11 Rehab

The following day were back to a rare normality were they spent large amounts of time outside and Mr.Park introduced me to my teacher. The door between our apartment was always locked when she was supposed to come. I decided to recibe her in my apartment so the boys could come and go as pleased just to be careful of cover their faces before going outside and the company gave a singal that I hold outside the main door.

I already made my dates with her when she probably wouldn't meet nobody but tried not to give much information about myself as much as possible. Not lying but not telling her much either.

I really appreciate her work so I was really learning very fast. I also used any given noment to study on my own so I could read and also write what she had said the day before and I always had my own doubts for her ready so we avanced on the course more easily than she thought it might be.

We talked with Mr Park when I could follow a conversation with her without much difficulty the rest was a vocabulary matter that I could achieve on my own I had learned like this before and if I use all my energy in doing one task at time I can do that much.

Some days had passed after Yoongi surgery, he has been sleeping well at any given noment, I would find him in any comfortable spot of the house with his papers and pen I had, sometimes is a book or a the pad that provides them electronic sounds. His adorable self lately has been more and more present with every minute spend awake with his friends pampering him. He had been experiencing how is to be extremely loved, enough to make him blush furiously and get to hear pieces of his mind as he disappeared into the safety of his room.

Today I waked up late, not enough to mess with my day, I was tired but the day was magnificently sunny so I took my fresh made mint tea and opened the terrace to take a look outside for the first time in days. Here I can be looked in permanently if I wanted every service could be covered just a phone distance or internet connection.

The weather was nice today for the first time, I never thought the sky here could be that clean and blue as today but it was refreshing. I was filling more awake now so I came back in .

The laundry was done quickly because I didn't have to use the dryer today. Liam wanted to go outside so I dressed him so we could play outside. Now that the teacher doesn't would be coming here the door to connect the apartment to the big one was open at least since last night. I was listening to music as we danced and laughed, on my play list there are some Japanese rock songs that belong to my favorite animes or artist.

I was singing banging my head enjoying Datenshi Blue by Aucifer when I noticed Jungkook petrified on the spot. I greeted him totally embarrassed and was about to stop the music but he magically holds my hand to stop me. He noticed his gestures a second later, I saw his eyes opened in surprise meeting mine but instantly he took some steps backwards hiding his hands from my perspective.

- what is taking you so long? - came Taehyung looking for his friend he blinked a couple of times before Liam noticed him and ran into hi arms to be lifted. I collected the phone and coughed to cover my embarrassed face and smiling asked them why were they here.

They wanted to spend time together before Yoongi would go to spend some time with his family since he can't be active like the rest of the members. I was glad that they included us in their plans because it made me feel more like at home.

We started to chat about my Playlist now that I could understand half of what they said filling the gaps with English.

It was unbelievable that they were so curious about it so I connected my phone to the TV so they would play the songs they wanted to hear. It was funny to forget about understand each other to show them my eclectic taste and be proud of it. I almost died when they told me they haven't heard any of the Japanese songs... they couldn't recognize even the ones in famous animated films or dramas.

I was very excited to show them my limited edition ( deluxe collection) of my favorite animes Nana I realize that I am older than them but have much information about Asian entertainment. In the time I went to collect my items and returned they have found the clips Darren took as I did one of my diverse hobbies. I was pole dancing to different songs.

I'd never been ashamed of my actions even when trying something I wanted. However I groaned because they selected one that said sexy waves...Darren liked much my practice that they.

I felt like forever to see me smile like that it was because Darren was there with me. I miss him a lot and I was happy that sometimes his image was in the mirror behind me. It was a happy moment until singularity started to sound. The boys went crazy as they realized that I heard they songs and the clip was done not that far away. Fortunately my attire was conservative because I danced to enjoy myself not to be espectacular.

The woods and whistles were embarrassing the poor Taehyung was sweating cold because he had never seen someone dancing like that with his song. I took control of selecting the next clips so I played all the kpop based and even one belly dancing to RM and Agus D songs.

-How come?- Namjoon asked freaking me out.

