2 Chapter 1- The aftermath

Beep Beep The monitor Goes once again. Stuck in this hell home all because I wanted to watch my room burn. I wanted to burn to get rid of every little heartbreaking memory. Here lies a photo of my first ever band rehearsal. the girls and I were always tight. Stella always insisted that we should dye our hair each different color to symbolize who we are and of course I went with purple.

Brown is my natural hair color I was going to black as deep as my soul, but you know things change. My mom looking worried as always my dad never seems to be phased he's too busy worried about Noah and why hadn't he watch me. I'm 17 I'm fine. Or am I? I never really know how depressed I am. I just laugh it off like it's nothing.

As my eyes suddenly focus on the doctors face he speaks and says "Star, Good news you are good to go They said you didn't need to stay even though we should still watch after you"

Of course, the doctor was too dumb to notice the scars I have on my wrist.

"Oh yes I'm okay, I feel better as new," Star said with a sarcastic tone.

Star's inner thought's about the whole situation and her depression.

My love for you is as deep as an ocean So go sink in it and be tied by your feet by an anchor and never to be heard or seen from or I wished.

As I slowly go up my parents hugged me and we packed up to go back to the place where it started. I first thought of Noah as this selfish punk but turns out he was just stuck in traffic and my dad had told him I was good to go and he drove back home just to see me. Cute right? Brother and sister bonding time Wrong!

Noah had only come back to ask for the Wi-Fi password. Which I keep changing. All he does is play games all day and never gets up and cleans after himself. Boys I know right ugh! He's only one year older than me.

Its springtime and the leaves had just fallen. The trees bloomed with beautiful pink flowers. My dad got a call from his job at the School. Yes, my dad is the school principal cool I know it sucks. Somehow some girl tried to jump off the school building While we were off during the break. I wonder who she is.

Her name was Skylar Doe she was a cheerleader she had an abusive father and a drunken mother. None of them seem to figure out their marriage. Skylar would always watch over her siblings Hanna and Joseph. They both were twins Skylar would watch them after school to make sure their dad wouldn't lay a hand on them. No one knew this No one and if they were to know. Her reputation as a cheerleader would be ruined. She wanted to end it all for good. Why you may ask? Well, Skylar doe was originally a sweet, adorable, and young girl she was only a sophomore. She was new to the school but she was the brightest of them of all. But at home, it was difficult to keep up with her school work. Before she decided that she wanted to jump her father had just hit her across her face and hit her in her rib.

This wasn't the first time she attempted to kill herself. My father asked if she needed some help or if anything was going on she could tell him, She tried to Drown herself at school.

"It was an accident," she said."I was only trying to swim and I went too far into the deep end. I can't swim very well."Lucky for her the swim coach happened to be there. The day before her soon-to-be almost death She wrote a note saying Don't come looking for me the pieces you will find won't match up. Each piece of paper scattered on the floor has a map of where I will be last seen. She never had the chance to jump off that building All because her father was abusive her mother didn't care what he did to her. The twins were always separated because he didn't want his son playing with girl toys and turning out gay. Her father was homophobic.

Her father was unstable to take care of kids on his own. Soon enough her mother left her with her father and took the twins with her." She was old enough to take care of herself" her mother thought. She left her a bit of cash and a note saying...

"By the time you read this, I will be gone with Hanna and joseph. It was nothing you did it was your father who drove me to the edge. I am so sorry that I had to leave you alone with him. I want to get better for us, to be sober isn't that what you wanted? I will be sending postcards and photos in the mail. Stay strong, don't let him see your weakness. You will turn out better than me. Better than I ever will be." Love your mother.

No one knew what happened. Why she wanted to kill herself. There was nothing we could say to make her feel better. She remains silent, but still had a smile on her face. The beatings had stopped went her mother left them. All her father did was sit and drink all day and cry about how he could have been better. There was nothing left for her to say. The next month she had transferred to a new school. No one knew why.