6 John Doe

Two men seem in a heated debate under the shadow of a tree somewhere afar.

"Please, mate."

The first man begs to the second man.

"No! How could you ask me something like that? You are crazy, mate!"

The second man shakes his head in angry, and disappointment.

"But I am too ashame with the all people talk already! Think if you are in my position! You will be ashame too, and you must will do the same thing that I will do right now!"

The first man still try to coaxing the second man.

"No, mate! If I were you, I will not ashame! Even if I truly ashame, I will not doing the thing that you will doing right now! And what will you doing is more low deed than the animal deed!"

The first man seems really hurt and shock with his words.

"So, I'm so sorry, I will not doing what you ask, until forever!"

The second man said again before walk away from there.

"Hey! Please, mate!"

The first man try to calls back that best friend of him, but the second man ignore him and still walk away until he's not seen again.

"Some best friend you are! Or was best friend you are now!"

The first man scream while pulls his own hair in frustration.

But eventually, he leans on the tree, before slip off it and sit on the ground.

The tears start to stream down his cheek. Yes, he admit, what the things that he asks his friend to do, is not the humanity deed. But he cannot handle the negative chatters and mocks from everyone, especially from his colleagues.

The negative chatters start since they attend his dinner invitation in his house, that of course, hosted by himself.

He knows that the negative chatters is not fully serious, and he knows he should not considers it serious either.

But because he is one of the sensitive person, the negative chatters that aimed for him and the people he loves is often go straight into his heart.

He is really really ashame about those insults and negative chatters around him, and he couldn't handle it more, and seems like after those, he will not capable to go back to work and to anywhere places.

So, what should he do?

Maybe he should do it himself, but will he really capable of doing it, do it to the people he loves? It is for the sake of them, right? The sake of his family? Right, it's the right thing to do, that's what the dark thought of him said.

Okay, he will do it himself.

Hours later...

He hurriedly runs from that house and go into his car.

'I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, my dearest.'

He is crying in silent, there is a regret, big big regret filling his heart, but he couldn't back away now.

He just hope by doing it, they will have the bright and the better future, without always be insulted in the whole of their life.

He try to wipes his tears and start to drive away from there.

'I'm so sorry, my dear, this is for your goodness, I do it because I really really love you, forever, and always, and I hope you will forgive me someday.'

On the road trip, his tears stream down, again and again.

The guilt always lingering in his heart, but he always convince it that this is for the better of them.

Still, the tears seems couldn't stop, until his vision is blurry.

That's why he couldn't see the car that run fast speed toward his car, and hit it very hard.

Seconds later, his body is thrown down and thrown down again in his car that seems like rolled overthrown for a long time, before finally sliding down faster and faster until crash hard on the ground, and then everything is black.

***

He woke up in the white room, like hospital.

'What happened? Where am I? Am i dead?

"Oh, good, you awake, and you're not dead, Sir, you're lucky you can survive from that crash, very bad crash."

'What? Am I said that out loud? And very bad crash?'

He whip his head to the nurse beside him, but cry in agony almost immediately.

His head is really hurt, and an excrutiating pain spread accross his whole body.

He gasp and close his eyes to hold back the pain.

"I'll call the doctor."

The nurse said again before walk out from the room hurriedly.

A few minutes later she's back with a doctor whose flash him a kind smile.

"Good morning, Sir, I'm doctor Ryan, I guess the pain back again, right?"

He nodded slightly, or try to, his head is more hurt.

"Okay, I will give you the pain medicine again."

The doctor put in the medicine to his IV.

"Did you remember anything? When you were admitted here, you have no ID, no handphone, nothing."

The doctor said again.

He open his mouth to answer him, but seems like he couldn't talk, what happened?

Panic filled his heart. Did he couldn't talk since now?

"Hey, it's alright, Sir, easy, you can just nod or shake your head, for now. So, did you remember?"

He shakes his head slightly.

"Okay, what about your name? Do you remember it?"

He shakes again.

"Oh...that's predictable for the crash that you had, it was a bad crash, your car fall down to the deep ravine, and you're really lucky to survive that. But because of that, you lost your memories, but I think it's temporary, I'm so sorry."

He gasps in shock, lost memories?

"Maybe we will call you John Doe for a while."

The doctor said again, but chuckle to himself immediately.

"I'm sorry, it's sound so cliche, but are you okay with that?"

He flash a small smile and nod slightly, but why is he feels so sad? It's like he wants to cry forever, and he really did cry.

"Hey, John Doe, what happened, are you feel pain again?"

John Doe shakes his head, but he continue to cry, he feels a regret, big big regret, but he don't know why.

Maybe the memory lost is the best thing for him right now, cause maybe there are somethings that better be forgotten.