4 Sick

I'm 18 and have barely seen the outside world. I have cancer and I'm gonna die but I don't care, I have nothing to love for. Yeah I guess my family but it would just be easier for them if I were to die; they could stop playing these metrical bills, and they wouldn't have to worry about me. I just stress them out to much. I have no friends I have never been to school; I have been in and out of hospitals since I was 4.

I'm gonna die here all alone. My family has stopped visiting I have no one. Why does life so this to me. I get it there is a possibility that there is someone who probably has it worse then me, but I doubt it I have a pretty fucked up life. I'm 18, all alone, no family or friends that care, I have cancer, and I'm gonna die all alone. All these things I'm never gonna be able to see or do.

I kinda just wanna die at this point. Why do I even try. I'm weak I have lost all my hair. I'm really pale and can't walk. Can't they just pull my plug. I don't have long to live. They are just sitting there sticking me with needles 24/7, and they know it's doing shit. It's not gonna stop me from dying it's just gonna help me live longer. There just watching me suffer at this point. They think this is living. How is this living. I'm living off fucking feeding tubes. I'm not living at all. This isn't life it's hell.

I can't stand this anymore. I don't wanna go through this, but at the same time I don't wanna die. I'm gonna die anyway so why can't I just go now. I'm not living any way.

I reach over towards my plugs that are te only thing keeping me alive at this point and unplug them. I watched as my heart monitor began to speed up till my heart stopped. All the nurses and doctors come running in with my mom and dad trailing behind. I'll miss them and hopefully they'll miss me too. Hopefully they understand that I wasn't living and I didn't wanna have to go through with that anymore.

But mom...... dad.........

...I Love You........

*Authors note: hi guys I'm sorry this update took so long. I have been really busy with school and my midterms are coming up. I don't really have a posting schedule I kinda just post whenever it's convenient for me. But for my new years resolution I have decided that I will be post one to two times a month. I will try to do two times a month but I might not be able too. I also wanna thank you for the people who have been reading my story it's my first one and I hope you guys enjoy it. If you guys also wanna find me on my two other social media's where I try to post every day you can try my instagram and tiktok and yes i am a cosplay who draws and write stories hope you don't mind.

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