Self- Discovery

Hi my name is Sarah. I'm thirty-five years old, I'm always been full of life and energy, but as i grew older, i started to feel lost and unsure of my place in the world. Truly for me I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life or where i was headed.

One day early morning, I decided to take a walk in the park to clear my head. As i walk miles away from my house to the field, i noticed a group of kids playing soccer. They were laughing, running, and having fun. I felt a heave pull at my heartstrings and realized that I missed the joy and fun of childhood.

All of Suddenly, an idea came to me. What's the idea? I decided to start playing soccer again, just for fun. I searched and look around as people where I can get a team leader so I can join, found a local team and started practicing with them.

At first, it was hard to keep up, and i felt out of place, I know. But i kept on playing, i started to feel more and more alive.

I now realized that life was all about finding joy in the little things. I didn't need to have everything figured out, and i didn't need to have a grand plan for her future. All I just needed is to find things that made her happy and pursue them with passion.

As time goes on, i found a place in the world. Because of the love I have for soccer I became a soccer coach and started teaching kids how to play the game. At this point of my life I found joy in helping others find their passion and what the love to do, trained many into England league and other leagues just like she I want too.

I can really say that have learned that life was a journey, and that the most important thing was to enjoy the ride.

I'm now married to a lovely man, have a successful career, a beautiful home, and two kids who loved me . I'm now contented with my life, but i couldn't shake the feeling that something was missing in my home.

One day,I decided to take a break from my busy life and go on a my son school to check up on him. I wanted to get to know why my spirit is always pushing my to check up on my son and spend some time alone with he.

As I arrived to his school, went through the school procedures of checking in, i came across my school friend many years ago, who was sitting in an office. She look at her door and saw me, immediately I heard my name from my left side, I turned to know who was called behold Liz,

Hi Sarah..waving at me and putting on a big smile on her face then pointing a seat close to her.

At first I didn't recognize her but I don't what to hurt her feelings, so I went in and sat down

She started by asking if I later figured life and what am I doing now???

'I was quite for 10 minutes' wondering how she knew about me to that extend, I continue by say. I'm good, yes I figured it out and am now a soccer coach

We talk for long time as she later draw my brain back to our secondary school day, She was my beat friend those year which a rumor came that she is dead by kidnap but I couldn't stay longer than to cut her short by asking her whereabout of my son

We walk side to side as she shows me my son whereabout, i thanked her and we hug as I started to going in the field where my son is.

I saw my son but I didn't what to call his attention to me because he was playing football so I decide to watch my son play, I was move my his moves and all the dribbling he gave to his opponent.

After he had finished playing, I call him to sit with me so that we can talk like mum and son. At first he was happy and shocked to see me,This is my first time of visiting their school to see him or her sister.

Hi son you did great in their and am proud of you "looking at his face I can see that he was blushing because of the compliment I gave to him" Who taught you how to play?? Question I asked him

He said mum truly I don't know, I just love to play and I feel like I have played for a long time, like I can't explain the feeling but I no that this not my first time of playing

Immediately as he was talking my mind went back to when I gave birth to him, when he was ten I always take him along with me to the field I trained my student. He always love to play with the balls and any time I take the ball out of his hand he will start crying so hard that I have no choice but to give the ball back and after the training I will train him small telling him in only he will take this soccer serious when he grow up

Mama he called knowing fully well that am lost in my thought but I told him I heard all that you said. He couldn't hold but start to laugh at me so hard, i joined the laugh but knowing nothing that might have caused him to laugh

A security man standing for a long time talking to me when I was lost by my thought taped my shoulder again to remind my that my visiting time is over that I have to let my son enter his class to learn.

Oh I said and kissed my son goodbye and started going out of the school to where I parked my car, I saw my daughter kissing a boy. I screamed at her and I left with anger into my car straight to the house.

This is 7pm and she is not yet back, i started wondering where she could have been by this time of the night, went to his brothers room but couldn't wake him because he is sleeping. I sat down in the living room straight to the entrance of the house still waiting for me daughter to come back home, tried her number but not reachable and I started to cry so bitterly with my mind thinking of so many things that mint have happened to her.

Is already morning my husband wake me up and ask me to wash up and come so we can talk but I was trying to tell him that our daughter didn't come home last night, he insist I wash up first and see him later. I did as he said and went to see him as he asked.

My love am sorry that you have to sleep at the living room all night. He said

I'm still confused love what are you saying?? I asked

Our daughter called me after her school today telling me what happened and what you saw, at first I was disappointed in her for not tell us that she wanted to handle herself and taste life as she have reached of age. She also said she will be sleeping at her best friend's house but of how angry you look

My love what are you saying to me that she is of age. How old is she?? 18 years old sir, No she still young and a baby sir or are you saying because I'm an African and you are an American and kid here get spoiled at their young age. You want me to leave my kid to be like them, No I will not.

He didn't talk as he started watching his favorite basketball and I was thinking of what he said to me and also waiting for my daughter to come home. I went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast and also do some laundry since is weekend