7 Self Blame

6 months later...

Tiara stand stunned, gazing out of her bedroom's window.

She always hopes that someday there is someone whose gives back her Leo, but her hopes never granted until now.

The polices always try to search him until 2 months ago, but the result was negative, they never found him.

Instead, the search was stopped, and the case was closed, because according to them, the case was too old.

She was really angry and disappointed with them.

She just wants them to never stop the search, especially if it's about the child's kidnap case, but apparently it couldn't happened, so she just try to accept that with a heavy heart.

She always blames herself upon that incident.

She wishs that, that time she didn't lose her held on the stroller, she wishs that, she just carry Leo in her arms.

She wishs...she wishs....

Adding to that, her husband, Mike, is not arrive yet from the outside town, whereas he said that, his business there, was just about 3 days long.

She did called him several times, but it always ended at a voicemail, then, the last time she called him again, the number is inactive.

She was losing hope then, and didn't have a spirit to calls him again.

Now, in addition to lost her son, her husband is lost too.

What should she do?

The tears stream down again, my Leo, where are you, Son? Are you alright there? Did the kidnapper treat you with the kindness? And Mike, where are you? I miss you two, and I hope you both are fine.

"Go! Just go! Go away!"

Lily's angry scream heard from the living room, followed by Rhonda's mocking laugh.

"I hate you, Rhonda! I hate you!"

Followed by the loud sound of a door slam shut.

Tiara rush to the living room while wiping her tears.

Her heart break when sees Lily curls up against the couch while sobbing uncontrollably.

"Lily?...Lily, honey, what happened? Why did you cry?"

She hugs her daughter while rubs her back comfortingly.

"Rhonda...Rhonda said that...Leo deserve to be lost, because he's ugly...and...and so that... people don't always mock him, but she did it herself, she mock him again, whereas she promise to not mock him again, I hate her, Mom!"

Tiara's heart really hurt because of that. How could Rhonda said that? How could she hurt her best friend's heart?

But she try to cover her hurt, instead she continue to rubs Lily's back until her cry subside a little.

"Ssh...it's okay, Lily, stop crying, okay? Let people talk whatever they want to talk about Leo, don't bother to overthinking it, I'm sure the talks will stop eventually, if its still go on and on, just ignore it. The important thing is deep down in your heart, you believe that Leo will grown to a kind boy, a loving boy that we loved unconditionally. Do you understand?"

"Yes, Mommy, but I still feel that this is my fault."

"What do you mean?"

"Leo's lost...it's my fault."

Lily's tears start to stream down again.

"What? Why did you say that? It's not your-..."

"Maybe if that time...I wasn't call you to saw Leo's clothes...he's still here, not kidnapped by-..."

"Hey, hey, hey...stop that negative thought right now, maybe...maybe that's my fault," Tiara whisper to herself.

"No, Mom, it's not your fault too."

"No, it's the kidnapper's fault. I just hope they didn't hurt our Leo, our precious Leo."

"Yes, Mom, I hope so, I just miss him, I want to play with him again, I feel lonely."

"Oh, honey, me too."

Tiara hugs Lily again.

"And I miss Dad, where is he, Mom? Why didn't he come home yet? Doesn't he miss us?"

Tiara's heart break again, especially when she saw Lily's eyes, it's not sparkling again, just sad and broken.

"Maybe your Daddy still have some business, honey."

"But why is it so long? Are every people who have work always like that?"

Tiara chuckle a little while heard that simple questions.

"Not always, honey, but some people, like your Dad is sometimes like that, sometimes his job require him to go outside town for days, or months, or maybe years."

"Really?"

"Yes...now, would you help me prepare the dinner, please?"

"Yes, of course."

"Okay, after that, get ready to take a sleep, so that tomorrow you will not late to go to school."

"I don't want to go to school, Mom."

"Huh? Why not?"

"I don't want to see Rhonda, she always mock Leo, I don't want to be friends with her again."

"Oh, honey, please don't say that again, albeit her talk, she still your friend, beside, you have another friend, right? If you still don't want to play with her, you can play with them instead."

"I know."

"Beside, you go to school in order to get smart, you want to be a smart kid, don't you?"

"Of course I do."

"Right, then, don't ever skip the school if it's not really necessary, beside, if you're smart, you can find a method to search Leo, don't you want to find him yourself?"

"Of course I want, Mom."

Lily starts to smile in hope, she really wants to find her beloved little brother.

"That's the spirit! I want to help you find our Leo, and I'm sure someday we will find him and bring him back to our house, right?"

"Right, Mom."

"Just try and pray, okay?"

"Okay, Mom, thank you."

Tiara hugs Lily tightly. She's glad that Lily start to be cheerful again, and her eyes spark again.

Lily also glad that her mother start to cheerful again, and her eyes spark again too.

They just hope that Leo and Mike are fine wherever they are, and hope that they can meet them again soon.





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