-It's because the beats, I can't pop my body like Hoseok does because I don't know how do it but I practically been learning how to dissociate my body so one part moves another stays and belly dance and twerk...um the quizomba too is basically that.-

- I never imagined that would be danced like that, at least you are an actual Army, how in world you ended working with us?-

- Sometimes I can't believe it myself and I'm not officially one but I like your work very much, even my mom knows I like you sons and have heard some but she have interessiert on Turkish music but its to depressing to me.

- Do you have any? - Yoongi asked in deep thought.

- I'm not sure but I can look later and send the tittle and artists that I have heard.

- So you dance and sing, didn't you came to be and Idol-

- Oh no!! What have you heard is me humming and sing alo the music but I would definitely destroy your dreams and dancing was probably my first hobby but my parents moved countries so I searched on my own the things I wanted to try and learn. After Internet started to be affordable I would search for more so it was a matter of time that I found kpop because I have been watching doramas.

-How many hobbies do have? - Jin asked suddenly

- I ton, and increasing everything about doing with my hands yet I never played an instrument properly, reading and learning about anything that catches my attention. Animes ,mangas, dramas, soap operas,music to enjoy myself. And for fisical activities...umm basketball, football, soccer and rugby, tennis, ciclismo and speed skating ,I watch hockey and boxing or any martial arts combat, cooking and writing... it depends my mood and what came around as I live. I'm learning how to do my makeup because I used to do my sisters and friends makeup and hair but I was a tom boy and now is difficult to do it properly on myself, same fortune on dressing... magic is impossible to me. From time to time I got directionally challenged I'm a bad driver, not to be dangerous for other people but not a good one... I'm also bad at games in general, can't run to save my life...and usually don't spend much money so any expensive activities is out of question.

-woah that's a lot!- Someone said

- I know and it is like that because I do it to enjoy myself so I'm not perfect at any of that, for example I wanted to make a gift to someone that loves...umm cakes for example. well I would do one myself for it and use all my free time to make one the best I can but it doesn't have the presence of one from any fancy bakery. The same goes to my dancing skills, there is me trying out what I like if you recorded me ten times dancing the same son, never would be the same because I do as I feel and forget about perfection. You guys are always doing your best because you want to people enjoy it, the only one that enjoys what I do is just me.

Nobody could say something about it, I know that they love their work but I think they want the same level of perfectionism in everything they do. But that can become a problem if you don't give yourself a chance to just be happy and relaxed. Namjoon to bring some video games to play, and Jin was the first interested on them I went to the kitchen to make some snacks. Jungkook was scanning the fridge when I looked at it over his shoulder.

- I'm going to do some popcorn for Liam, are you hungry?- he nodded happily- sweet or something healthy?-

- something to fulfilling and warm- he said as he moved. We talked about the possibilities as I started the microwave to do the popcorn and ended cooking a sandwich for him.

I settled the popcorn in different places so Liam and the boys could have some as they played.

I went upstairs to bring my dry laundry inside so it wouldn't be cold and started to get wet again since the sun wasn't warming the day now. I was surprised to find Yoongi here. I didn't noticed him at first on my way back he was sitting near the door with headphones on. I left my clean clothes inside over the table and searched for a blanket and covered him from the fresh air.

- I don't like people that much but at the same time I feel like I can't trust anyone anymore and that isn't wrong either. I love tobe on my own but when I meet Darren... I couldn't help myself, I didn't want to be alone again. My previous relationship wasn't a good one but I managed to learn from it . However he needed something more, he tried to kill himself when he was very young and married and started a family but he discovered that she cheated him. We never married because he didn't learn to leave the pain behind, but learned how to be happy with me. The morning of his death we just kissed each other because it was very early. I love him and miss him but I don't feel sad because I understand that he wanted me by his side and loved our family.... Every day people wanted to see me sad and crazy because Liam and I have lost him but to me he is a part of me now that make me stronger and I started to love being open to people around me. Don't push that much, even being hurt is good to find happiness- I said before going back down and play with my son and the boys until the day was done