Struggling Dreams

Everything seems so unknown and yet so similar, the people around me are my family, yet they seem so unknown to me. I can see love in my mother's eyes yet she feels like a stranger to me. i Everything seems so unknown and yet so similar, the people around me are my family, yet they seem so unknown to me. I can see love in my mother's eyes yet she feels like a stranger to me. I want to hug my Dad, but it doesn't calm my nervous self. the grandmother who says i am her life, why do i feel so estranged towards her. Why do I find my siblings far from me even when they stay beside me...... Yet this is my own family and my own bloodline. It's been 2 months since I woke up from my comatose state. Grandma said it was a major accident a year ago and since then I was in vegetative state. This was a miracle that I was saved and woke up from such a disastrous state. People around me seem to love me but I still find some unknown anxiety in them towards me, as if they are afraid that I might harm them. I don't remember a bit of my old self. Dad said i am suffering from permanent amnesia and i might not remember anything about my old self and brother says that its a good thing becoz my old self was a rogue, but i think i was more than that. I find resentment against me in many people apart from my family,was it that cruel to people?. But why can't I relate anything to it. I want to discover myself. I want to redesign my future in a better way. I want to live for my people.