No chapter on 2nd of May

I made a strategic error resulting in an absence of worthy chapter to release this week. I apologize. Bellow are some details on the reasons if you have any interest in them.

Because of the problems I had just before Easter and of course, the Easter weekend itself, I had no chapter to release ready for this week. This meant I needed to write it all on the 27th 28th 29th of April. What is more, I had planned to barrel through and write two whole chapters in that period to regain my buffer zone. At worse, I expected to be unable to create the buffer but get a significant lead for next week which would let me take that lead I had desired.

Obviously, since I am releasing this, it didn't go as planned. Two things led to a result that is not only too short to be considered a decent chapter but also something of sub-par quality I am not comfortable releasing.

1. I was so focused on the importance of taking back the lead I had lost over the last few months that I convinced myself that not getting those two chapters written in three days would be terrible. When I finally sat down to write it, I was determined to do all the work necessary but I found the task daunting. On the first of the three days, I was forced to stop working on many occasions because my sister needed help with her computer. On the second day, I looked at what I still needed to do and felt that it was impossible to write two whole chapters in two day and thus, I lost all motivations to do it.

Obviously, on a logical standpoint, I understand that it's more than enough to write one of the two chapters I wanted and then, write two on the following week instead but I couldn't find the will to do it in me. Probably because of point 2.

2. I didn't feel like writing about Blaze at all. We're in a large stretch of introducing characters over characters and I really feel like skipping it all to get to the "good part". Obviously we can't, I need everyone to know who's who, when everything comes crashing down on the crew. That means I have a whole lot of characters to design and try to make into something more than just a cardboard prop.

I was and still am, uninspired. Not only on the characters but on every scene that introduces them or how to link them all together. Every sentence is a chore to write because I feel like I don't know where I'm going in the short run and I know the whole thing will suffer from this.

Every time I try to write about Blaze and his group, My mind wander to something else. Surprisingly, most of the time, on "Born form a divine gamble".

This is why I said in the beginning that I made a strategic error. Ideas are rushing to me about BFDG all the time recently and when I'm working on TV show, I wish I was working on BFDG instead.

Obviously I should have. Clearly, I wasted my time this weekend and nothing was done. If I had written in BFDG instead, the chapter would have been done easily and I would have had something to release this Thursday.

I was hellbent on writing about TV show despite my uninspired state and thus, nothing at wall was accomplished.

Not long ago, the situation was reversed and I released many chapters of this to gain myself time while I struggled with BFDG. I was in the mood to write TV show and I had trouble making new chapters of BFDG.

Now that I feel opposite, I wonder if it would be better to leave TV show of a bored God aside for a while and focus on BFDG while I am in the mood. Leave it there until I have the inspiration I need to flow on to the next bit.

If not, I have to continue like I am now and write despite my uninspired state. I feel like you must all have noticed already how Blaze kept changing his mind in recent chapters. I know how it all end but I can't see the path to get there, I keep changing my plans and thus, Blaze's change too. It doesn't match how Blaze should act and its annoying me. Not only that but we haven't had a good comedic bit between him and Gilly in a while and I'm missing those.

So now you know what's been happening. Writing this small thing took me about fifteen minutes and this small text is by far longer than what I wrote on TV show of a bored God in the last three weeks. This shows how poorly I worked recently.

I'm not sure yet how I will organize myself for the coming weeks.

I feel like I had something else to tell you all about but I forgot what it was.

Born from a divine gamble is unaffected by all this. I'm starting work on chap 65 tomorrow.