15 | Part 14

That was not okay. That was so not okay. Brothers don't kiss brothers.

What did they do? That wasn't supposed to happen! And it most definitely wasn't supposed to make Jungkook feel flattered.

"Wouldn't you have?" the older asked after Jungkook didn't answer him.

Whatever Jungkook was about to say it wouldn't be anything good. So he just kept his mouth shut.

"Koo?", Tae asked again and touched Jungkooks shoulder. Jungkook jumped up from the way-to-comfortable couch and his brain paused.

"We should go to sleep", he replied and silently walked out and left Taehyung in that room lost to his thoughts.

Jungkook just had to get out of there.

Just as predicted: it got weird between the two of them.

Whenever they were alone, the room tensed up into this awkward uncomfortable atmosphere, no one ever wanted to experience and quickly one of them left before the other even had the chance of saying something.

On shows and in front of the camera it was even worse. They had to put up an act. Taehyung was glad that they had to do that though. Of course it felt unnatural but at least Jungkook had to be around him. He avoided his gaze no matter where they were. He never dared to look Taehyung in the eye. It almost seemed like he was afraid. But what would he be afraid of, Tae wondered.

As they got off stage, back into the tour bus, the rest of the members went to their cabins quickly, so did Taehyung. Their cabins were two sized mattresses, for two members to sleep on. Because they were seven and there were only three double sized cabins, Jungkook was hoping to sleep on the couch. Alone.

The couch was already taken.

Taehyung was in one of the big cabins. His face was turned to the wall so Jungkook couldn't see if he was already sleeping.

He would have enjoyed sharing a bed with Tae if it wasn't under these circumstances. He would love to be close to him, always. But he shouldn't. They were friends, brothers. In a boy band which got more views every day.

Jungkook tried to lay as far from him as possible but it didn't make him feel any better. He actually felt guilty. Damn, he didn't know what to feel.

Everything felt so bizarre.

But that night at the rooftop, where it was just Tae and him.. that had felt real. And it had felt good.

They didn't have to think about anything, they had forgotten it all. Nothing had mattered that night. Time had stopped as Tae's breath had tickled on his own lips.

But it was just a moment.

A moment of many- no. No no just a moment, Jungkook thought, just one single moment.

Why did he write that stupid song? Why did Tae immediately know that it was about him?

Well maybe because Jungkook had looked at him after he answered the questions, he thought.

Dumbass, Jungkook thought.

Idiot.

What did he do? He ruined everything.

Would he have accepted the kiss?

Would he?

Taehyung was right. If Jimin hadn't barged right through that door..

But what was that supposed to mean?

It wasn't a secret that Taehyung casted the most confident people under his spell.

Lots and lots of people were fascinated by his looks.

Well, he was indeed very handsome and admirable, Jungkook thought.

But he was so sweet too. And a genius as well.

It was incredibly impressive how Taehyung got all the steps of the choreography in his head after only learning the dance for 15 minutes and how he remembered every single detail of a day he had loved, so he could talk about it again and again. Or how he was able to make people feel euphoria when he showed them something he had fun doing.

Like that sliding on the ice on the rooftop.

That made Jungkook feel euphoric.

But it was just after the concert. They always felt euphoric and flashed after that. The feeling had probably just been stuck in his head already, before he found Tae goofing around in the snow.

How he'd love doing that again sometime. But snow was a while away, it was June already and they only had a couple of shows left. First they'd concentrate on making new music and music videos. They already had a song that was almost finished. It was called DNA. They still had to record it, the choreo wasn't done yet and the video shoot was supposed to be in a few weeks. After the music video would be done, they'd do some other concerts and work on the new album in the meantime as well. It was a hell of a schedule for all of them and the members were missing home too.

Recently, Tae had collapsed on the stage for a few seconds.

As it happened, all Jungkook could think about was making sure he'd be alright. He forgot how he wanted to keep his distance. He rushed over to him and helped him up again, Jhope and Jimin were very worried. Namjoon advised Tae to get as much sleep as he could but Jungkook knew that he still struggled sometimes.

After that, he just wanted to be his friend again. Just by his side again, no matter what he was. But he thought that Tae would have pushed him away. And he was afraid of his reaction. So he just tried to be professional about it and secretly kept an eye on him, his diet and his health.

That's 'behind the scenes', that's what Taehyung didn't know.

The movement next to Jungkook, got him back, out of his thoughts.

He remembered that he was still laying next to Taehyung, in this double sized cabin, driving to the next city.

Tae had turned his face to Jungkook and his arms slung around him and pulled him closer.

Jungkook was undecided what to do just then as Taehyung mumbled something.

"I've missed you."

"I've missed you too", Jungkook said in all honesty.

He carefully brushed a strand off Taehyung's forehead.

But there were already little snores coming from his sleeping neighbour so he just adapted his own chin and cheek on Taes forehead and dived into his dream world of banana milk, ariana grande and video games.

But then he woke up in the middle of the night because he felt a hand on his tummy.

