5 Chapter 5

I woke up with the soft beeping from my phone. I squinted at the glaring bright screen saying that it's 5 in the morning and I struggled to turn the alarm off.

I decided to take a run since I woke up two hours earlier, this is a good thing to keep my mind off things. I groggily climbed out of bed and head to the bathroom to brush my teeth and change to some hoodies and sweats.

I go downstairs to get some coffee first to give me some energy because all of this is really draining me out but as soon as I get to the kitchen I saw my brother Dylan making some coffee too and he somehow sensed my presence because he quickly turned around looking surprised.

"Hey." I greeted him.

"You startled me!" He said with his eyes wide and no sign of bluffing.

"I didn't do anything. I was just about to enter the kitchen." I said while walking to get the milk from the fridge to put in my coffee.

"I thought you were mom." He told me while he sipped his coffee on the table.

"Are you avoiding her?" I said while I pour some coffee in my cup.

"You know she needs us after what happened right? You do know that we need you Dyl." I said calmly keeping my façade intact. I'm even surprised that my voice cooperated and didn't cracked.

"And you thought that this isn't hard for me too Ane?" he was about to slam his fist on the table but he decided not to, maybe because he will wake mom up and he clearly doesn't want to deal with her at the moment.

"It's hard for us three Dyl, we're here to support you so can you please stop acting like we're making this much more harder for you because we are struggling too as much as you do. No, actually mom was struggling much worse than us." I say not so calmly now, my façade slowly chipping away.

"I gotta go. I don't really want to talk about this. Not now, not ever." He say standing up and grabbing his bag that is abnormally full.

"Why is your bag looking like that Dylan?" I asked suspiciously.

"I'm going away for a while, don't look for me. I promise I will be back, I just need some time to breathe in all of this." He says not even turning around to look at me.

"Are you seriously going to run away? Now? Are you really going to leave us? Leave mom? Dylan! How can you do this to us!?" I screamed at him not caring if mom wakes up, I'm infuriated.

Dylan just looked at me from his shoulders, he looked broken but he didn't do anything to fix that instead he is running away from all of this mess. He is a coward.

He then proceeded to walk out of the door not having any plans to fix this with mom and me. Hell! He's not even going to say anything!

I just screamed once he's out the door, I hear his car roars and he quickly drives away. Mom came running down the stairs and came to my aid but I just stand up and runs out the door.

I ran. I ran and ran not even caring where I end up, the wind hitting my face is refreshing, it dries up my tears a lot faster and it also clears my mind that is currently fogging up because of the hurt I'm feeling. When I stopped to take a deep breath I was surprised to see that I was on top of a hill. I didn't know that there was a hill here, but this is calming my raging nerves besides the view is wonderful. It was a secluded spot, trees surrounding it and I didn't know how I ended up here without me bumping to a tree but it is really cool to be up here. I just sat at the top admiring the view downhill, it's a steep slope down, it's overlooking the city and you can clearly see the sun rising from this spot, I just let myself calm down and at the same time letting my tears stream down my face. It's amazing really, I've cried a lot since that incident and still my eyes were not dried up.

I've been sitting here for a while now, the sun is almost up the sky when I heard some faint rustling from the bushes. I immediately bacame alert then Francis comes out of the bush. He seemed surprised to see me.

"What are you doing here?" I asked him surprised too.

"I should ask you the same question cupcake." He told me that annoying smirk plastered on his face again. I didn't answer him, instead I just looked at the rising sun again.

"We keep meeting, eh." he told me while taking a close sit beside me, closer than what I'm comfortable of so I scooted away from him.

"It's pure coincidence." I say sternly.

"Whatever you say cupcake." He say mischievously.

"It is." I say while standing up, I need to go home. I remembered I left mom and ran off without saying anything to her, I need to come back soon and check up on her.

"Where are you going cupcake? I just got here, aren't you going to spend some time with me?" He said and I can even tell that he is smirking while saying that, it's creepy.

"None of your business, besides you're here I will not be able to enjoy the view to myself." I say and began running again.

"What do you mean by that!? Cupcake!!" I hear him yelling.

I memorized the path I've taken up the hill, I'll probably go back there at night time to calm myself or to clear my mind sometimes.

When I got home I saw my mom at the kitchen cooking breakfast again.

"Hey mom." I greeted her while standing at the kitchen door. She whipped her head towards my direction fast and for a moment I got scared that her neck might crack or something.

"Diane!" She yelled out of relief to see me and she ran towards me and pulled me into a bone crushing hug.

"Mom, you're squeezing me." I told her.

"Oh, I'm sorry dear." She immediately released me and smiled at me, but I noticed her eyes were puffy and red. She's crying. I really hate it when she cries.

"I'm sorry about earlier. I was so frustrated about Dylan and I really need to get out of this house right away that I didn't even think about you mom. I'm so sorry." I say my voice almost cracking up.

"It's all good sweetie, I understand. I know that this whole situation is hard for you, hard for us but I will do anything in my power to make it all better. I promise." She grabbed my hand and looked me in my eyes.

"Mom. We're all in this together, we need to support each other. Even though Dylan left us I will never leave you alone mom, I will also do anything that I can to make this all better." I told her as reassuringly as I can. She just smiled at me, I can't read that smile but I guess it's all going to be ok, at least for the both of us.

"Let's eat darling, I make some pancakes and I cut up some fruits. You need to eat before going to school. Oh, and I'm going to cook dinner tonight make sure to be home before dinner okay?" She told me enthusiastically and I know she's just masking up her feelings but I didn't say anything because I already know that this is really hard for her so I just nodded and decided to go upstairs and wash myself getting ready for another day at school.

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Love lots,

Reese xx