Story 2 Part 2-Trisha Parin

What has happened to me?...Why did this happen to me? I can't believe how my life has turned out...I'm a goblin's plaything and baring the child of one of the goblins in this hell hole of a cave.

Why has God done this to me? I am nothing like the other scum upon this earth yet I get punished for wanting to make an impact upon this wretched earth. This can't be true, this can't be reality that I have come to face. This is a dream, it has to be a dream. Surely I wouldn't be the victim of this.

My life has truly been ruined, everyday I am used harshly as a plaything as the goblins destroy my insides and stretch both holes to my body. I don't even know how long it's been but all I know it's been long enough to have a bump in my stomach ready for birth. Was I truly gonna be a mom?, was I truly gonna give birth to a spawn that isn't even human?

I feel completely helpless, I have no energy throughout the day as I am constantly used. It doesn't help that I get fed extremely small food portions and the only water source is from the puddle's of where I lay. I can't remember the last time I've properly moved my hands either, my hands have been tied since arriving here and my legs have been chained to the wall. It's so humiliating that I have to eat food off the floor like a dog. What will papa think of me, probably nothing, he never paid attention to me, he probably doesn't even know I'm missing.

I'm not the only girl here, there was another girl who looks to have been here for a really long time. I try to talk to her but I think she's gone insane, her eyes are dull and she doesn't respond to me when I try speaking to her. Her body looked ruined, we are both used to it everyday but after that's done, she tends to the new spawn and is free to walk around the cave. I pity her but I also fear that I may end up like her.

I'm beginning to go insane myself, I'm talking to myself and I'm beginning to forget some words' meanings. The woman in the cave is beginning to look more and more like myself. The goblins still treat me like a plaything and nothing has changed from then. I'm much bigger now and I dont think I'm long away from giving birth. The small food portions are still the same but the taste is becoming more bland.

Nothing is improving, I can't take this any more, I want to see the sun again, I want to see the birds, I want to feel the air hit my face. I want to live a normal life, I want to be rescued. To hell with being queen, to hell with this earth, I want to live normal, I want freedom. Please Lord I beg you, free me, free me from this sentence, I did nothing wrong, I have never sinned in life, I do not deserve this, I question why you did this to me?! I began praying to God for freedom but my prayers were met with emptiness.

There is only one solution to this...I need to break away and attain freedom for myself. If I fake madness and earn the trust of the goblins, they will set me free to walk around the cave. This is perfect, this is the way to attain freedom. There's only one problem, I can't lose the little sanity I have left otherwise I will be the same as that woman. I need to tread carefully otherwise, there will be no return.