9 A dream III

Zoe always blamed Alisha for stealing her father, his attention and tenderness. However, In the reality she was fighting for something which was never hers, she was despairing them for breaking their home but, At the last she understood that neither Alisha's mom was a home breaker nor Alisha herself Instead she was an outsider and her father's conservancy didn't belong to her from the start

The house for which she was crying, was actually a place where a lovesick woman and a heedless man was living. how could she call that place home? Originally it had become a home when the actual owners of that place entered.  

When Zoe comprehended the outness of the whole matter and decided to leave, after one month of her eighteenth birthday she departed from that house. 

Zoe never received love from her parents but her stepmom always confused her by her actions. Though she was her stepdaughter, her affinity towards Zoe didn't fade no matter how clumsily she behaved with her. Compared to her own mother she could lean on her stepmom's shoulder but she couldn't control her loathe for her, thus the result came out she ended alone with great grief.

She was trying hard to deny it, that she didn't have any expectations from her mother, she would be alright even if she didn't get loved but In the deep inside of her heart  she knew, she was seeking affection and care. 

She clearly remembered when she was leaving, she asked her stepmom that, why didn't she get annoyed when she misbehaved with her? why didn't she hate her?  Wasn't it normal to have hate in step-relationship?

However, Her self-centered answer made Zoe realize that she should have broken the last hope to get one's soft concern "I can't hate you because you are a part of him" She replied,

Even though her love and care were the eyewash, like her mother she was also concentrated only her lover, but still Zoe was regretting to refuse her kindness.

Zoe's regrets became grief when she heard that all the members of her family had passed away.

Her thinking has run wild. Standing there she was connecting every link of the past. However, she arrived into a state of chaos where she became unable to understand what she should do next. 

Coming back in reality she decided first to take a bath but before going in the bathroom she turned and looked at the mirror which was reflecting her image, she went close to see herself properly and she viewed the girl who was standing in the glass was too dull and featureless. She observed carefully, her face had turned pale as someone had devoured her comeliness. College's campus's queen has turned into an old woman whose skin was tanned, Dark circles had emerged under the eyes and  clothes were torn.

Zoe touched the mirror, her own reflection was making her amaze, how could struggles turn someone that much gloomy in such a short time? 

Four months ago, she was expelled from the dorm because all of sudden, the money had stopped coming in her bank account hence she didn't pay her three months fees. It was a wonder because her so called step mother never forgot to put money in her account, in fact  she used to add more than needed. To explore what had happened she returned and she found her family had passed away in an accident and the money-lenders had already occupied her house.

In this time she learned how important money, house and food was and she shouldn't have wasted her resources on useless and fake friends who were with her just to use her and considered her nothing more than money beg.  At the last, she left empty handed, no one was by her side and all support of her had breaked whether it was financially or emotionally.

Zoe leaves a deep breath, no matter how many times she decides to forget the past, the result  comes out nothing except failures because every time dreams or thoughts put it in front of her, she can't control anything in this regard, so leaving these unnecessary pondering behind she walks in the bathroom for the purpose to wash away her anxieties. 

Later on,she comes out and again sits in the front of that mirror.

Though her ruefulness hadn't washed by water but the glow of her skin emerged again. After a long time, she had a peaceful sleep, indeed her rowdy dreams didn't renounce their routine but still she had a quite good time. Along with there was no doubt that the atmosphere of that room was too tranquil which helped her to relax.

She was looking in the mirror with focus and her soul was begging her to abandon the past, it had become totally exhausting and it had tried.

Even if she dies due to the guilt and tedium nothing will change, neither ones will return.

She should keep walking maybe one day she will find peace for which her soul is yearning.

Zoe was in deep thinking but suddenly a sweet tone breaked her concentration, she looked at the direction from where the voice had echoed.

She spots a girl who will be around eighteen years old. Zoe examined her head to toe, she was looking like a maid and she was really pretty like spring of march.

"Yeah" Zoe replied while turning her head towards the mirror again. 

"Miss, you have been called."  Her gaze was looking down while her tone was too humble.

Receiving too much respect Zoe can say that the master has perfect command on his servants, from head to common employees know their places. She should behave herself since her new boss is a strict and unpredictable person.

"Yeah" Zoe answered.