Like.. an actual hand on his actual tummy. A skin on skin situation.

He felt his cheeks slightly burning and he didn't know what to do.

Taehyung was fast asleep, but that didn't stop his hand from accidentally traveling a little more south.

Not that that would make Jungkook feel weird in that part of his body, not at all.

He carefully took Taehyungs hand of his skin and placed it somewhere on the bed. Then he turned and laid onto his stomach and wished that hopefully by the time he woke up again, that erection of his, would be gone.

"Jungkook", Taehyung groaned.

Jungkooks alarm was screeching through the whole tour bus.

"Jungkook, turn it off!", Jimin whined.

Jungkook accidentally smashed his phone onto the ground as he tried to turn the shrill sound off. Fortunately his phone responded to that and stopped.

His erection was still bumped up in his pants. Did he have that dream again? Ugh.

He quickly grabbed some clothes that laid on the floor: his own jeans, Jimins shirt, Jhopes socks and a jacket from Tae which the said man had worn yesterday and Jungkook disappeared with those clothes in the tiny bathroom.

He'd have no way of getting rid of it if he didn't.. he quickly dressed himself and put his Pyjamas next to Tae on the bed.

Then he walked over to the front seat, next to the driver and asked him if they might be able to stop somewhere for breakfast. The driver nodded and Jungkook walked to the back to ask the other members what they all wanted. Jimin and Jhope were already dressed and Namjoon was in the bathroom to change.

The maknae decided to pay Suga hyung a visit and carefully went over to the couch in the back room.

All he got from the older was some mumbling and a groan.

"Come on, hyung, get up."

Yoongi turned around and his back was now facing the younger.

"At least tell me what you want to eat."

"Just a salad with chicken breast would be nice", he mumbled through the blanket.

"Alright but you'll join us when we'll have breakfast soon right?"

"Mhm."

Jungkook chuckled and just told himself to let him be.

As he walked back, Taehyung was changing in the hall because the bathroom was in use by the oldest now. Seeing his tanned back and smelling his natural scent wasn't really big help to him.

"Oh hey Jungkook", Taehyung said as he turned around.

"Could you give me that shirt over there?", he asked and pointed at a classic black coloured tshirt.

"I-um-isn't that mine?"

"Well you're wearing my beloved jacket, and I need something to put on, I can't walk outside looking like this", he said laughing.

"Why not", Jungkook almost responded but was able to hold it.

"I guess not", he replied instead and handed Tae his own shirt.

"Thanks."

"What do you wanna eat?"

"Oh I'll just come with you into the store, you won't be able to carry all that food alone", he said and added silently: "not that i didn't notice the muslces you've gained but you could use my help anyway..."

"No, Tae, you shouldn't overwork yourself. I'll be fine. Hoseok hyung will come with me", he said.

"What?", Jhope asked after he heard someone say his name.

Taehyung pouted.

"It's okay, you can help me some other time", he said and gave a little smile that made the older feel warm around his heart immediately.

"Did anyone see hyungs wallet?"

"He'll hate you so much", Taehyung laughed and pointed at Jins wallet that was somewhere on the ground.

"Thanks." Jungkook walked over and put it into his pockets.

"What do you want?", he asked Taehyung.

"Oh I don't care, just give me anything. But nothing spicy!"

Jungkook nodded and after they arrived, he disappeared with Jhope in the store on the pull-in.

The rest of the members started cleaning the tour bus a bit in the meantime.

After they chose a few meals, Jungkook excused himself to the toilet and Hobi already went back.

-Twenty minutes later..-

"I wanna hit him for taking my money once again", Jin said with crossed arms.

"He'll be coming back soon, I'm sure."

"Shouldn't someone check on him? Not that he slipped or blacked out or something", Tae said with a concerned voice.

So Jimin decided to take that job and jumped up from his seat to walk over to the store and quickly found the restroom area.

"Jungkook?"

"Jungkookie? Are you here?"

Only one of the doors was locked. Jimin carefully knocked on it. "Jungkook?"

"You okay?"

"That's one way to put it", Jungkook replied and Jimin could hear the smirk on his lips.

"Why what happened? Are you alright?"

"Are you alone?"

"Yes?"

The older heard how Jungkook stood up and unlocked the door.

Then he carefully opened it and bursted out in laughter.

"THIS is what's going on?!"

Jungkook shrugged his shoulders.

"Jesus."

"Stop laughing it's not funny!"

"It is! Ow-", Jimin said but the younger hit his back.

"What am I supposed to do?! It just won't go away!"

Jimin laughed. "Just jerk off, what do you think?"

"No! I- I can't", Jungkook answered silently.

"Why?" the other asked, still a big grin on his face.

"I-", Jungkook said but then stayed silent.

"My mind keeps wandering off to tae, when I-", he said meekly and cleared his throat.

"So? Just think about him then, no one has to know."

"But you already know-"

"Well I can keep a secret. This conversation never happened, now get it done with and come back. Jin can't wait to get you into his hands", he said laughing and left.