happen. The children and you should always be safe. Protect them and yourself. I haven't known you for long, but you, kid, are interesting and for some reason, my wolf trusts your scent. But," as I started off, I looked up at him into his eyes and gripped his wrist," betray me and the kids come to harm, you will suffer and die. It is not a threat young one. I will find you if you hide. So keep it in mind."

With that, I loosened my hold on him. Alexander looked at me and smiled big, "I am at your service. Anything you need I provide my dark mistress. Also, I'm the same age as you Silver. "

I laughed and said, "We may be technically the same age but in spirit, I am much older." Alexander laughed and nodded.

"Now, what is it that you need from me foxie?"

Turning serious, Alexander said," I need you to help me look for Heaven's Key."

My eyes widened. But a snort escaped me as I tried to hold in my laughter, "I knew you were going to be damn interesting."