8 Chapter 8: Rejection!!

Most times people make me feel rejected, the house mother's at the girls home always pressing me with work! most times I felt as this is wickness, most often times when I go around people they let me in, then after awhile they turn their face away from me. I was rejected alots of times by the people them who said that they care about me. Do you care about me but yet still, you turned me away from you when I needed you the most???!! The house mother's always rejecting me, they never show me any help in my school work, I even find myself having all these insane fantasy's about life, when I ask the house mother's for personal thing pertaining towards my hygiene they always looking at me, with a ugly look😡 like they would hit me over. people always pushes me around because they know that,I am an girls home girl and I don't have any parents to care for me at one point in my life I could not take the abusement, so I was planning to runaway with one of the girl's that is planning to runaway, I did not even get the chance to graduate, when they stopped me from going to school. They did not like me, because I wasn't one of there favourite girl why I wasn't one of the house mother's favorite is because I never use to laugh with them, I remember one time there was this woman who has visited the home, her name is Marie and she is from America, when she comes to the home an saw me, felt in love with me, she were planning to adopt me to be her child. When she talks to the girls home director about me but because I wasn't one of there favourite girls, the director tells her a lot of lies about me, by telling her how am a bad child even telling her how my mother and father is in the process of getting me back from the government. When I heard it I cry 😭 that day, I was so hurting in side, I never knew the director she would say such a lie about me,that I know now that no one loves me, I hated the director from that day!! I was even go to push her down the stairwell when I see her going out said, for she to hurt herself because it hurts me so badly, but I did not. In the night when I went to my bed🛌, I was crying 😭 over what the director has said to Marie about adopting me, I sure know I would get a good life. I cry 😭 and cry 😭 I never stop crying that night 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭I have said that I would not runaway before but now I make up my mind to run from the girls home without even looking back!!