7 Chapter 5 It was Me

2 months later I wrote another letter saying that I wrote the last letter. I was going to give it to him in person. I had to be confident. I was gonna give it to him when it was free time. In my mind it was like yes I can do this, and no no I can't do it! My brain was messed up. He came around with his friends and I started following him. He noticed and told me to go away. That just made me lose my confidence. I felt left out and I felt bad. So my friend Jaida had to chase him down and give it to him. I guess he was scared to be hurt again. But in the present now I think about what if, he never liked me from the beginning? If he never did then what are these feelings? Last year he said he didn't like me. So That probably means that he never liked me and I'm just having mixed feelings. I'm in this state where I I'm about to lose my mind. At lunch time the letter given back to me, and at the end of lunch time I threw the letter in the trash.