1 Realisation
Till death us apart....
Do you ever realise how funny that sentence can sound to someone.. No, I bet you didn't. We always tend to live in our own world where we only believe what we wanted to. Until one day reality hit you and we face doom. Obsession is also another word that leads someone to their end. Reality.. oh.. Reality
I am lying on a small white bed. The room is pure white, the curtains are white, the bed is white and coincidentally my face is also white. Ironically everything is white like my life, colorless. I have been lying in this room for a couple of days....Aha, 7 days. To be honest it felt like eternity. I open my eyes wide and wanted to go to the window. Then I heard the sound, someone open the door and enter in the room. She looks like a lady in early forty. I look at her and realise I don't know her. After I wake up in the morning, she is the first person I saw.
She gives me forced smile and ask, " how are you dear?"
I smile back at her, " still living".
She sigh and murmurs something like teenage girls and the stupid issues. I wanted to laugh at her sentence but then no one take me seriously as usual. So I refrain my to say anything and just look at her.
" What's your name and contact number? fill the form and call me through the switch in your left". She looks at me expecting anwser.
" Inaya", I replied. " I lost my phone and I don't remember anyone's number".
She then looked a little frustrated and told me to rest that she will come later. She went out the room and talked to another person.
" Who is that girl?" asked a very high pitch voice, I guess another nurse. " She didn't say anything. Probably she don't have any family or relatives". " No wonder, nobody came to look for her. Poor soul, I was surprised when someone took the girl in the hospital. She was barely breathing. For a moment I thought she won't make it. But what was more surprising that know one came to look for her and even no one complained about missing. Surely she has no one."
They continue their conversation as the memory of the past came back my mind like tornado. Then I actually laugh loud at their word. I have actually no one who cares for me or no one to notice my disappearance for seven days....Ha..Am I expecting something, no, no one will come and I am sure about it. I look at my surrounding, I let my self know I deserve this. My stupidity lead me in this mess.
Everything that happened to me throughout my whole 18 years life is my fault. I am the only one to blame. If I had realise a little earlier that how wrong I am, could I reverse the situation. No..definitely not. How can a 18 years old girl fight with the whole world. How can I fight with the people whom I loved. How can detest my own blood relations, how can I live with this much of hatred.
I calculated my doings and I still couldn't understand how is it my fault. But now I know what had gone wrong and it's time to fixe everything. I have enough of playing sweet and innocent. I had already enough bullsh*t. Now I will live my life as I always wanted. Yes, you heard it right. I WILL LIVE...
Author's pov: Actually it is my first novel. I have been trying to put my thoughts into sentences, so please take care of me. As English is not my first language so pardon me for any mistake. Thank you for reading and happy reading.
