3 Chapter 3

Sex, alcohol, and drugs. All of these are toxics.

Since i discovered everything my identity, i chose to changed my life for the better.

From that, i learned how to dream for myself. But i realized that having a dream and pursueng it is not that easy to reach.

First, i didn't finish my school. And that's one of the reason why i left the orphanage then,because for me studying is just waste of time.

Even if i wanted to regret all the decisions i made, there is nothing else i could do about it.

I can't do anything to bring back the time.

This time, i need to think some other ways on how to make my dream come true.

Yeah that's it.

My friend jenny was one of the reason why i encouraged myself on pursueng my dreams.

She gave some opinions which leaded me to move a step. I also met her at the orphanage.

She was the only friend i had when i was still there.

We have the same age so it's not hard for me to get along with her.

We agreed almost in everything. We're just like a real sisters. The colors of our hair are also the same.

But most importantly, we bothe determined to elevate our lives together.

Jenny's father is disabled. Her mother was also diagnosed from a long disease. She also had a younger sister of an eight years of age.

After we escaped from the orphanage, we started to continue our lives together and much as well as our friendship.

"why don't you try to apply in some modeling agencies cassie and have a chance to become a role model then?" She asked me one time.

" I mean a real model as in literaly a model. " i only laughed a bit bout her idea for me but i know she's serious.

This girl is really amazing despite from all the struggles that she'd been through, she still now here with me and give some brilliant idea.

I smiled at my thought. She's really a good friend. I will treasure this friendship no matter what.

"How many thousands of woman who dreamed to be a role model jen? Do you think i am capable enough to compete with them? And to think most of them came from a well known family." i answered with a bit smile platered on my face.

She shrugged her shoulder from my answer and pouted. I smiled at her reaction. She's really cute.

" So what if you will compete with them, then? I don't there's something wrong about it. In fact, we don't know, you could be the lucky one who get to choose." she stated encouragely.

"And besides cassie what's wrong of trying? It's not as if like you're gonna die if you get fail. We don't know you could be the lucky one among those models right?" she gave me a friendly smile after what she said like she's very sure about it.

"And besides you're really beautiful, though you're a pure filipina, you got the beauty of godness cassie. Trust me." she added and gave me a winked after speaking.

I was really thinking too much about what jenny told me. Well, she has a point, right?

What's wromg if i try them? What's wrong if i'll dream and make a step for it? Afterall it's just a try.

Hopefully i could be the lucky one.

I looked at my own reflection in front of the mirror while standing in front of it.

I got a thin body. Oviously because i don't have enough proper food to eat so it's not hard to explain why.

I'm taller than usual measurement of some other woman. I got a height measurement of 5'5. Not bad for a teen like me..

I also got a beautiful oval-shaped face. And addition to my eyes that are perfectly shaped.

I also got a high cheekbone. A narrowed and pointed nose. And a thin lips which seemingly seductive.

So for me to save money for my porfolio, i took two kinds of job. I didn't rest so that i can earn more. Or it is accurate to say that i have no enough rest for my earning.

No day-off. Well, i save money so iwon't take any day off so that i can't spend.

Having day-off is just also waste of time.

For a short time, within five months time, i did able to save money for my portfolio. It felt so good that i made it.

After that, jenny recommended me a photographer.

I didn't hesitate to accept her offer though,'cause i don' t have time and money to find any capable one.

So i whole heartedly accept it. I thought the photographer she suggested me was good.

But i was wrong and noticed something's different from the photographer the way he stared at me.

I didn't like him. But i don't have any choice.

I'm very certainly sure that he's one of those obscene photographer from some magazines i read.

Mike. That is the name of the photographer that jenny introduced me to take my photos.

Few times that he teasingly asked me about some creepy things.

He asked me many times to take some nude picture if i want more money and earn from it.

I only rejected his offer without second thoughts.

He held some parts of my body but not the most private one if we make some shots and i didn't like it.

I really feel something's creepy about him. Especially when he changes some of my post.

I ignored it after then, anyway, after this we won't gonna meet again.

I need to accept that some men feasted on my body. Though i don't used into it.

Finaly, i'm done with my photoshoots for today. And all my photos are already developed.

I can't believed after i saw all my photos.i can't believed i am in the picture!

This is just a truely gift! I was amazed on watching my photos. And from that, jenny strenghtened me to continue what i'm doing and encourage to do it even more.

She said that i have potentials for modeling and that one day i could be one of the top in modeling industry.

I took quickly of my steps so i can easily reach the entrance of the hotel.

I didn't pay too much attention of the limousine which parked right in front of the entrance.

The car caught some attracttion from the people around. Everyone noticed that the limousine's door slowly open which guided by the valet.

There's a man came out from the limousine, i can't clearly see him and i didn't give too much attention.

I noticed the man who got out from the car lately is now blocking my way in front of the revolving door.

"Excuse me please." i politely asked the man who blocked me. I tried myself to get aheadfrom him. But instead of giving me a way to pass by, he stoped on walking and turned his way at my direction where i was standing.

It was as if my world had stop rotating for a seconds when our eyes met.

I came back to my senses when there's someone collided me.

I gave a wicked look of a man.

Shit! What is he doing here in front of the door?

It's been a while since he blocked the entrance! For god's sake. Did he wants some attention from the people around? Seriously? Is it the right time for him to get attention from everybody! How stupid of him!

He is handsome. Yeah. Literally handsome. Right. But i don't have time to think about it!

I don' t have time for this non-sense scene! God!

However, because of his blocked, i just can't help myself but to admire his physical features.

A studied his facial featured very well and muttered a curse after realizing that i have been watching him for a couple of minutes already. Shit!

"Are you done checking on me?" i was stunned of what he just said while looking at me with a smirked.

Oh idiot!

It was as if i was drenched from a cold water when he noticed my stares.

He's handsome, alright. I knew that earlier after our eyes met. Tall and gas a well belt in body shape.

God! Cassie, you're not here to give this idiot a praise! Jesus!

I pinched my hand so that the redness of my face won't notice oviously. But from what he just told me, i know he sees already my embarassment.

I rolled my eyes at him to cover up the embarassment i felt.

He is wearing an office attire. Maybe he's working here? Or maybe he will meet someone? I don' t know and i don't care.

The shape of his body is unbearable even if he's wearing a suit.

He has a brown color of skin and a strong aura.

He looked stubborn, strict, and ruthless.

His eyes seemed very seductive..

For heaven's sake cassie. Stop this non-sense! You're too ovious!

When he noticed that i didn't give him an answer immediately,his stares suddenly changed.

From being mischievous grin to serious and until completely frowning head.

Seriously cassie, you have all the time to notice all of these!?

I see the strange of his presence.

I don't have time to think about that again. Shit!

I am very certain this time that i'm already late for the appointment.

Shit! I won't waste my time for this! This is my only opportunity!

"Are you gonna go inside or not!" i gave him an irritated look while raising my brows.

He laso raised his brows and a lips pouted.

" 'Cause if you' re hesitant to go in then, can you please step aside a little so i can pass!?"

His eyes widened for what i said but then recovered immediately and gave me a grin.

I swear! I got more pissed by his reaction.

I won't deny the fact that i feel something different while staring at him. Shit!

It's as if he was about to pull me closer to him the way he stared. And i wss very disgusted by the appearance of his arrogance.

Am i this annoyed for him to give such a harsh reaction?

Well, maybe, probably yes.

"Are you listening or trying not to listen?" his forehead furrowed even more for what i said.

"Fine! Don't answer me if you don't want to but please! Can you please decide wether you'll go inside the hotel or not!?" i asked him impatiently while taking a deep breath. I noticed again that he didn't even seem to move abit by my annoying voice.

I can feel the suppressed annoyance on his face while his eyes are still narrowed while staring.

I don't care though. It's up to him what he wants to think about my behaviour.

What more important for me is that i need to attend the casting today. God! You're late cassie! Very late!

I have no time for his thoughts!

Not too long he gave me a waved of his right hand giving me a sign that i can go first.

I watched him intently as he guided me to go first.

"What are you waiting for? Do you want me to carry you, then?" he sarcastically said when he noticed that i didn't do what he wanted me to do immediately.

Jesus! This man is getting into nerve! He is really freaking annoying! Shit!

I can even feel the teasing on his voice.

I frowned as i stepped inside the entrance of the hotel.

The rudness of this man is really much evidently annoying! God!

He's damn good looking. Fine. But he is damn ruthless!

I could no longer control myself so i gave him a mutter of cursed as i went inside.

"Thank you for being kind, anyway!" i sarcastically said and gave him a rolling eyes before leaving.

"worthless! I lastly said by all means.